iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 17/06/2025

a very happy dog to bless your feeds today x

A photo of a red Labrador with a pink collar stood next to a fence and a potted plant. She looks very happy’

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 29/05/2025

research call out 📢 I’m looking for participants for my University of Sheffield MA dissertation which is aiming to look at selfies taken from the bed by people with a chronic health condition and/or disability whilst resting or pacing. if you are interested please email: bhgibson1@sheffield.ac.uk

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 29/05/2025

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 17/04/2025

co-opting the language of feminism to exclude and discriminate against trans women isn’t feminism btw! it’s just thinly-disguised hatred & bigotry that has absolutely zero place in any feminism or everyday life in general

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 05/04/2025

think I’ve almost finished writing my wonderful friends wedding poem which is a very cool thing to get to do ?? isn’t life lovely sometimes

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 13/03/2025

said the word “capitalism” in a sentence and my sister went on a big rant about how I always have use big words to link everything back to society .. okay gurl

Three texts in a row saying “I ain’t listening to all that” “I’m happy for u tho” “or sorry that happened”

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Todd Dillard @toddedillard.bsky.social · 13/03/2025

sometimes I open my notes app and ask “did I write a poem” and no I didn’t

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 11/03/2025

went twenty-eight years without a uti but I fear my time may have come. not very nice is it huh

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 05/03/2025

I’ve viewed the digital world as an escape from my body—symptoms dulled into submission or to be distracted from. but i am realising that I can’t leave my body behind—my digital practice, my writing, is informed by sickness. & sickness can change the way we think, organise and act—a knowledge tool.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 03/03/2025

I was very lucky to have a poem of mine included here. you can go download and read for free!

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 16/02/2025

although I think the requirement of biocertification to be deemed worthy of care is fucked, that western medicine’s need for diagnosis for bodies that are inherently fluid & unstable is often unnavigable—I’m glad to have an appt with the ME clinic soon so that what is happening has at least a name

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 16/02/2025

if Sunday was a person, my fear-of-conflict arse would absolutely fight it. my body without a doubt always feels extremely heavy and everything is a struggle. absolutely cursed day

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 15/02/2025

quite frankly dying to know what ‘the biggest secret of my life was’ at 9 (?) years old when I wrote in this book

A photo of the inside of a book with bees writing and a drawing of a woman in high heels. The writing says ‘if you want to know the biggest secret of my life come + ask me I might even tell you. Might MIGHT!!! Doesn’t mean I will though. Because it is embarrassing only a few people know!”

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 14/02/2025

happy Valentine’s Day to everyone in love, ur very cute and everyone’s posts are very sweet !! but also to me, the girl who finally just deleted all her dating apps because as much as being in love sounds nice and all, I know I’m not in a place to meet people off the apps. yay for self awareness ❣️❣️

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 03/02/2025

I’ve been struggling to articulate why I like to use the term ‘sick’ and I think this does a great job at explaining it: 📃 Touch Me, I’m Sick: Hysterical Intimacies| Sick Theories - Margeaux Feldman

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Dan Douglas @dandouglas.bsky.social · 01/02/2025

rachel reeves isn’t stupid. she *knows* a huge number of people are either too physically or mentally ill to meet the demands of work. she *knows* disability benefit fraud is a minuscule sum, effectively 0%. she’s just a scapegoat-seeking sadist happy to kill off disabled people

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 01/02/2025

you know that feeling where everyone is talking at once and you feel like your head is going to actually explode. don’t recommend

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 30/01/2025

outing myself as a person who is bad at things on my latest substack: open.substack.com/pub/ourchaot...

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Litbowl @litbowl.bsky.social · 26/01/2025

Deserves repeating.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 21/01/2025

working on building my trouser collections and these are some nice fun ones to add to the mix (thank u lucy & yak for comfy trousers that fit fat babes)

A photo of bee in a pink net shirt tucked in to some green tartan trousers

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 12/01/2025

me at my expected masters graduate date this year (just been allocated my diss supervisor 🤭)

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 11/01/2025

hannah: I’m taking a photo act normal me: yes yes that I can do me:

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 05/01/2025

for a while, my writing about pain meant writing only about the emptiness & destruction of it: an outlet to give the unknowable a language. what’s coming up for me now is a desire to move into a space that captures a greater depth, not a terrible after, just a life that takes on different meaning.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 03/01/2025

changing “always reading” in my bio to “often reading” because of a big nasty reading slump

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 03/01/2025

i’m really not ever in the interest in making fun or debasing certain writing styles because they’re not personally for me. I don’t ever want to situate certain styles as superior because making moral judgements on taste has never really worked out well has it

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 02/01/2025

another year, another writing project I will try my hardest not to abandon

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 29/12/2024

was playing a game the other day where everyone had to look at my phone & then my bedtime reminder at 10:30 pm popped up. humbled but well-rested

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 28/12/2024

just a girly pop with an alarm to take her pill that always gets snoozed at least two times

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 24/12/2024

sister had one drink and dropped her glasses down the toilet and then proceeded to try and wipe them clean with dry shampoo. christmas is going well so far i think

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 24/12/2024

wrote this in my phone notes right before I fell asleep last night & I stand by it:

Text saying:

using language to make room for the radical potential of “fat” as descriptor does not have to be perceived as a way of doing harm due to negative connotations of fat. Rather, it is an expansion of language—a form of accepting how our bodies exist in this moment, and offers the ability to reach for language and to find a space there where language meets you back. my body is fat—as it is many other things. loud. messy. tired. surviving. thriving at times. reclaiming fat opens up new worlds where bodies are dancing, loving, creating, organising, crying, hurting, kissing, hugging, breaking up, falling apart, holding each other. a place where bodies exist as they are & shame is not a regular visitor or tenant. The word fat is home-maker: a way of shouting what the body is & making room for other definitions, archives, histories and world-building to come and live alongside of it.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 23/12/2024

ordered this dress from vinted and was very surprised—did not expect this! stunning. girly with a waist. an abundance of pink. also a lil fabric to make a bow at the neckline too if wanted?? a dream!!

