i actually really deeply miss when people enjoyed my writing enough to share it with others. i don't know if i've just gotten worse, or i just arrived in this particular space too late to matter, or both, or something else... i'm embarrassed to post anything these days. it all feels so pointless
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Jan 7
Trying to join a big Discord server when you're not really that familiar with Discord servers somehow manages to combine the social anxiety of trying to make new friends or ordering at a fancy new coffeeshop for the first time with the general chaos and technical barriers to entry of an MMO. I shuffle up to the counter and go "Um, hey, can I get---" only for someone named ☽ 𝓖𝓸𝓫𝓵𝓲𝓷 𝓕𝓾𝓬𝓴𝓮𝓻 ☾ [👑 Mod] [👺 Dark Wizard] [♣︎ BUNT] [🔮 Pengis Time 2022] • he/him to manifest in a cloud of bisexual coloured animated lightning, turning me instantly to dust and then announcing to the shop at large "Hey guys, please remember to read the #2026-updated-rules-terms-and-conditions and choose your role before you speak, also remember that ordering should go in #ordering-drinks, #ordering-cakes, or #ordering-a-cake-and-a-drink, unless you're 🔉just-using-the-bathroom. Thanks"](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:tsu6hjne47z2socnzmls2ild/bafkreiea4wjbeqky4dcc62ps25dvjiax4sx5vokfxzbamipfcg53c66pta)
