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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

A friend reached out and offered to help me get back on medical insurance so I could find a psychiatrist even though we don't live in the same state anymore. With this realization, I'm gonna take him up on that offer

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

It's one hell of a thing to figure out what to do with, but at least I'm not tired. I can get myself to at least do one thing a day if I'm not tired. I may only have one spoon in the drawer, but that's still a spoon

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I'm so used to this being because I'm exhausted or my fatigue disorder. I don't think I've ever been unable to do things purely because the will isn't there. I don't even feel depressed. This is such a strange experience

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

But I'm not tired. I feel awake and I'm not dissociating or anything either. And none of the guys are banging around and making me disconnected all. I just have absolutely zero capacity to do anything

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Good news. Struggling a bit to go outside isn't agoraphobia coming back. I went outside easily once I unmatted my hair As I stand here staring at the kitchen wanting to make a very simple meal, I'm finding my willpower is at nothing. I don't have the will to do anything that requires effort anymore

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Hobby Drifter in Tokyo @hobbydrifter.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

There are two types of people

Megatron saying: I suffered! Why shouldn’t they?

Optimus Prime saying; I suffered? Why should they?

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

SELF HATRED TRYING TO FUCK WITH MY READ ON THINGS ONCE AGAIN It's definitely that and OCD trying to strangle me over moral checks, but while I can't come up with counter arguments, I'm glad I'm at least aware this is a thing that happens. Makes keeping them from completely taking root easier -⚪️

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Fliss...! @fairygirl.me · 26/08/2026

"She wouldn't fucking say that" but it's "I wouldn't fucking say that" as I look through my eyes while someone tries and fails to possess me convincingly

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

I think the way I worded why it's funny to me was, "It's like I'm looking at a game about us, but it would only be made with a hot anime waifu instead of a near 50-year-old Irishman with enough body hair to make a rug"

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

I quickly caved and told a friend who's very curious but respectful 'cause I hoped she wouldn't make it weird and be curious instead Thankfully I was right. AND she got why it was really funny to boot I'm glad I'm around people I can trust with this even if they likely don't know system stuff

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

There's a game about a mangaka who's character developed as an alter and now you, the mangaka, are navigating this relationship And I'm like VIBRATING, NEEDING to tell someone that this is hilarious to me because THAT'S ME AND 🟧, but I CAN'T because being a system is like my ONLY SECRET

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some sort of creature 🔞⚧️ @robocrat.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

Sharks Bite The Internet (Mixed Media, 2026)

A picture of two gummy sharks placed head-first next to an unwrapped stick of beef jerky. (The joke is that this mimics how real sharks like to bite undersea cables.)

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

He's rushing into it with no plan and I'm an assistant, not a savior

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

I don't entirely agree, but like...he's not wrong either If someone wants to handle a major surgery with no backup plan and what's turning out to be no plan at all, it's not my responsibility to pick up that slack - even if I was doing way better than I am right now

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

🟥 and I had an exchange a moment ago. He said I should just let them risk getting the infection. I asked if he himself would let that happen to someone and he said "People die where I'm from if you test your luck. Not my problem if someone's cocky [cause they're used to living in thick safety nets]"

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

As an indie dev friends with a couple of folks in AAA, yeah this is very much so the feeling

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

I'm kind of moving around like a zombie, but I AM moving and I am continuing to set stuff up that will be helpful for my head even if its giving me trouble. I may be as slow as molasses, but I'm up and I'm doing something in the pursuit of doing what's healthy for me, and that's worth something

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AlxMx @alxmx.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

You wake up early in the morning and suddenly the world seems magical and beautiful *ੈ✩‧₊˚༺☆༻*ੈ✩‧₊˚ #furry #oc #anthro #meme #dreamcore #liminal #backrooms

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

Why do I keep being a crab in a bucket I wasn't even in in the first place?

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

I'm so fucking tired. Why does everyone else get to climb over me for their needs to be met even when they know it actively cuts into my important needs? Why am I continuously forgotten in the face of other people's wants, even when it's someone that usually doesn't do that?

