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I like the long, low light and the shadows it makes, and more breeze MadSkyChat

It really is. I'm not sure I have the bottle for it tbh... #MadSkyChat

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It's pretty horrific tbh, the sense of dread. Badger related ERP, an RTA badger about a mile away (none of ours, but 24hours of awful uncertainty) & then Peanut going awol for 2 and a half days & being convinced the worst has happened. Too much for one week! #MadSkyChat

Indeed. It's going to be a long winter if I keep worrying like this every time they are half an hour late (arrival times get much more erratic in winter) #Mars

You'd think the least they could do is send a text if they're running late or not planning on coming! #MadSkyChat

So very hard. I find most restful activities also allow more room for thinking...& then they're not restful at all! #MadSkyChat

Mmm, not sure. tbh I probably need more sleep & less anxiety more than rest. #MadSkyChat

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Oh no! That sounds really tricky. Are you having to do the supervision? I think you said she could only have supervised access 🤔 #MadSkyChat

Pretty knackered tbh. It's been one if those weeks which has been a bit more like 2 months. Slightly regretting my decision to clean the kitchen cupboards 🙈 #MadSkyChat

Hugs x it's a super tough thing you're doing. #MadSkyChat

Maya she/her @regeneratingmaya.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

Haha, microbeads! Stupid autocorrect 😆🙈

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FYI: if you try to cancel Disney+ it’ll offer you a discount for 3 months

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Debs with cats @debswithcats.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

Here’s your reminder that it’s #MadSkyChat soon at 8pm BST.

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No, he started to come late last spring😆 I think he ousted the old boar (who I was super attached to) a year ago. 😭

Haha, yes, I'm going v slowly & taking breaks - over the summer bcs I had horrible nausea & vomiting & now bcs the mental are at the worst in Oct/Nov. Planning to start again after Xmas. Your advice on the funnels was v helpful!!

Heartbreaking. Grief for a lost life is awful. Sending love x

For anyone splitting capsules by removing microbes I really recommend getting some "drug dealer" scales, which measure to 0.1 g or less AND a mini metal funnel. Otherwise little b*ggers go everywhere & stick to the sides of paper funnels.

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That's interesting! I've not heard that before, though when I tried to cut Venlafaxine pills without a line it was v v difficult to get even halves. Wish I could remember whether withdrawals were worse then🤔

Sept 2025. The chunky cheeks begin.

Slightly burred black and white photo of a badger on a stone tiled patio with scruffy foliage in the background.

After a few weeks of support feeding

Colour photo of a small badger with thick black stripes eating sunflower seeds from a stone tiled patio.

A v underweight Tolly, when he first arrived at the end of June 2025 ALT: Black and white video of a small, thin badger on a patio. They nervously remove a small rock from an upside down plant saucer and push the saucer along with their nose to reveal some nuts.

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That's what I thought too. Just wondering how old our new boar is🤔

2nd autumn they'd be around 18 months ...? That's what I thought, Tolly started getting his chunky cheeks in autumn, just wondering whether he was 18 months then or possibly younger🤔

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Sarah @intheflowerbeds.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Badger peeps: Does anyone know whether a young boar would start to get their chunky cheeks ~6months old, or is it always upwards of a year? @badgermoon.bsky.social @willow41.bsky.social @tpearcewildlife.bsky.social @patrickbarkham.bsky.social @taneshaallen16.bsky.social @jb-f.bsky.social

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That sounds horrible. You still look awesome though!😍

Sarah @intheflowerbeds.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Peanut! ALT: video of a badger lying on a stone tiled patio munching on sunflower seeds. She looks up at the camera, still chewing.

Well yes, but you have to be really careful that you don't blame the person and instead, if they find something impossible, work with them to make it possible.

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Redirecting...

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Which was a pretty despair inducing response to my not being able to do my homework! When my current therapist said recently that it wasn't possible to recover while still doing compulsions I reflected on the earlier statement & acknowledged it's truth. Therapist response was along the lines of >

Is it possible to recover from OCD without ERP? I didn't think it was.🤔 That's not to say "just get on with it" though. Of course if you could you frigging well would have! I had a therapist once say to me "if you don't do things despite anxiety you won't get better" >

where it was likely to be a result of my actions, but still had a v v anxious 20ish hours until all of ours arrived again safely yesterday. One of them is late tonight though, so keeping a lid on the worry is hard...

It did! Actually although my anxiety etc in the moment was super high I wouldn't say it was overall any worse than a normal, giving in to it, day. Unfortunately it then got sort of worse bcs I saw a post on FB about a badger RTA nearby. It wasn't that near, & not in a place >

Some would say I shouldn't do what I'm doing & I do sometimes wonder (in both an obsessive & not way). I also don't hand feed them because, although they aren't aggressive to humans (unless trapped/immobile & afraid) they do have a v powerful bite & could easily do accidental damage.

That only came about because we had one who was injured &, I now realise, v underweight & I reckoned the benefits for her of my opening the door outweighed the risk of habitatuation to humans. That led to a chain where the others also learned I could be trusted. >

Haha, you can't really feed Eurasian badgers like pets: they're super shy & their natural (sadly often justified) instinct is to fear humans. When I feed mine, I will be sitting/half lying on the floor in the dark, keeping as still as possible. I'll be inside, they outside with the patio door ajar>

Please don't hate yourself, as @wijsgeer.bsky.social wisely says, none of this is your fault, you're in a tough spot & doing the best you can. Also, to paraphrase my therapist, when we beat ourselves up we just give ourselves an extra problem to cope with. You'll be back at work when you can x

Definitely not just you. I was cold today for the first time since about April!

That's quite a big chunk out of your evening x

Love a bit of anatomy teaching! My supervisor did same (he thought my facet joints were a bit fucked, though did not use that exact term!)

Ooh, good egg! I hope it helps x

I think sometimes they do! You might have to chase it a bit (& I realise that's a big ask after having been so let down), but I think sometimes things do come good. I had to badger the CMHT for a year, & essentially write my own referral, but they did eventually send it off!

Oh feck, maybe so. Although you'd hope even your CMHT, woeful as it is, would act on instructions from HTT psychiatrist... Or maybe HTT psych could refer directly 🤔

It might be through 2ndary care talking therapies🤔