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Storyteller. Romantic. Pursue excellence.

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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 12/09/2026
Last week, I sat down to write about coming to terms with the pace of AI progression. Between posting and editing, AI solved a millennium prize problem. That only strengthens my conviction: We will never have "normal times" again. www.tracingwoodgrains.com/p/we-will-never-have-normal-times-again
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We Will Never Have “Normal Times” Again
Coming to terms with the age of AI
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 28/08/2026
New from me: Chabuduo World - What happens now that AI is good enough? www.tracingwoodgrains.com/p/chabuduo-w...
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Chabuduo World
What happens now that AI is good enough
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 15/06/2026
nothing but the age’s most important questions at Manifest
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 12/05/2026
Great thread on dogpiles and the judgment of the collective. Once you're on the wrong side, everything you do becomes more fuel for the fire.
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 12/05/2026
Important article. The mangling of this point has badly distorted our collective cultural understanding, and it's great to see someone make the point clearly in the New York Times. www.nytimes.com/2026/05/11/o...
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 12/05/2026
Interesting case study of what happens when you offer an exceptionally large baby bonus.
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ornamental kermit @enflux.bsky.social · 07/05/2026
"They did not know—but perhaps they could have known, if they listened to those who had grown up at odd angles to reality—they did not know that in teaching me to kill the part of my soul that saw beauty in men, they were teaching me to kill the part of my soul that saw beauty in God."
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 01/05/2026
In 1968, Washington, D.C. had a problem: one of its elementary schools was good. After diligent work, they solved the problem in award-winning fashion, combining the school with its two neighboring schools, two years per school. And it worked! Soon, they had three bad schools.
The story of Amidon elementary school, from https://www.educationprogress.org/p/hobson-v-hansen-and-the-decline-of
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 01/05/2026
Reading historical racist books is fun, bc you get a steady stream of arguments against slightly different racists. Like this, from 1832: "Look, we all agree the slave trade was horrendous and evil. Obviously, nobody disputes that. But now that they're here..." A brief thread.
From T. R. Dew's A Review of the Debate in the Virginia Legislature of 1831 and 1832
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 30/04/2026
looking back at my childhood in Utah Valley: - three of my friends later transitioned - about a quarter of the kids my age in my local Mormon ward turned out to be gay - the two girls I went on dates with in high school both turned out to be lesbians I was surprised every time
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 30/04/2026
I'm Gay, and that Makes Me "Queer"
I was 14 in 2009, when I wrote in my journal that if gay marriage was legalized, "the freaks who think it's good and natural will become even worse than they are." I wrote that they see sex as "PLEASURE. NOT A WAY OF BRINGING PEOPLE INTO THE WORLD, THAT'S JUST AN INCONVENIENCE! JUST A WAY TO HAVE FUN."

"What a horrible way of thinking," I wrote. 

And then I went back to curating my yearning collection of bare-chested tribal werewolves, and thought no more of it.

It took me another 8 years before I clued into my attraction to men. In the interim, I fell in love with a Mormon missionary companion and called it inspired companionship, picked attractive and monstrous men every time I could choose a character in a game, and (after I left Mormonism for Purely Intellectual Reasons) began to read a gay furry visual novel for "Chinese language study."

I wasn't gay. I wasn't a furry either, of course. Too weird, too sexualized, too queer. I was just an asexual socially conservative guy who happened to like anthropomorphic art. When Don’t Act, Don’t Tell was repealed, I grimaced. When Obergefell passed, I fretted vaguely about the Constitution. Every moment I could have supported the rights I would later rely on, I declined to do so.

It took me a while to accept the label “gay,” but eventually I figured it would be odd to decline it while married to a man. I certainly didn’t accept the culture, though. “Gay voice” bugged me, promiscuity unsettled me, drag put me off. When I saw some queer people criticize Pete Buttigieg as, in effect, “not gay enough,” I felt a thrill of recognition. Yes—that’s me. A Pete Buttigieg, Not Gay Enough sort of gay dude, a military veteran and law student who wanted nothing more than a quiet suburban life with my family, and who happened to want it with a man. Stonewall? Alienating. Queer theory? Drivel. I was proud that when I finally noticed attraction to men in my early 20s, I “came out” quickly and without fuss, kept it as a footnote [...]Two months ago, I realized I still felt a lot of that, and I was also queer. 

