iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 38m

And also thank you for being here and reading if you do read even tho I'm going thru what is genuinely one of the worst parts of my life 🫂 I really appreciate you, you don't have to say anything at all I also know it can be hard to watch so I understand 💜

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 46m

Thank you marijuana I smoked something that helped with the sensation I was experiencing earlier Sorry for so much trauma posting Love you all Will try to be happier People are concerned about me

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 1h

Someone sat with me on the phone because she's scared for me. I'm sorry if you worry about me. I genuinely don't know what's going to happen. I don't want to keep living this way. But I can promise that right now I don't have an active plan to harm myself. I love you.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 2h

Talking to people who show me care makes me feel worse right now, because their care is real but it's also not going to matter.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 4h

The system is [ trying ] to [ love ] { you } The system is [ trying ] to [ want ] { as well } The system is [ sorry ] to [ hate ] { you } The system is [ trying ] to [ love ] { itself }

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 5h

Homelessness feels like being a damaged C-3P0 in the empire's trash compactor.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 6h

Feeling like the whole world wants you to die except people who only want to have you around for a while (or only while things are good) but can't make physical space for you to live in is a wonderful sensation that really makes you enjoy what drugs or cutting yourself feels like instead.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 6h

Not having a good time being alive right now Need leads on safe housing Can't find leads Getting overwhelmed Crying a lot Can't focus Don't have any help searching, none of the people I know are able to help me or find any leads Extremely scared because I have only one option and it's a horrible one

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 6h

This broken gem feels alone even in a crowded home she's not sure why she has to choose <[ feeling safe, being abused ]>

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 7h

It wishes it had a safe place to live and doesn't feel alive or hopeful today.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 22h

I should make friends with normal people instead of neurotypicals - lots of things will go better

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 29/09/2026

Pain is so bad I'm unable to speak and cannot type without assistive tech

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 29/09/2026

Why are you trans? wrong answers only Just got bored and took hormones one day.

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Terrorkin 🦷✂️ @terrorkin.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

We Ought Not have to "Be Good" to Gain Acceptance.

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Bug!💗Comms: OPEN! @lilwilbug.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

⚫️Midna🔵 (art trade with @namnums.bsky.social) #tloz #art

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 28/09/2026

I feel so hopeless today. Panic attacks most of the evening. I was only able to sleep because I had someone with me. The thoughts in my mind are horrifying. The memories replaying are too. I wish I had stable housing.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 27/09/2026

That beautiful, quasi-orgasmic feeling you get when you learn something new and those neurons connect in a different way. Wow neuroplasticity feels good. You should try it sometime.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 27/09/2026

If my posts don't make sense today, don't worry, they won't in the future either → (CPTSD is like "every alarm in the building is on because we have to go outside and things are different than they used to be! wee woo wee woo!!! WHEEE WOOO! Bitch why aren't you listening to me???)

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 27/09/2026

Did you ascend, MEMORIA? Or did you cast yourself into dissolution? There were days we should have both been more kind, more loving, more gentle. → Demundez led us both astray, like Demundez does. Now you live in Deneheim and I live in Ulhegard.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 27/09/2026

"trump card" now means something context sensitive, like the a button action in every video game from 2012 to 2019

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蛞蝓ちゃん @slug.moe · 27/09/2026

if she can't follow the explanation and just smiles and nods and retains nothing after the infodump i kill myself

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 27/09/2026

What Ruby says "Reuniting with you is overwhelmingly joyous." What Ruby is feeling irl: I haven't seen you so long I'm crying thinking about you the thought of seeing you again is filling me with seventeen emotions most of them happy, I can't stop laughing knowing you are still alive.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 27/09/2026

Im... Glad that resonated with so many people 😮💜

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Brooklyn Rousseau's Lonely Heart @glamgothcollective.eurosky.social · 26/09/2026

It's crazy how some people will demonize you when they figure out they can't control you. Sorry, not sorry; I do things on my own terms. I've never been a minion.

