iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 17/06/2025

a very happy dog to bless your feeds today x

A photo of a red Labrador with a pink collar stood next to a fence and a potted plant. She looks very happy’

bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 29/05/2025

research call out 📢 I’m looking for participants for my University of Sheffield MA dissertation which is aiming to look at selfies taken from the bed by people with a chronic health condition and/or disability whilst resting or pacing. if you are interested please email: bhgibson1@sheffield.ac.uk

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 13/03/2025

said the word “capitalism” in a sentence and my sister went on a big rant about how I always have use big words to link everything back to society .. okay gurl

Three texts in a row saying “I ain’t listening to all that” “I’m happy for u tho” “or sorry that happened”

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 15/02/2025

quite frankly dying to know what ‘the biggest secret of my life was’ at 9 (?) years old when I wrote in this book

A photo of the inside of a book with bees writing and a drawing of a woman in high heels. The writing says ‘if you want to know the biggest secret of my life come + ask me I might even tell you. Might MIGHT!!! Doesn’t mean I will though. Because it is embarrassing only a few people know!”

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 03/02/2025

I’ve been struggling to articulate why I like to use the term ‘sick’ and I think this does a great job at explaining it: 📃 Touch Me, I’m Sick: Hysterical Intimacies| Sick Theories - Margeaux Feldman

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 30/01/2025

outing myself as a person who is bad at things on my latest substack: open.substack.com/pub/ourchaot...

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 21/01/2025

working on building my trouser collections and these are some nice fun ones to add to the mix (thank u lucy & yak for comfy trousers that fit fat babes)

A photo of bee in a pink net shirt tucked in to some green tartan trousers

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 12/01/2025

me at my expected masters graduate date this year (just been allocated my diss supervisor 🤭)

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 11/01/2025

hannah: I’m taking a photo act normal me: yes yes that I can do me:

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 05/01/2025

for a while, my writing about pain meant writing only about the emptiness & destruction of it: an outlet to give the unknowable a language. what’s coming up for me now is a desire to move into a space that captures a greater depth, not a terrible after, just a life that takes on different meaning.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 24/12/2024

wrote this in my phone notes right before I fell asleep last night & I stand by it:

Text saying:

using language to make room for the radical potential of “fat” as descriptor does not have to be perceived as a way of doing harm due to negative connotations of fat. Rather, it is an expansion of language—a form of accepting how our bodies exist in this moment, and offers the ability to reach for language and to find a space there where language meets you back. my body is fat—as it is many other things. loud. messy. tired. surviving. thriving at times. reclaiming fat opens up new worlds where bodies are dancing, loving, creating, organising, crying, hurting, kissing, hugging, breaking up, falling apart, holding each other. a place where bodies exist as they are & shame is not a regular visitor or tenant. The word fat is home-maker: a way of shouting what the body is & making room for other definitions, archives, histories and world-building to come and live alongside of it.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 23/12/2024

ordered this dress from vinted and was very surprised—did not expect this! stunning. girly with a waist. an abundance of pink. also a lil fabric to make a bow at the neckline too if wanted?? a dream!!

A photo of bee in a pink floral long sleeved dress with a full skirt and a tight fitted waist. high neck. bee is holding up the skirt with her hands and smiling. her hair is down and straight.

Same dress - but bee is holding one arm out, one rested at her side and her head is tilted to the side with hair covering her face.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 19/12/2024

i saw some fat babes with fringes so i decided to become a fat babe with a fringe 🫡

Bee is in a baggy white shirt with her hair, dark red brown straightened with a new fringe. her lips and pink.

A photo of bee at the bus stop in a leopard print teddy coat with her hair down and smiling. her lips are once again pink 👄

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 17/12/2024

me 🤝 the resident 🤝 bisexual panic

A photo of Billie from The Resident in a white doctor’s coat looking down.

A photo of Conrad from The Resident in a brown leather coat and jeans, smiling. And looking away from the camera

A photo of Mina from The Resident in an orange off the shoulder dress with her hand on her chest looking away from the camera

A photo of AJ from The Resident in blue scrubs and scrub hat, folding his arms on his chest

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

not to be dramatic but hearing james stewart say ‘I’ll give you the moon Mary’ and donna reed saying ‘I’ll take it!’ temporarily cures me of any melancholy I have in that moment

