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maybe i will beat the insomnia tonight 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

i'm way too fortunate in life i don't deserve anything good that comes to me... imagine if i stopped self sabotaging

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highkey need another season of love island usa to start airing already bc uk keeps PISSING ME OFF i can't keep watching this shit

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illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

i feel so isolated from the world

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me acting like i'm in touch with my feeling but my only 2 emotions are 1. i want to kill myself 2. gambling

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illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 05/07/2026

i slept for 2 hours last night i hope this insomnia shit kills me

illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 05/07/2026

i feel so deeply dirty inside that i want my soul to be extracted from me and purified

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 05/07/2026

my life is just a humiliation ritual atp

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illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 05/07/2026

choosing to ignore the amount of junk i ate today

★ sunny ⸝⸝ @sunnyrotz.bsky.social · 03/07/2026

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Why can't I stop fucking eatingggggg 😡😡😡😡😡

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lowkey need to stop reading psychological horror as if it is romance

i need someone who is avoidant and lowkey hates me and wants me dead but gives me enough attention that i'm in love with them

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i slept for like 4 hours bc i always wake up in the middle of the night because god hates me idk. but i can't go back to sleep because then i'll wake up at 3pm and i need to be productive today. whatever 😞😞😞

telling myself that eating is spiritually israeli so i stop fucking doing it

illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 02/07/2026

i actually need to lock in before i fucking kms instead so i'm doing a 48hr fast. if i eat i waterboard myself or something idk

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illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 02/07/2026

i'm js fat and greedy asf whatever 🫩 i've gained sm weight

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illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

playing this on repeat to keep me sane. i recommend it soundcloud.com/abuse-406429...

soundcloud.com

Snake(Acoustic)

i am dog!!!!!!!!!

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i need a situationship so i stop terrorizing my friendships

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i keep this pic pinned to my home screen bc its the only thing keeping me going

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can bsky stop logging me out of all 100 of my alt accounts omg

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life is kinda not epic rn but we ball

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i want to kms

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idk how i ever made it through highschool bc i can barely handle leaving the house every other day for class... let alone daily... i was born to be a neet 🫩✌️

i can't sleep so i will read manhwa and forget that i am a person

requiem 🔞🐛 edbsky @cyanidecals.bsky.social · 24/02/2026

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*closes bluesky* *opens bluesky*

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every once in a while i get reminded that i have a really bad personality and nobody actually likes me. at least its good motivation to starve myself and isolate myself from everyone around me. hashtag winning 🫩

illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 20/02/2026

now that i think about it maybe its the insomnia causing my paranoia... or vice versa idk

illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 20/02/2026

i've only gotten 4 hours of sleep in the last 36 hours... now its 2am and i can't sleep. i have class in the morning until the afternoon so ig i'm gonna make it to 48 hours?? thriving so much rn 🫩

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illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 20/02/2026

it was hell i think i should just kms tbh

illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 19/02/2026

i feel so unc... literally knocking at deaths door... let me be a dumb 16 y/o again 😞🫩

illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 19/02/2026

my insomnia has been so bad that i don't even try to sleep anymore. i just ride out the exhaustion until i pass out 😭

illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 18/02/2026

i actually have to go to class tomorrow 🫩 ugh 🫩🫩🫩

i am so paranoid for literally no reason. can my brain just act normal for once 🥲

☆ benji @restlessunknown.bsky.social · 17/02/2026

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who up mourning what once was and what will never be again

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i'm taking the same prof again this semester and he also looks a little like bernie sanders its kinda crazy

lowkey can't handle the idea of doing this for the rest of my life but we're already here so whatever i'll just kms if it gets that bad 🥹✌️

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illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 01/02/2026

first day of class is today BUT the professor is sick so she cancelled. feeling so blessed maybe live is worth living after all 🙏

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revolutionary idea... what if i stop eating

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illi @nihillist.bsky.social · 28/01/2026

i tried so hard not to ruin this & yet i still did thats so cool