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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

i know its probably a bad idea, but I think I need to have something drastic happen so that i’m motivated to get better. like accidentally hit an artery or something but just enough to scare me really bad and not kill me yk

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

i want to get back on meds but i cant because every psychiatrist is insanely expensive and i have no insurance

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

finally losing the weight i gained these last few weeks! 104.8

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

wish i could have more wine tonight but i dont wanna be bloated tomorrow

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

impulsive urge to kms right now is insane. not gonna do it though but wow alcohol makes it so bad

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yves @amiprettyyet.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

I've been drinking so much i don't even feel when it comes right back

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

i feel like im gonna have a huge meltdown this weekend im scared

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

i hate how lazy ive been the last week, i have done NOTHING productive except starve. im about to binge too so thats gonna be ruined :(

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

weighed myself and gained like 7 pounds <\3 its ok though since im sure some of that is just food weight. took a lax and fasting for a day to hopefully drop all of it

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

once i lose this fat around my hips my life will be perfect

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

lowkey terrified to weigh myself bc i know I’ve gained since I ate way more than usual this week, i would guess im around 104-105 now :’(

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

okay im officially done being fat locking in starts tomorrow. i’m gonna aim for 800 cals a day + gym 5 days a week

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

for 6 dollars this wine is actually really good

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

think i’m gonna up my calories to about 1000 a day and go back to strength training 5x a week… i know i’ll lose wayy slower but i saw myself in a photo yesterday and it looked like I had literally zero muscle

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✿evil angel✿ @babyangelkitten.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

i’ll be like “i’d do anything for this” then like.. not do the very reasonable steps i could actually take rn

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

fuck it im done im having an everything relapse tonight

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

im so miserable today wtf is going on

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

i might eat at maintenance today bc i woke up feeling awful :( my heart palpitations kept waking me up throughout the night but I wasn’t dehydrated so idk whats going on

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

was feeling super dizzy and broke my fast </3 ate about 600 cals so thats it for the day

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

feeling what might be the start of a manic episode lmao please no

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

going home just to make some laxative tea then coming back to campus to study!

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

the humidity is ruining my hair rn omg

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

i hate my brain sometimes bc how did i manage to get up super early, get dressed, put makeup on, get to campus, sit directly in front of my classroom, then instantly started panicking and had to hide in the bathroom ??????

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

day three!! i drank an entire bottle of kefir when i got home yesterday (at least i stuck to liquids) :’) gonna keep going though so I don’t destroy all of the progress!!

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

i feel so OLD walking around campus omg why is everyone 18 😭

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

gonna spend all day on campus studying so I can’t slack off again

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

i cannot be alone with my thoughts this week i will go INSANE

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

i feel massive today :( it feels like my thighs are slightly more puffy too but I can’t tell

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

finished the last half of my chicken and rice + some asparagus at ~600 cals. starting a 5 day fast now! i froze everything perishable so I have no excuse to eat anything in my kitchen wish me luck <3

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

planning to do 7 days of only liquids or soft foods to break my fast/binge cycle since water fasting seems to be making my binge urges uncontrollable

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

broke my fast with chicken and rice but now I feel super bloated. probably because that was the first nutrient dense meal i’ve had in a while

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

the texture of my skin is so fucked from the years of scars :’(

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james locks in {2026} 🗝️ @altlbs.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

Why am I surprised I’m not losing weight faster when I KEEP EATING EVERYTHING‼️‼️‼️

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

havent been this consistently su*ci*al in a longggg time but damn it sucks :(

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

all of my clothes fit my body so awkwardly im gonna start crying

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

seeing those “nobody is coming to save you” posts make me feel pure dread idk why everyone says it as if its supposed to motivate ppl

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

walking for the next 2 hours to burn off as many cals as possible </3 i feel fat as shit and super bloated currently

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

just binged in a moment of weakness fuck my life

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

getting back to a normal routine has made me realize that the only thing making me binge is boredom

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

locking in for studying and starving this week

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

i wanna see how long I can go without eating this week

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

planning to fast for 48 hours starting tomorrow!

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

looked through my old doctor visit notes and can’t believe I was content with my weight at the time

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

my goal is to hit 92lbs by october 1st

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

going to eat ~2000 cals tonight bc traveling through multiple airports these last couple of days has drained me of all my energy. but after this its back to 600 cal/day and walking 15k steps a day

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

this is after getting home (and 48oz of liquids on the plane prior) im so happy :D hoping its even less once I wake up tomorrow

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

I GET TO WEIGH MYSELF IN 6 HOURS IM SCARED

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jelly ^ - ^ @jellyfuko.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

waiting for my last flight home :( im dreading going back to normal life again

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