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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

If it was just one person who hurt me this way I would have lived it down by now, but it never fucking ends. WHAT ELSE CAN I DO? Do I just give up trying to be myself? Do I just fucking repress, abandon everything and assimilate? The more I try to be true to myself, the more this mismatch hurts.

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

I wish I was pretty enough to be loved and normal enough to blend in. I just want to be a normal fucking woman. I want to meet the parents, wear the gown, and have a family. I just want a quiet life, never heartbroken, never alone again. I don't want to be fucking terrified to love someone.

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

Everyone tells me that my body is the real me. I beg for their permission to be more. I feel trapped in a fleshy prison that nobody can see past. "Please, anyone... Someone please come back for me. I need you. Please see the real me." It's all in vain, everyone I love will eventually hate me.

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

I wish I could see into the psyche of others and get some answers. Why am I such an abomination? Why does deep connection elude me? Is it my weight? My tired mannish face? My chest? The fucking tumor between my legs? All or none of it? The constant stress and trauma chipping away at my sanity?

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

Damn near every day all I think about is how much happier I could be if I was just a cis woman let alone not ugly What it would be like if my body didn't make it so easy for people to reflexively hate me If I was truly free to love and be loved Is that my true self? Am I more than this body?

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

I'm your lolcow You can troll me I'm you lolcow I don't own me

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

I've been mixing whole heads of black garlic and a pinch of msg into mayo and spreading it on burgers lately... Do like a pretzel bun and Gouda cheese

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Tax the everliving fuck out of large civilian vehicles 10 years old or newer. Force them all to bring back minivans and wagons. Open the gates to Kei cars and other compacts

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Before Major Lazer started making radio hits it was really just Diplo and friends fucking around making stupid shit for fun Case in point, look up the Major Lazer cartoon if you haven't seen it

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Because my family doesn't accept me as a woman, I fantasize so much about getting accepted by a future partner's family and spending the holidays with them. Getting a new family is literally the greatest thing I can imagine, next to actually passing as a woman. I wanna be loved.

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

Crosspost from Twitter doing the 9 albums thing I tried to do a thing with colors and sorting by genre but it's a little mixed up. These have all actually been in heavy rotation at various times in my life

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Like. I shake and cry on a regular basis because I want to be a girlfriend and a wife and a mother and the world just violently rejects me and my reflection looks like an ogre and people in my own community treat me like I need to be put to sleep

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Maybe it's my bad because I keep entering the orbit of shitty people who mistreat me but it's hard to not feel like I'm worthless because of what is and isn't between my legs or how unattractive I am

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

You ever just wake up and feel like you fell out of a tree

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

The big guy at buc-ees said he's not building in blue states :/

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Fat and ugly trans women we are all so fucking cooked. We're never gonna get our happy ever after looking the way we do.

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

I wish I was a trans man so someone out there would actually want me

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

become a vtuber and get shredded or anorexic off screen... come out the other side with a facade of confidence... or something idk

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

considering how many times ive tried to kill myself or made plans to do so at this point, and how shit my body feels all the time, there's no reason not to take drastic measures to lose weight i heard they treat you better when you're skinny. i sure hope so

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

Fucking "is this love or heartburn" is stuck in my head this morning "You make me sweat right through my drawers"

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

This reads as sarcasm but these days I genuinely wince in pain at the sight of couples

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

Put the bolt between my eyes brother!!!

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

The thought of vaginal sex makes me want to kill myself because I don't have a vagina

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

Every time my stinkoid coworker plays shotgun blues by volbeat I feel like injecting two part epoxy straight into my ears

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

And I manage to make all of them hate me and root for my pain.

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

Nobody wants to be worshipped (let alone by an ogre) but I keep doing it whenever I'm desperate for closeness with someone I believe could've loved me and made me whole in another timeline because I think so little of myself. So I beg for a smile, wish for a hug, and dream of being held forever.

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

As a child I would cling to my mother as the less volatile parent and I began to feel hyper aware and responsible for her mood all the time. Today I still feel like I'm supposed to practically worship and serve someone to prove my love and make up for being inadequate.

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

>Gets into building gundams after leaving Minneapolis >Bandai announces a new Gundam Base store in Minneapolis at the MoA >Can't find the kits I want to build in Pittsburgh 😭

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

If you've never watched a gundam series you should watch The Witch from Mercury, the English dub is on YouTube 👀

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

I feel the same way I started going to Gundam build nights at a local shop every weekend, it would be really fun to do that kind of thing with people I know better/who aren't as loud Does that kinda thing interest you or bub?

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

Most of all I hope you feel like the only way you'll ever please the people you let down is by taking your life. I hope you feel just like I do someday. I hope you feel like your life is nothing more than a spectacle while hundreds of eyes look down at you.

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

I hope you never feel like anything more than a nuisance and a burden to the people you love. I hope you never find a family in this space. I hope you get art block that lasts years and years. You fucking dick, I hope you live MY LIFE. I don't want your sympathy. I want you to be fucking ashamed.

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

I hope you lose your love and it hurts like hell. I hope you get taken advantage of and end up thousands of dollars in the hole. I hope you get harassed and groped on the street and feel all the fucking fear I did. I hope nobody helps you. I hope they laugh in your face like they did to me.

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

Fuck you dude I know you're still keeping tabs on me. I know you enjoy my misfortune and heartbreak. Eat shit and die!

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

Just in case you didn't know, because I didn't know, the PPAP guy performed his little dance for Shinzo Abe and Trump in 2017

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

80 percent man 20 percent scissors It's Edward Scissorhands And he's back In an all-new adventure That's fun for the whole family *Sad In Carolina hook starts playing*

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

I just feel evermore convinced that loving people will always bring me more pain than happiness. No matter how much I minimize myself, or how selfless I try to become, it doesn't matter. If I love someone enough, they're guaranteed to turn on me and hurt me. Tbh I'm scared to cling to my friends.

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

The things I gave up for someone who couldn't honestly say they loved me too

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Bobby Schroeder @ponett.dog · 01/08/2026

that one big article about how a bunch of americans were taught how to read wrong changed everything for me. now when i get a comment about something i never actually said i think oh, are you one of the kids that got taught three cueing instead of phonics? are you half guessing what i said

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Velta ?? 👁️ @okamitypebeat.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

I had a vision i had to get out of my head

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Shelley B. Tired @igloopink.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

My new roommate has me exploring the auto salvage yard and building gundams on the weekends and I actually really like it

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