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mac bunnypussy 🐇⚧️ @saintmac.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

cishet ppl doing ketamine is trans culture appropriation

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Demigirlboss @demigirlboss.win · 25/09/2026

This Is How You Lose The Time War got me feelin' like.

BORN TO YEARN
WORLD IS A FUCK
鬼神 Feel It All 2020
410,757,864,530 KISSED LIPS

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Amber 🌸 @shimmermathlabs.com · 26/09/2026

Toad said, "Frog, a thief has stolen my old life." Frog said, "The thief is you." Toad trembled. "Because I am a girl?" "Because you took back your own self," said Frog. "Is there a reward?" Frog handed her a lilac dress. "It has pockets," said Toad. "The thief has done well," said Frog.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 26/09/2026

We have implemented blending modes

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 26/09/2026

Paradise / Heaven idea: have my beard removed estradiol get safe place to live a couple things to do with my time food to cook, electricity... a few cute girls around me who love me and hold me and touch my skin a looot With those things, I would be happier than I could ever imagine.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 26/09/2026

Happy #Caturday This is a near-stranger's cat, I have barely known her a month now. I think I know the cat better than the person who keeps her, and I think the cat feels the same. Her name is Daisy!

A daisy on a ruby on a couch in a house on a log in the bog in the center of the city

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Zach Weinersmith @zachweinersmith.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

I kinda get why people hate on fussy philosophical stuff, but on the other hand don't you think we live in a time where it'd be especially helpful to have rigorous conversations about things like personhood, meaning in life, the point of art, the point of pure mathematics, & operationalizing ethics?

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 26/09/2026

Love how when it was my spinal injury and surgery recovery with a migrating, all over sleep schedule... it was all "you're cheating on me", "we never get to see you" and "you're playing Minecraft too much." Just saying. In case you're still reading.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 26/09/2026

oh that's what that is I thought it was just the bpd

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hikikomorphism @hikikomorphism.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Had a lovely conversation with @brennan.computer yesterday about what a non-booster non-anti tech-friendly left could look like, and for me it centers a few things: - media piracy and other anticorporate uses of tech - who we valorize - eg, scihub, anna's archive, pirates and shadow librarians

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aegisiondure @1v.lc · 24/09/2026

Cost of living getting you down? Try moving somewhere cheaper! You will surely not regret moving to somewhere more affordable

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MARS @inifitejestermars.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Radical acceptance that you will be uncomfortable/annoyed/inconvenienced at times and that's no reason to wish ill on others.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 24/09/2026

We are busy fighting about whether the computer is alive or not meanwhile the [ government, mega corporations, rich industrialist ] [ is going to, is currently, is planning on ] us[ -e, -ing ] the [ alive, dead, super intelligent, stupid ass ] computer to select targets to starve to death.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 24/09/2026

Tomorrow I'm going to go hang out with a cute girl and play video games

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 24/09/2026

The new and undeployed version of poetry press has a brand new user interface, new textures, save and load features, and can be deployed as a progressive web application.

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Puff the Magic Hater @mskellymhayes.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

They want us to give up on each other.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 24/09/2026

Somebody I care about very much lost her father today. I'm not sure how best to support her, so I'm just going to be around in case she needs me to talk to.

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 24/09/2026

There are more negatives than positives to being the tallest person in the room. The only time this is inverted is when I'm in a room full of trans girls. Then everyone's like "mommy?" And I'm all "yeah, I like cuddles?" Then suddenly I have a whole bunch of friends. I love the queer community.

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[9life] @ninth-life.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Rent fund at $935/1200 Not gonna get another paycheck in time, no savings anymore after move Queer/trans disabled SWer/artist whatever #mutualaid #helpsky

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 24/09/2026

You can be whoever the fuck you want

The only surviving picture of me from before I transitioned - a fat bass player with red hair in front of a tile wall

10 years later and ten years younger and much happier

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nonspecifically red @unfixable.place · 24/09/2026

.... I wonder how much trouble I'm going to get into for reposting this one.

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