A picture of a tv screen playing it’s a wonderful life

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

this poem hits me so hard every time i read or even think of it

Saying I am a survivor in another language

We are in the moment before we decide,
for the first time, to have sex.
We fill our mouths with salami and wine.
I am careful, peeling wax paper off glazed sponge cake
baked by nuns who live down the street.
One nun, this morning, took my hand in hers while she told me that the most important ingredient
is the silence of prayer. I cannot tell you this, but I held onto her
while she walked me through a village made of thick paper. A train with a real light
and human figurines hot-glued to look
like they were heading somewhere.
I was terrified. I didn't touch a man for seven years.
Asleep. Your eyelashes open against my chest.
You are the first person to not know this.
TANEUM BAMBRICK

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

this poem by Tara Skurtu lives rent-free in my mind and i’m okay with that

MORNING LOVE POEM

Dreamt last night I fed you, unknowingly, something you were allergic to.
And you were gone, like that.
You don't have even a single allergy, but still. The dream cracked. Cars nose-dived
off snow banks into side streets. Sometimes dreams slip poison, make the living
dead then alive again, twirling in an unfamiliar room.
It's hard to say I need you enough.
Today I did. Walked into your morning shower fully clothed. All the moments
we stop ourselves just because we might feel embarrassed or impractical, or get wet.

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

wearing my fave jumper & some cute Christmas earrings. bought the dogs some doggy Christmas cookies so I will temporarily be their fave person. just the conclusion of my assignment to write. it’s a good day x

Bee is in a love-heart printed roll neck jumper with her hair in a bun with a few curls out. she is smiling

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

not to be dramatic but getting these dungas on vinted for £15 (were about £70) originally from a small biz that has since closed down before I managed to get any— may be the biggest achievement of my year x

Bee is wearing a pair of navy dungarees with lots of green plants on them, with one leg propped up and her hand in her hair

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

oh this is stunning 🥲 📖 Orbital - Samantha Harvey

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

she’s just a girl … in yet another chequered shirt (avoiding her assignment) … asking herself if it’s okay to have yet another coffee in her christmas mug (sorry to my fave movie for butchering that quote)

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 07/12/2024

last year, I wrote a poem about the complex feelings of leaving and returning home alone, of longing; alongside the safety I currently find in it, the reprieve from dating trauma, the learning to trust myself again. here’s a little bit from that:

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 05/12/2024

can’t look at this dress the same since my brother told me i look like i belong in an episode of spongebob SquarePants & he’s right i fear. makes it more cunty though i think

Bee is stood in a lift in a purple collar dress with flower doodles all over it, under a bright pink coat.

A photo of the spongebob flower clouds on a blue sky

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 03/12/2024

just a very pink & purple babe with her very large coffee to go & time reading and writing fat politics ! what a lovely life

bee, a white plus size person, is stood in a lift wearing a pink top, purple lace skirt and a pink coat and white scarf. her hair is braided with a purple bandana and she is holding a large coffee Up and smiling.

A photo of a laptop screen, with two tabs opened with blocks of writing. A coffee cup is next to the laptop

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 01/12/2024

don’t mind me, just sharing a poem i had published by Swim Press earlier this year about wild water swimming & lovely pals !

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 01/12/2024

not me slipping on a mud and landing on my face. not the man across the road shouting over “did you enjoy your trip?”. not me holding on to lunas lead for dear life as I sprained my ankle. that’s what I get for wearing unsupportive fake crocs and talking about a book where a man turns to custard

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 30/11/2024

an absolute travesty that I mentioned to a friend once!! that james blunt did have a few bangers and since that mention I receive adverts about james blunt on a weekly basis

A screenshot of Jennifer Coolidge with the text ‘these algorithms they’re trying to murder me’ at the bottom

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 29/11/2024

on opticians orders to wear my contacts less so the gay glasses are back out to play🫡

A selfie of bee in a navy top and her hair in a ponytail with two thin curls at the front. she is wearing a pair of rainbow square glasses and red lipstick

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 27/11/2024

allow me a moment of indecision because both of these (both with a quote from a favourite poem)

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 26/11/2024

one kind of silly but very meaningful way that i know my depression isn’t as bad these days is that im doing a big smile in photos which I haven’t done in years. here i am showing all my teeth & everything

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

a new poem coming at you from a long bus ride—

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

shall we all clap because I’ve actually found a beret that fits my big head & im feeling very joyful about it actually x

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

had the most hellish pain night but i get to see a friend today who I haven’t seen in years (!) so im fine it’s fine

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

she’s being stubborn and wearing a skirt that’s too big and is silly and doesn’t have a belt. wish her luck !

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

lecturer who’s work i really admire said that I’m excellent and would make a great social researcher x

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bee 🐝 @itsbeebabe.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

Me all day after reading in there would be snow in the weather forecast this morning:

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