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hey what's it called when people liking you feels both like water in the desert but also an imminent threat

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tpwrtrmnky. @tpwrtrmnky.bsky.social · 1h

More generally, don't write for an audience you think is beneath you. The only people who get away with that shit are turbo-privileged cishet white people who live in LA and have their work pushed on an audience through a marketing apparatus they can access because of nepotism

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Pen @pabco.uk · 1h

I try to avois criticising words spoken with good intention, however: I really, really dislike "reach out if you need support" or words to that effect. It's like saying "swim to the shore if you ever find yourself drowning". YOU have to reach out to the one who is suffering. Throw them a life ring.

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ACARS Drama @acarsdrama.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

Air to Ground Message: OK. WE WILL UNLEASH THE FURRY. Area: Valparaiso, IN, USA Type: Boeing 737 MAX 9 A: #a37aff9e0ae F: #fa9f8729936

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 2h

he got a fever and drowned himself

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 2h

i wish my body was just. the right shape. so i was actually me

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gomypretties @gomypretties.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I implemented dynamic subdivision so that the texture warping isn't too extreme. I didn't want to subdivide it too much though, so you can still see some warping. #gamedev #lowpoly #psx

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utopia deferred @utopia-defer.red · 5h

destroying Greek life would be useful for stemming an entire mode of social reproduction which, as I must remind everyone, was born of the confederate south. Greek life prides itself on keeping the tradition of rape alive in more than one form. Sometimes literal.

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more mr. nice guy @juniorhoncho.bsky.social · 9h

it's funny for a child covered in chocolate to try and pretend they don't know who ate all the halloween candy. for a grown man to do it is deeply pathetic

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 8h

i will not psychically mutilate myself for the comfort of people luckier than i ever was

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 10h

i have a sudden overpowering craving for overcooked spaghetti in cheese sauce

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rystic, ultimate legend btw edition (7.56 spoilers) @transcatffxiv.bsky.social · 19h

www.etsy.com/listing/1782... the original artist of this shirt has put up preorders for another run!

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 11h

stop showing me fat fetish art stop showing me fat fetish art stop showing me fat fetish art stop showing me fat fetish art stop showing me fat fetish art stop showing me fat fetish art stop showing me fat fetish art stop showing me fat fetish art stop showing me fat fetish art stop showing me fat f

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sartha robosister @tesarova.neocities.org · 13h

ull have beautiful freaky Tranny sex too, just keep going till u find it<3

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Matt Novak @paleofuture.bsky.social · 15h

The White House accord on AI that was signed by all the big tech oligarchs today misspells United States as “Unites States.”

Document signed by Trump, Sundar Pichai
Google
Dario Amodei
Anthropic
Mark Zuckerberg
Meta

Greg Brockman
OpenAl

Elon Musk
XAI

Jensen Huang
nvidia

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headfallsoff @headfallsoff.com · 15h

i remember when i first heard about american college fraternities as a teen and was like well i must be missing something culturally there must be more there that isnt just the evil stuff but then i learned no its pretty much just the evil stuff

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Chris Person @papapishu.bsky.social · 17h

Ok that explains it bsky.app/profile/reli...

The Hot Dog Incident

(The following is redacted in parts)

Effective immediately, all types and brands of hot dogs or wieners are no longer permitted within the Oldest House. Corn dogs are borderline. All personnel are further instructed to refrain from arguing the merits and faults of various types of hot dogs, including whether
is an acceptable condiment or
style hot dogs are superior to other hot dogs.

This is due to the events of during which a cafeteria hot dog was subsequently
on 10/22/2001, and by Agent
the hot leaving
dog was
Agent
In the ensuing
traumatized and causing internal to four others, who
casings and all.
There is a lesson in this, people, and it is
Act accordingly. We don't
want pizza to suffer the same fate.
Dr. Casper Darling

*re borderline. All perore!
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ali alkhatib @ali-alkhatib.com · 17h

it's also an incredibly, unreasonably charitable alternative to burning down the university.

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ali alkhatib @ali-alkhatib.com · 17h

shutting down frat houses won't end rape culture, but it will disorganize a lot of rapists, and i think that's probably worth doing if only to destabilize what is apparently an ecology of organizations that functionally exist to rape women per the whole "purpose of a system is what it does" insight.