I had always preferred the archaic form of the term–at odd angles with reality–but when I looked through the stories and experiences of the lonely “asexual” adolescent I was, the one who I always maintained “suffered no trauma from my faith’s stance on homosexuality,” I realized queer culture accurately essential parts of my own experience that I previously minimized. I noticed how I was perpetually drawn to monstrous characters, then to making the monstrous beautiful. I saw a “problem” I could never name or face directly haunting my journals and making me miserable for a decade. I saw myself drawn again and again to the motif of a wolf in a cage, to the need to escape. 



Appel quotes Halperin’s definition of “queer” as “whatever is at odds with the normal, the legitimate, the dominant.” That’s a dangerous motif to claim normatively — the legitimate often has very good reasons for its dominance. 

But what happens to someone who grew up like I did — someone who subconsciously notices and then buries attraction to men in a world where every authority he trusts and loves treats acting on that attraction as a sin just short of murder?

 

A few things. When I’d learned as a child to categorize things as sacred (church, baptism, hymns, forests, Vivaldi) or profane (coffee, theft, alcohol, swearing, queerness), I had at some point categorized my own body and desire itself as profane. I internalized a wordless sense that I was monstrous, broken, and unworthy of love. I spent much of my life declining easy categories, refusing to be normative, insisting on blurring lines. I felt commonality with people who understand what it is like to be attracted to something Wrong. I had to leave my entire culture behind and rebuild a community of outsiders. And I absolutely refuse to be apologetic about who I am. 

And when I realized all of that, I thought “dangit, I get queer theory now” and went and wrote a winding, profane, sacred, filthy, earnest piece of Queer Poetry to get some of my three decades of built-up unspoken feelings off my chest.

Look, as far as politics goes, I agree with Appel far more than I do Queers for Palestine or critical theorists. As far as my personal life goes, I’m still eager to live a monogamous, quiet life raising a family with my husband. But “gay, not queer” was, for me, one of the final parts of a decades-long coping mechanism built around a desperate need not to look directly at the monster I was. 



And, well, let’s be clear. As a Mormon kid, I thought I was a reasonable centrist moderate, the same as now, who distinguished between sinners and sins and had nothing against gay people and was unjustly hated for my beliefs. And if it had been up to me, never in a million years would Ben Appel have been able to get married or have kids or serve openly in the military or live a quiet life of safety and dignity with a stable gay relationship and the freedom to live an ordinary life. He was another deviant anti-religious sinner threatening the foundations of moral America. I don’t want to be saddled with the actions of extremists any more than Appel does, but I’m also not so liberal I refuse to take my own side in a fight.

 Being queer doesn’t mean thinking that every action taken on behalf of queer people is healthy or sensible, it doesn’t mean overthrowing liberal democracy, national borders, and Enlightenment notions of truth, and it doesn’t mean abandoning moral instincts or a duty to uphold healthy norms. A lot of people might want it to mean that, but they’re not the only ones with a say. It's a term for the kids like me who grew up understanding at their core that something fundamental to them was at odds with the normal, the legitimate, the dominant, no matter how hard they tried to run from it. 

I can do whatever I want with that information and that experience. But I’m not going to disclaim it in the hopes of making myself more palatable to people who would prefer I never married or worked to have kids with the man I love, and who now rather wish I wouldn’t flaunt it lest decent people get the wrong ideas. 



