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Jennifer Espinoza

@sadqueer4life.bsky.social
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 25/09/2025
being a lowkey “assimilated” transsexual woman right now feels insane and psychedelic. i’m simultaneously living a “can she have it all” girlbossy rom-com alongside a grim political drama about my impending extermination
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 11/06/2025
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 13/04/2025
Anyone mind if I double down on a bad habit in the midst of some turmoil?
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 13/04/2025
Might fuck around and allow myself to feel a bunch of difficult feelings and then move on before I get stuck in them
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 19/03/2025
What is it like to have family from whom you can ask for financial help? Or a rich spouse? Or a nice little trust fund? Oh, how I wish I were a trust fund poet.
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 18/03/2025
Being a working poet trying to find time, money, and energy to put towards doing the bare minimum of events and readings to promote my book is breaking me fr
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 17/03/2025
When I was a child I used to see how long I could hold my arm against the metal playground bars on a hot day and now as an adult I do the same thing but with unbearable situations
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ONE ART: a journal of poetry @oneart.bsky.social · 07/03/2025
Two Poems by Jennifer Espinoza oneartpoetry.com/2025/03/07/t...
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Two Poems by Jennifer Espinoza
CRESTING WAVE Water moves through rock in prayer, earth cracking open slowly. A mind scatters outward in silence. Kaleidoscope of selves. Color dreams itself in light, full of noise and confusion. …
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 28/02/2025
Dear friends — I am moving this weekend and have been recently hit with some unexpected expenses. I could use a hand in order to get settled comfortably into my new place — if you have anything to spare, I would greatly appreciate it!! 💕
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Tom Snarsky @tomsnarsky.bsky.social · 25/02/2025
Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social
View From A Café Window

A family sits below
talking and tasting wine.
A hand pushes a stroller back and forth,
everyone smiling in their places.
A small breeze drifts through
slightly wilted trees.
The end of winter is slow and quiet.
Loneliness abates in tiny steps.
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 21/02/2025
Wrote a short story about a troubled young man and a strange dream he has one night — link in bio
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 11/02/2025
poem
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 08/02/2025
The phrase “who care” is both a motto and a prayer
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 23/01/2025
poem
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 19/01/2025
Got my hair cut for the first time in a year and then immediately after had to go home and sleep for an hour just to process the new reality this minor change to my appearance entails. Love being a girl.
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 14/01/2025
Chat, if I’m doing monotherapy with injectable e and my labs come back at 364 pg/ml should I be worried about potential health effects? Or is this ideal considering I’m not on any anti-androgens?
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 08/01/2025
Teaching a workshop this weekend - reply if you’d like to join :)
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 08/01/2025
So gay and annoying how “We accept the love we think we deserve” continues to be a core truth at the center of life
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 06/01/2025
My vulnerability and open-hearted nature exist for people who don’t punish me for it
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 05/01/2025
a man will casually try to ruin your entire life and then will be the first person to watch every single one of your IG stories
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 03/01/2025
The greatest sin is to have no sense of other people
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Tonkey Kong @cheatcommando.bsky.social · 30/12/2024
New workshop piece from last night's class with @sadqueer4life.bsky.social & @eileendotnet.bsky.social!
Your whole life turns to sky and you buy
a single plastic bird to fill it.

A kingfisher, a missile, an anchor dropped,
a thing more defined by what
it does when it leaves the air,
how the bodies around it react
before physics re-establishes
its boundaries.

You opened it in pieces  –
clear bags of body parts
in hands still hooked to machines
in hands that needed something other
than themselves to put
together.  This was
obvious.

Once the body was done, the water
was sculpted into its splash,
once the first wing was finished
and the second had mostly
connected its tissue, you notice
that the colors have stopped
matching.

