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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 25/09/2023

hi bluesky I'm still alive and Samson is doing well

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 29/08/2023

I've written you all a letter. Thank you for your time. @alt-text.bsky.social

Hello all,
I cannot apologize enough for my actions or thank anyone enough for their support.
One of my anxiety habits is to try and fix any problem I have caused immediately. I cannot handle when I feel like someone is mad at or feel like someone hates me and when I've been off my anxiety medication, in the midst of drug withdrawal, everything is magnified to catatrosphic levels. None of this excuses my behavior towards Grace or anyone I interacted with.
I felt scared and trapped inside my own skin and like my body was trying to grow out of it. I felt like I was both in control and out of control when I was clearly so out of control that I couldn't see it. It was gross behavior, I betrayed my own thoughts and morals and hurt someone that actually cared about me and someone I actually cared for. I have had a lot of incidents this year on this website with racism or a lot of people getting mad at me and it was all happening again but I couldn't take it because I was off my medication.
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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 28/08/2023

Please read the whole thread. Women and femmes are not my personal therapist, psychologist, psychiatrist, comforter. They are their own people. I was off my medication and was experiencing drug withdrawal in combination with my usual mental illness. But that is no excuse.

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 26/08/2023

Please do not tag Grace in this. I have already deleted her number from my phone. I have already caused her enough pain.

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 26/08/2023

I can only hope that I can regain anyone's trust in the future. You can either choose to believe I'm being honest or not, but every everything I've said has been my honest experience, and again, it's no excuse for that kind of behavior. I will be truly gone now. Please take care of yourselves.

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 26/08/2023

I was not feeling myself. And that is no excuse. I felt trapped inside my own body and there was someone who there who treated me so genuinely kind that I didn't want to lose that. I overstepped my boundaries and let my insecurities dictate my behavior. I lost respect. Apologies mean nothing.

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 26/08/2023

Today is my birthday and I'm not asking for anything, I am definitely not asking for forgiveness. But I would like to explain my actions. Again I am not asking for forgiveness but a little understanding.

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 25/08/2023

Mental illness and insecurities are no excuse for abhorrent behavior. No one should ever have to be harassed or have their privacy invaded because of my feelings. I am sorry to Grace for everything I have done. I am sorry to all of you for having let you down. Goodbye.

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 25/08/2023

I have done something truly awful to someone I cared about and someone who cared about me. I can never do anything to make it up and I am going to log off. I won't name her but she deserves much better than anything that I could ever have done. I'm sorry for the hurt I've caused and goodbye.

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 25/08/2023

I don't know what behavior I have exhibited that needs to be changed but what it is, I will change. I am sorry to anyone for anything and everything that I've done.

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 25/08/2023

I would sincerely like to understand what I have done to anyone. I am open to listening. I just want to know.

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 25/08/2023

I'm so sorry, please anyone just tell me

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 25/08/2023

If I have done anything please message me on Discord I am TheBlackNerd on there too I am so sorry for anything I have done and I am just trying to understand what I have done and to who

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 25/08/2023

i legitimately don't know what i did and i'm sorry i'm sorry to everyone i hurt, i'm legitimately just looking for answers i'm open and available to talk on discord, i just want to understand i'm so sorry, i just don't want to have hurt someone

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 25/08/2023

@corrinvalentine.bsky.social corrin did I do something? I need to know if I hurt someone because I genuinely don't know and I'm scared to have hurt someone

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 25/08/2023

If I did anything to anyone that was offensive or I hurt anyone in any way, please let me know because I'm genuinely sorry I just don't know what I could have done, I've barely been on here and I've barely talked to anyone

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

why is no one replying to me? what did i do?? I've barely been on this website

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

just found out that Bray Wyatt died?? AND FUCKING HULK HOGAN STILL LIVES

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

who wants to come to my house and watch me be a normal human

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

giving myself a manicure on extreme difficulty

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

y'all would tell me if i was a big piece of shit, right

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

eat the booty like groceries?? you don't EAT groceries, there could be trash bags or bleach or pencils in there! this whole premise is a farce!

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

i think a lot of men don't understand boundaries because they've never had to personally set any for themselves but that's no excuse to be a shit-ass

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marina grlica 🌱 @dovesplants.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

ohhhh give me the booch boys and free my soul

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juni 🏳️‍⚧️ @blahaj.rodeo · 23/08/2023

i keep forgetting how nice the gender-neutral bathroom at the royal hospital chelsea is

Margaret Thatcher’s gravestone at the royal hospital chelsea, dated 1925-2013. There are no flowers on it, as it should be.

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GOLIKEHELLMACHINE @golikehellmachine.com · 23/08/2023

this is the dumbest fucking thing i think i’ve ever seen on any production vehicle made in my lifetime

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mankrik's wife guy @byelacey.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

heh heh heh

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

the 3 genders

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

who wants to go to the mall and go to hotopoic hop toppic tick tockic hot pocket hot topic

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

"it's dangerous to go alone, take this" but it's my penis it's a shame there's a writer's strike because this would good me hired somewhere

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

women would be a beautiful name for a girl

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

If you're a writer, you can say "Oh, how the plot thickens..." to inform your partner that you have a boner They will never get tired of this

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Graham, probably @normalguy.online · 24/08/2023

Getting sucked off in a big Bass Pro Shop, call that

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

getting sucked off by a mummy, call that

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Cortana 🌧️ Napping @cortanav.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

Goob Mörning from this pile of Dachshunds

Laying on my side on the sofa. Luna sitting on my hip, looking away from the camera. Libby sitting on my leg looking at Löaf. Löaf in front of me thinking about crimes.

Laying on my side on the sofa. Luna sitting on my hip, looking away from the camera. Libby climbing my shoulder. Löaf in front of me looking at the ceiling, so all you see his his soul patch and a little bit of his teeth.

Laying on my side on the sofa. Luna sitting on my hip, her tongue sticking out. Libby sort of sitting on my boob, looking at me with concern. Löaf in front of me, about to loudly whine because he is not the only dog on the sofa.

Laying on my side on the sofa. Luna laying down on my hip looking sad. Libby yawning. Löaf cuddled up under my arm.

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

This post would destroy the Silent Hill community

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

BARKNESS IMPRISONING ME ABSOLUTE LOUDNESS I AM A DOG AND I WILL BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

DARKNESS IMPRISONING ME ALL THAT I SEE MAN, THAT'S SOME DARKNESS I CANNOT SEE WISH I COULD SEE BOY, I CAN'T SEE SOMEBODY HAND ME A LIGHT

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demon core vidal @regretagarbo.rip · 24/08/2023

the men On Here really need to reevaluate their interactions with women & femmes on and off the WebSite this is the shot across the bow 🔪🩸

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terence wiggins @theblacknerd.bsky.social · 24/08/2023

If you're white and you don't have any money to give, reposting also helps

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