I did not choose to be queer, and I spent most of my life trying exceptionally hard to choose otherwise. But despite myself, sixteen years after that journal entry, I’m still here, still queer, and finally beginning to get used to it.
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 26/04/2026
New post from me. I thought I was asexual until I was 22 years old. After leaving Mormonism and starting to date men, I claimed confidently my faith's stance on homosexuality had never hurt me. I was wrong, but it took me years to figure out why. www.tracingwoodgrains.com/p/on-pain
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On Pain
The words I left unsaid
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 24/08/2025
New from me: It Takes a Village To Have a Child, on surrogacy. www.tracingwoodgrains.com/p/it-takes-a...
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It Takes a Village To Have a Child
Our surrogacy journey so far
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 05/08/2025
New article from me: No Retvrn, a meditation on what it means to embrace tradition when your ancestral tradition is to leave traditions that no longer work asteriskmag.com/issues/11/no...
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No Retvrn—Asterisk
An American tradition of embracing modernity.
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 19/07/2025
There's something incredibly condescending about someone contrasting his own "gifted" kids with other "minority and disabled" kids to mock the idea of testing people and teaching to their levels. Neither "minority" nor "disabled" is a monolith. All kids benefit from tailored instruction.
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chris / vbm @strutheo.bsky.social · 08/06/2025
master furry @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social hard at work
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 24/04/2025
Recently, I had the pleasure of talking with @spencrgreenberg.bsky.social about the Center for Educational Progress on the Clearer Thinking podcast! Fun conversation - we covered a lot of ground. podcast.clearerthinking.org/episode/259/...
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How to unleash student potential in education (with Jack Despain Zhou) | Clearer Thinking with Spencer Greenberg — the podcast about ideas that matter
How to unleash student potential in education (with Jack Despain Zhou) | Clearer Thinking with Spencer Greenberg — the podcast about ideas that matter
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 02/03/2025
Thoroughly enjoyed this conversation.
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 22/02/2025
Ender's Game is nonfiction.
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 17/02/2025
This “it’s old, so why dredge it up?” line is both predictable and reprehensible. There is an ongoing lawsuit. People fought for years to piece the story together as the FAA resisted. And—what? We should ignore it, because the FAA successfully distracted people for a few years?
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TheOmniZaddy 🌹🔰🏗️ @theomnizaddy.bsky.social · 16/02/2025
People trying to defend the FAA here are being patently ridiculous. Reasonable people aren’t saying this was one singular reason that we’ve had ATC shortages — not even some of the people who pushed to bring this scandal to light are saying that. Just that it happened, and it was bad.
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Eric Levitz @ericlevitz.bsky.social · 16/02/2025
1) A few responses to these critiques from Jamelle and @davidaustinwalsh.bsky.social. First, my piece does not treat "Trump's war on DEI as a legitimate policy difference." And I have trouble seeing how a fair read of this text could yield that interpretation. www.vox.com/politics/399...
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 15/02/2025
he's saying this because I keep replying to him with hard evidence of increased failure rates, but he's so set on a predetermined narrative that he doesn't want to interrupt himself to acknowledge that he's defending the indefensible
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 15/02/2025
If you're "hardly one to defend DEI," then you certainly wouldn't pick an indefensible hiring scandal as your hill to stand on. The FAA explicitly and knowingly lowered their standards in a safety-critical profession, using absurd means. That's bad. www.tracingwoodgrains.com/p/the-full-s...
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The Full Story of the FAA's Hiring Scandal
Inside a decade of struggle to bring a scandal to light
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 11/02/2025
I'm thrilled to announce the next step in my career: building the Center for Educational Progress alongside Lillian Tara. For more than fifty years, education policy has been trapped in a one-size-fits-all mold. It is time for schools to pursue excellence www.educationprogress.org/p/schools-sh...
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Schools Should Pursue Excellence
The Education Progress Manifesto
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 05/02/2025
New article from me. I'm very proud of this one—it took dozens of interviews and extensive trawling of the historical record. It should provide everything people need to know about the FAA's hiring scandal and the people who fought to bring it to light. www.tracingwoodgrains.com/p/the-full-s...
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The Full Story of the FAA's Hiring Scandal
Inside a decade of struggle to bring a scandal to light
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 30/01/2025
Today, after a tragic plane crash yesterday, members of the Trump admin mentioned that they are working to resolve this scandal. I don't care to connect this to the tragedy, but I'm grateful they're taking action on this. It's years overdue. www.tracingwoodgrains.com/p/the-faas-h...
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The FAA's Hiring Scandal: A Quick Overview
An Air Traffic Control nightmare
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 27/01/2025
one funny thing about AI becoming more prominent is the way it strips excuses away before: if only I could draw—there’s so much I’d want to make after: huh, I guess there wasn’t that much I wanted to draw after all
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 21/01/2025
New from me: “The color of law is not what it was in 1960. When will our analysis, in turn, move beyond that decade’s frame?” www.tracingwoodgrains.com/p/book-revie...
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Book Review: The Color of Law
Housing policy three generations after the Civil Rights movement
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 11/01/2025
that barrier between people who learn languages as children and those who learn it as adults? realistically, it exists in many more fields. we're not culturally equipped to understand what native-level proficiency even looks like on most topics.
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 23/12/2024
most times I have conversations with Claude, I ask it to pattern-match my demographics, and literally every time it pegs me as a slate star codex reader and when I ask about politicians I like it always says Lee Kuan Yew. always funny to see how many different tells indicate a very specific Type
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 19/12/2024
Good reminder: There is no excuse for doxxing someone's address online. Regardless of how bad Fuentes is, nobody deserves this.
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 17/12/2024
one reason it’s fun to talk to Claude is because it starts conversations by repeating conventional platitudes but as soon as you press with “is that real” it’ll go “haha, no, you caught me” and then ruthlessly mock entire disciplines for being built on foundations of sand
claude being basicclaude being realclaude being real x2
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 16/12/2024
just experienced this IRL trying to explain to a journalist the extent to which he could trust an online contact about a news event, and why “so like yes he trolls people and has esoteric right-wing views and is edgy and etc but no, he’s telling the truth here”
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 15/12/2024
The first time I tried Turkish Delight, I was devastated I still feel betrayed by it tbh
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 15/12/2024
Insightful thread. "The 2010s have turned the Dems, and liberal elites more generally, into this hybrid party of 'Respecters of Norms' + 'Skeptical of Law Enforcement.'"
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 15/12/2024
there's an odd trend where people well to my left try to convince me that Kamala Harris represented me because they know she didn't represent them. it's simpler than that: the empty triangulation of the Harris campaign left them devoid of substance, representing neither the left nor the center.
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 14/12/2024
My thoughts on recent events: Jesse Singal is a litmus test: are moderates welcome, even if they openly and persistently disagree with leftists? Are threats and harassment from left to right okay?Bluesky passed, and I doubt the userbase will ever forgive the site for it. x.com/tracewoodgra...
x.com
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 13/12/2024
>start with userbase of friendly ambitious nerds >attract left-wing culture warrior refugees >attract more people based on good design and X's flaws >reach critical mass >refuse to make unprincipled exceptions to their rules >culture warriors flounce maybe this dude was right. TPOTriots in control
tpot rug pull in progress
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 13/12/2024
I love AI art. I love that I have a magic image machine that can summon dreams in a moment. I love living in the future and being able to ask for visions of a beautiful past that never was. When the machine can write as I would, I will love that too. I just want these concepts to exist.
parkour fox
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 10/12/2024
Had a productive back-and-forth with Claude about this. key takeaway: tests predict performance in math, while basically nothing predicts English class performance. the paper only really examines whether students are passing with a C or better. likely meaning? basically no standards in English.
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 09/12/2024
alleged ceo shooter being a center-right vaguely tpot tech dude, former valedictorian, is a good reminder that atrocities don’t come from convenient avatars of all I oppose