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chelsea bridge @secretaboutbox.bsky.social · 17h

there are no worthwhile qualities of fraternities, full stop. when they're not busy raping women and defending their rapist members they abuse and kill new members for fun. colleges have proven they cannot be made safe or reformed. the only reasonable policy at this point is banning all of them.

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morganite 💖 @morganite.io · 16h

bluesky is for posting BULLSHIT and FLIRTING WITH WOMEN

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Charles Louis Richter @richterscale.bsky.social · 19h

you are invited to her gallery opening

A very tiny tabby kitten in a black post-surgery onesie that looks like a tight black shirt, very chic.

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 12h

Hollow Knight: Silksong (2025, Team Cherry)

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 15h

CPTSD is not primarily about what happened to us. It's about how what happened to us turned us into someone we didn't choose. The "just get over it" people don't understand that. We don't "just get over" who we've become. We have to recondition, rewire, reshape ourselves.

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 15h

It can feel enormously weird to exist in a body & life we feel does not match who we really are-- but that's what CPTSD & DID do. Symptoms like self harm & suicidal ideation are often desperate attempts to escape this unfamiliar, suffocating haze we feel we're trapped in.

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 15h

Of course we feel desperate & alone-- no one teaches us how to realistically set goals or build a life when our entire conscious experience feels uncomfortable & "wrong." Realistic trauma recovery starts from scratch, w/ "who am I?" & "what's the point?"-- which is intimidating.

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 15h

CPTSD is going to try to freak you out about all the care & attention you need, psychologically &/or medically. It's real important you stay focused on just the next thing, w/ compassion & realism. I know it's hard, but reel it in. Breathe; blink; & focus just the next thing.

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 19h

exhausted but i need to survive so one day i can be exwhorested instead

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 20h

i miss my headmates

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 20h

i miss when i felt like i could smile and be innocent

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 21h

probably no walk tomorrow because it's gonna piss it down, but i want to keep this up

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Pen @pabco.uk · 19/06/2026

you're allowed to think you're pretty in fact, you have to even if you don't see it right now, you can cling to the idea as you grow and some day it will become Real

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🌸Bibi🌸♿ @bibiblossoms.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

It costs 0$ to Repost a Black disabled queer small business! It could lead to my next sale. I sell pins, compression gloves, artist gloves, back braces, knee braces, wrist braces, compression socks, cute bags & more! Store: Bibipins.com

5 Oval shaped pins with gold outlines with an oval cutout in the middle with a yellow slideable star:

Spoons: Lavender background
Hunger Scale: Red background
Migraine Scale: Blue background
Speaking vs Non Speaking: Green background

The first one has SHE, THEY, HE on top. At the bottom there's HER, THEM, HIM. White background.

Galaxy and Moon Bunny Compression Gloves

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 29/12/2025

a new gpu, some head, and a cataclysmic personality reconstruction would hit rn

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 03/01/2026

it's fine to want to have an exclusive sex club for you and your hot friends, just maybe don't treat everyone around you like they're also covert debutantes in tryouts for a seat at the high table

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 03/01/2026

my warm-ish take about transfem social circles is that it's actually fine that so many are strongly driven by sex and desirability in inherently unfair ways; problem is they seem often deeply, abusively invested in lying through their collective teeth about it and putting up an egalitarian facade

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 18/01/2026

i'm ngl i think about how i'm trying to like. have self-esteem and find friends at 36 and there's queers who are self-actualized, socially embedded, and getting up to shit like orgies in their 20s and it's like. fuck i wanna kms i do NOT wanna be a pathetic, half-formed thing for the rest of my life

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 18/01/2026

what nobody tells you about cptsd is that episodes of it manifest like physical illness, as much as mental. like i physically feel like aching, rotting, wretched filth *on top of* the sense of tumbling through an atemporal kaleidoscope of my own trauma and pain and misery and shame

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 21/01/2026

got diagnosed with PFGUPD (Prevented From Growing Up Properly Disorder)

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 22/01/2026

my otp is johnno and spanner

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 29/09/2026

the hardest thing to do is to say "i will feel again, i will dance again, i will love and be loved again" when everything you can remember and feel right now says that's bullshit

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cyan @cyan.astra.observer · 29/09/2026

often idk why anyone follows me. i'm a ball of radiating pain like 80% of the time

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