A photo of bee in a pink floral long sleeved dress with a full skirt and a tight fitted waist. high neck. bee is holding up the skirt with her hands and smiling. her hair is down and straight.

Same dress - but bee is holding one arm out, one rested at her side and her head is tilted to the side with hair covering her face.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 22/12/2024

drunken man sat next to me on the train yesterday, started singing wonderwall, ate the stinkiest crisps and then fell asleep on my shoulder. hell

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 20/12/2024

rejection therapy but make it submitted to poetry journals themed

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 19/12/2024

i saw some fat babes with fringes so i decided to become a fat babe with a fringe 🫡

Bee is in a baggy white shirt with her hair, dark red brown straightened with a new fringe. her lips and pink.

A photo of bee at the bus stop in a leopard print teddy coat with her hair down and smiling. her lips are once again pink 👄

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 18/12/2024

switching up language in chronic illness & disability is fundamental. Rather than “get better soon” it can be more inclusive / impactful to say “I hope some relief comes for this moment”. it doesn’t assume a return to an arbitrary wellness state, but a momentary pause from grief / pain / fatigue etc

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 17/12/2024

me 🤝 the resident 🤝 bisexual panic

A photo of Billie from The Resident in a white doctor’s coat looking down.

A photo of Conrad from The Resident in a brown leather coat and jeans, smiling. And looking away from the camera

A photo of Mina from The Resident in an orange off the shoulder dress with her hand on her chest looking away from the camera

A photo of AJ from The Resident in blue scrubs and scrub hat, folding his arms on his chest

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Rach 🍂📚☕️ @rachelmayquin.bsky.social · 16/12/2024

The gorgeous team at Doubleday (@transworldbooks.bsky.social @sarabethsbooks.bsky.social) sent me this stunning copy of #WellPrescribeYouACat to gift to a friend, so I thought I’d spread some Christmas feline cheer! 🐈‍⬛ 💊 Follow & repost for a chance to win. UK only, I’ll pick a winner this Friday.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 16/12/2024

a boss stage for my agoraphobia journey next week: getting my first train in 2 & a half years, a few days before Christmas, and the train back is in rush hour. haven’t been given an allocated seat. having a bit of a nervy b about it but I’ll be fine!! it will be fine!!

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 15/12/2024

saw a article saying books are a waste of time & that’s a stance I can’t get behind at all. books have given me so much—knowledge as weapon, escape, comfort. books can be both lifeline & pleasure. books offer a wide range of worlds that are possible. they are not trivial & they are not a waste

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

not to be dramatic but hearing james stewart say ‘I’ll give you the moon Mary’ and donna reed saying ‘I’ll take it!’ temporarily cures me of any melancholy I have in that moment

A picture of a tv screen playing it’s a wonderful life

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

this poem hits me so hard every time i read or even think of it

Saying I am a survivor in another language

We are in the moment before we decide,
for the first time, to have sex.
We fill our mouths with salami and wine.
I am careful, peeling wax paper off glazed sponge cake
baked by nuns who live down the street.
One nun, this morning, took my hand in hers while she told me that the most important ingredient
is the silence of prayer. I cannot tell you this, but I held onto her
while she walked me through a village made of thick paper. A train with a real light
and human figurines hot-glued to look
like they were heading somewhere.
I was terrified. I didn't touch a man for seven years.
Asleep. Your eyelashes open against my chest.
You are the first person to not know this.
TANEUM BAMBRICK

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Hollie McNish @holliemcnish.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

Tonight's scribbles thinking about my grandmother and great grandmother and a quick reminder that if you wear the same outfit to every party, no-one gives a shit, unless you're going to parties full of pricks.

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Litbowl @litbowl.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

From Ocean Vuong's book, On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous: bookshop.org/a/862/978052... #books #booklovers #oceanvuong #authors #writing

Photo of a page from Ocean Vuong's book, On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

oh to be a teenager watching hilary duff & mary-kate and ashley films again

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

this poem by Tara Skurtu lives rent-free in my mind and i’m okay with that

MORNING LOVE POEM

Dreamt last night I fed you, unknowingly, something you were allergic to.
And you were gone, like that.
You don't have even a single allergy, but still. The dream cracked. Cars nose-dived
off snow banks into side streets. Sometimes dreams slip poison, make the living
dead then alive again, twirling in an unfamiliar room.
It's hard to say I need you enough.
Today I did. Walked into your morning shower fully clothed. All the moments
we stop ourselves just because we might feel embarrassed or impractical, or get wet.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

wearing my fave jumper & some cute Christmas earrings. bought the dogs some doggy Christmas cookies so I will temporarily be their fave person. just the conclusion of my assignment to write. it’s a good day x

Bee is in a love-heart printed roll neck jumper with her hair in a bun with a few curls out. she is smiling

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

hospital gowns & blood pressure cuffs that don’t fit fat bodies, mri machines & hospital beds that aren’t made to hold us: all another tool to communicate which bodies do & don’t belong & who is deserving of care-taking & support. fat bodies are intentionally excluded in every aspect of healthcare.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

you know when you see a bug on its back struggling to get up ?? that will be me after my mri scan this evening

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