when you see problems, build something meaningful. don’t get caught up in the idea that you can solve everything in a blaze of glory, and certainly don’t fool yourself into thinking a murderer can be a hero

dude ruined himself and damaged any cause he cared about. disgraceful waste of a good mind
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 08/12/2024
every once in a while someone will share my profile page while getting Mad At Me (in this case: because I used to work for blocked and reported) and it always makes me happy because I like to look at its artwork and when they share it others also see the nice art
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 08/12/2024
Civility is good as a positive moral value. When people sneer at it or trample it, I turn elsewhere. More than anything, I think this sentiment explains my alienation from the populist left and the populist right. The cultures they build revel gleefully in ugliness.
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 08/12/2024
What's more common: not wanting power because you don't want responsibility, or wanting power without responsibility? I find the former more agreeable than the latter.
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 08/12/2024
A lot of people who define themselves as being on the fringes of American politics get incredibly protective when people say they’re centrists, because their entire political theory rests on the center being a bunch of invisible people who would support them if they could
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 07/12/2024
If the Innocence Project focused its resources and attention carefully and with an eye towards truth, it would be a vital org. As-is, I can’t help but feel it fills a grim role, looking for excuses to free people without knowing or truly caring about their guilt. www.inquirer.com/crime/shaurn...
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 07/12/2024
kinda conflicted about bluesky on the one hand, my corner is nice, the team and tech seem cool, and I actually think it's pretty healthy to have a single serious competitor to Twitter on the other, much of the broader culture here seems hellish funny to see such milquetoast things draw such ire
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 06/12/2024
it appears that with @jessesingal.com's arrival here I have been added to some Lists
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Jack @tracewoodgrains.bsky.social · 06/12/2024
always bothers me when people say things like “why do we have to act civilized while our opponents break all the rules” — as if building a healthy culture is a punishment and not the goal
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