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

I left it far from unscathed. I now struggle to see women smile and not flinch after that house. I don't hang out with enough chicks for my head to not associate feminine body language with the girl who stole a gun after she threatened to punch me and exposed her bluff when I told her to do it

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

It is legitimately a miracle - not exaggerating, I mean it - that I have not thought about how to kill myself yet, with how the past years have been and this past one being like all of it condensed into one Hell that God's decided I should speedrun

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

So, once again, I must soothe my wounds by telling myself "Hold out for just a little longer, it's almost over. Just one more week" after applying that since the first week of March and every week - in some months like April every day - since

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

But I'm trapped cause the backup plan for what's got me still having to delay my life wasn't a backup plan. I was the plan or they try to recover alone after a, while not life threatening, major surgery alone, which risks severe infection. I don't think they realized it until it was much too late

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

#vent I was on a strong upswing after moving to a new state & forcibly seizing control of my life again, after getting confirmation that I did my best & the situation at our previous house wasn't gonna change, only to have one last straw break my back after getting a taste of starting my life again

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

Top 10 Anime Betrayals List contender

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

Top 10 Anime Betrayals List contender

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

As someone who questions my validity as a system constantly, it was unexpectedly immensely reassuring to be playing Big Walk with some pals when 🟥 suddenly took control, snuck up on a pal, said hi, and their response wasn't just great startle but to yell "YOUR VOICE DID NOT SOUND LIKE YOUR VOICE"

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

Once again getting a reminder of how much I fiercely hate myself. It keeps catching me off guard. It's insane I dont even actually dislike myself. The hell IS this?

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

Even in the screenshot they share it says "Hey ChatGPT my only friend" and then with a ":)", like this is very blatantly a joke that's being overlooked

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

I'll figure something out. Somehow. I'm hoping that now knowing just how badly he wants that can help me be brave

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

Meanwhile, 🟦's a big part of why I'm so unfazed by so many things that are supposed to be scary. He's overwhelmingly imposing. Seeing him vividly in dreams since 2014 is one of the scariest things I have experienced in my years

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

So we've done it by accident before. I think we can do it again on purpose. The hard part on my end is I need to not be scared of seeing 🟦

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

There was a time where I was meditating and very suddenly I was in the cold, standing at his feet, and he was just as stunned to see me as I was to see him. I snapped out of it just as sharply and needed a moment to remember where I was

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

For the first time, I caught a glimpse of how he much wants to spend time with me. He wishes we could exist in the same space at the same time. He keeps trying to find ways to use VRchat to brute force it, but we literally can't. Not through that least

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

Been thinking on and off lately about 🟦 again. Mainly how we started having some unexpected moments before shit hit the fan in April and I had to become a living security camera 24/7 for 2 months

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

I told him b/c everything else I tried wasn't sticking & that was the truth I was avoiding. I didn't want him to know that someone I love & have been with for 6 years has felt unwelcomed by our family for majority of those years. But I knew that would get through why I assured confidence in his word

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

Dad feels awful about that. I didn't want to tell him, but this is the fourth time we've talked about his concerns with him visiting me while it's unsafe for me to go home because of a violent guest, meanwhile my boy is gonna be home from his sailor job on Monday. I haven't seen him in 2 months.

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

So he just does his best to steer clear to not step on toes and is always surprised when he hears one of them wants to spend time with him So yeah man. Don't worry. He's not going to try and worm his way in as a safe house. Mom's made it clear in her projecting that our family isn't home

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

Ended up breaking to Dad that no, my boyfriend isn't gonna test how long he can stay here for 'cause our home is chaos right now. He knows better and respects my dad's space and, even if he would, he's not going to because Mom's made him feel he can never actually be accepted as a part of our family

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Kendra, spooky version @kendrawcandraw.bsky.social · 27/05/2026

I can't deny the convenience of the "e-book" but going to the library and leaving with an armful of hardcovers feels like getting away with something

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

Someone went to cuddle me yesterday and while they were getting comfortable they shrunk down to half my height and I could FEEL the stars in my eyes Meanwhile my avatar made me look like the masked head of an anime gang known for dipping people's feet in cement and throwing them in a river

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

It's not me being flirty or something. I'm just a huge cuddlebug. I kinda forgot just how much of a cuddlebug I am though

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

Finally cuddled in VRchat. I've learned 2 things 1. When I'm smaller, I don't have to be held, pet, etc to be happy. I just wanna be huddled beside someone 2. POLAR OPPOSITE WHEN BIGGER. I'm super affectionate. I'm strokin your hair, I'm curled around you, I'm hugging you, you're my teddy bear now

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SBS @sbsposting.bsky.social · 26/05/2026

Last night I was raring to go to get some tasty stuff for the house, but now that I've woken up, nevermind. I need to just veg Got a lot of processing going on in the head at the moment. I think I'm just gonna start today with some oatmeal and laying down in VRchat instead

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Hydro @the-hydroxian.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

"Time heals all wounds" mushy, sentimental, naively presents healing as inevitable entropy, external locus of control "All fires die but the ones you feed" logical, makes you sound like a jrpg villain, internal locus, gives merit to acceptance but also more healthy things like revenge and hatred

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