One little piece, missing from
the operating theater, and
enough to fill the gap, but
obviously, clumsily, and
in a way that, in the end,
won’t change how it works at all.
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 28/12/2024
(joy division voice) she’s crashing out again
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 28/12/2024
Saw Nosferatu and have truly never experienced a bigger gap between the way people are talking about a movie online vs the actual film, and that’s saying a lot
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eileen elizabeth 🦋 @eileendotnet.bsky.social · 27/12/2024
This weekend with @sadqueer4life.bsky.social ✨ Speaking from the Shadows: A Writing Workshop Sunday, December 29 at 4 pm Pacific Time 90 minutes / virtual $30 tuition (pay-what-you-can is always available!)
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 26/12/2024
Happy Boxing Day to all who celebrate….
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 24/12/2024
Poem
DISINTEGRATION 
One day, when the pain of loving 
myself became unbearable, I
breathed my soul into a small, round pebble.
I placed it at the bottom of a pile 
of similar looking pebbles.
I kicked the pile with all my might
until everything was everywhere 
and I was lost among it all.
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 23/12/2024
Snuck away from the Christmas party :)
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 22/12/2024
cause of death: attempted to understand his thought process
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 22/12/2024
many such cases
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 21/12/2024
it really is impossible to be cute and aggrieved at the same time
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eileen elizabeth 🦋 @eileendotnet.bsky.social · 20/12/2024
I went on poetry tour through New Mexico with Sara Ellen Fowler and @sadqueer4life.bsky.social and fell in love with these shades of blue
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 19/12/2024
bro why the FUCK am i still on your close friends stories
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Tom Snarsky @tomsnarsky.bsky.social · 17/12/2024
happy birthday @sadqueer4life.bsky.social 🎈
THINGS THAT MAKE ME FEEL EMBARRASSED

Speaking, walking through any crowded room or open
space, asking for help, having a body, complaining about

having a body, not understanding big grad school words,
understanding big grad school words, catching my reflection

in a mirror, listening to the thoughts in my head, considering
any moment in my past, even one second ago when I was

wondering what to say here, and questioning, questioning,
always questioning myself, my intent, is this push towards

healing selfish, am I a selfish person for wanting the tiny
drops of comfort that form on the sphere of glass I keep

around my innermost self, is it a crime to be this sensitive,
should I be leaving the house more, oh no, now I'm sad,

is it wrong to feel sad, where is my labor going, oh no,
I didn't answer that text, didn't respond to those emails,

was too busy dying, convinced I was dying, whatever,
the other day a stranger caught me standing out beneath

the sun and smiling with my eyes shut at the warm
breath of wind upon my face and oh god I was so

embarrassed I erased the moment, dropped the
catharsis, abandoned my relief for the pigeons 

and flies to feast upon with love.
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 19/12/2024
This meeting could’ve been a holiday party
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 09/12/2024
living a life ruled by fear, but in a cute way
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 08/12/2024
holding space
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 08/12/2024
lately i’ve been reacting to things by gasping “my word!” while gently touching my palm to my chest
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 08/12/2024
we love to unconsciously recreate a toxic little pattern
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 08/12/2024
watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind alone in bed on a saturday night and having a great time
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 07/12/2024
next year is the year i am finally going to maximize my girlboss potential
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 02/12/2024
poem
DECEMBER
Swaying back and forth
between the things of the world and the things of the spirit -
I want to heave myself from the cliff of thought into an ocean of feeling.
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 02/12/2024
at the part of my healing journey where i feel equally sad about and grateful for everything
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eileen elizabeth 🦋 @eileendotnet.bsky.social · 01/12/2024
yall mind if I get into the Christmas spirit or wot
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 28/11/2024
Thankful for my beautiful family!! 😌💕
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 25/11/2024
realized i’m kind of wifejak coded
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eileen elizabeth 🦋 @eileendotnet.bsky.social · 21/11/2024
I interviewed The Space Gal, who will be the 100th woman in space 👩🏻‍🚀🚀 My first astronaut interview! 🌟
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 23/11/2024
wish everything were funny haha instead of funny in the way a david lynch movie is
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Jennifer Espinoza @sadqueer4life.bsky.social · 18/11/2024
gay
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