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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 4h

Serious question, hoping someone can assist. Are there studies or better yet a person that can talk to where the safest/best city/state to be homeless is. Esp if you have no car or any support. Places that have some semblance of social svcs. Just trying to get my ducks in a row for the inevitability

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 4h

I want to believe these young men on tik tok. I want to believe them when they recognize it's their gender that needs to hold itself accountable. Problem is I remember GenX guys saying the same, nothing changed, & where are they now? Doing Boomer impressions. I don't have hope but maybe it'll change

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 29/09/2026

This is just a point in time for accountability post for myself. Nothing to see here.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 28/09/2026

He's decided he has long covid (he absolutely does, we got it at the same time, have the same permanent side effects). I've been disabled for 20yrs. I've spent the last 6 asking him to wear a mask. He won't. I'm betting you right now Skyline, next time he goes out, he'll wear a mask. Calling it now.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 27/09/2026

Sunday & he's on his gaslighting bullshit. Once again he left just as I was about to run errands. That destroys all plans that I had for today. I can't do spontaneous w/my disabilities. I'm seriously considering pawning my jewelry & staying in a motel until the $ runs out. At least then it'd be over

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 26/09/2026

He's pissed off now. Now that I'm not crying. He pushed me into numb. Now he can live with it.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 25/09/2026

Numb today. I did something stupid, posted something I shouldnt have. Yet it made me realize as I deleted the explanation no one cares about, I dont care anymore. I actually prefer the numb & wtf-everness towards everyone/everything. Nothing changes for me so why waste energy caring? This is better.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 24/09/2026

If the next person who wants to kick me in the teeth while I'm down & remind me how worthless I am, could just go ahead & finish the job, that would be great. Less work for me & you don't have to see a 'whiny bitch baby' on your feed. Appreciate you.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 23/09/2026

Hey guys. I'm still alive. Please clap. Anyone in your real life says this? Bitch slap them. Tell them it's a one handed clap.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 23/09/2026

I gave in. The fact is I can't survive alone & I have only 1 person that exists in my life. He wins. It's fine. He's happy & nothing changes for me so it's whatever. I'm stuck in this house for however many yrs unless we lose it, I have to just make it work. Not like I have a lot of time left anyway

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 22/09/2026

Tonight is going to be a bad night, I can see it coming. Since this has been the shittiest 2 days on Bluesky (seriously, if I had a Twitter acct I'd think I was logged on there) & obviously also not getting better, I'm thinking of locking my phone in the car. Then i won't post & ppl can't be cunts.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 22/09/2026

I really wish she posted on BS. I could really use more of ppl like her in my timeline.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 22/09/2026

I signed up for an online ASL class thru the GA Center of the Deaf. It's a refresher as Ive taken it before but it's been years. I was kinda proud of myself so I posted thinking here's a positive I can share! 1st comment was 'good, about time you stopped whining.' I deleted the post. I can't do this

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Alexis @alexisx-au.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

Sex worker: Actively seeks to accommodate various disabilities. Various health organisations i have to deal with: Actively work against accommodating my disabilities. [ cc: @touchingbase.bsky.social ] #disability #ableism #sexwork #auspol

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 21/09/2026

Question for the #disability #MCAS communities. Anyone know if #TraderJoes washes their potatoes or does anything special to them? Had a horrific reaction today right after eating a potato & just realized this is the 2x. Both times were TJ russet potatoes. Wondering if it's an actual connection.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 21/09/2026

I need out. I can't stay here. I'm not going to make it much longer. Every single day it's something new. It's like it's become a challenge for him to fight me on everything. I could say the sky is blue & I'd be wrong. I can't. I just can't do this any more. It's been over a year of this constantly.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 21/09/2026

Any assistance is greatly appreciated. After paying rent & mortgage in 2wks, my savings will be completely wiped out. There's no money for 2 households & I refuse to screw up my kid's life so mortgage won't get paid. How are any of us supposed to survive? I know. We're not. Cashapp: $GriefEnduring

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 21/09/2026

Just a warning: there's a picture going around of the victim from Austin. There's a lot of blood. I do not know why its not hidden, but it's incredibly disturbing. Please share this trigger warning.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 21/09/2026

Wish there was some sort of device that would shock me, pinch me, something, any time I'm tempted to talk to him. Cause it's not him I want to talk to, I'm just desperate for human interaction. I go days w/o talking to anyone, weeks not seeing anyone. It's destroying me...

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 20/09/2026

Every week there's a new story. I'm scared to death. I have no reason to be scared that this could have happened. I also had no reason to believe after 30yrs he'd just be done w/me. I've been w/him since I was 21. How much was a lie? Did he ever love me? When did he stop? What else am I missing?

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 20/09/2026

I moved this account to Northsky, but now it takes forever to load. There's a vast difference now & not in a good way. Is this normal? Is it just slower to use Northsky here? It seems down more than BS.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 20/09/2026

I don't know how he fooled me for 30yrs. I'm a fucking idiot & apparently gullible as hell. Why did i think someone could actually love me for me & not as a glorified secretary. It's just cruelty at this point. Going to have to not rock the boat & stay in my room. There's only 1 way out of this.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 18/09/2026

I'm sorry y'all, I really did try. Ive nothing left to give. If I have to live like this, Id prefer to just pretend nothing else exists until nothing does. Might hurt less having nothing & no one. Was hoping having something separate would help but it made it 2x worse. May you all find your joy.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 17/09/2026

Saddest part is I just wanted someone to love me enough to hold my hand during hard times. That was too much to ask of anyone. If I can provide a last piece of advice: Don't ever rely on anyone other than yourself. When it comes to life or death, no one is going to stick their neck out. You're alone

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 17/09/2026

Had to cancel my eye appt again. Found out he "forgot" to reorder my HSA card when I gave the youngest mine when she moved. It's in his name so I can't do it & he just didn't. I need a cornea transplant/ blind in my right eye & bad in left & I've been w/o glasses for >2wks & trying to apply for jobs

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 17/09/2026

SO's company is starting to talk lay-offs. If he loses his job, I'll be on the street. I don't own a car. I feel absolutely nothing about the whole thing. I just don't care any more.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 16/09/2026

USPS just sent my meds, that are to be delivered today & have been in Atl since yesterday, to Ohio. Not only do they get to fuck w/numbers, but with our lives. I get to go cold turkey for at least 48hrs. I'm sure that won't affect me at all or my bipolar. I'm sure I'll get thru it alone just fine.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 16/09/2026

Update for those who've been helping me support getting my kids safe & helping my youngest attend school. She just had 1st wk of tests this semester (2yr Assoc for Sonography). Did really well! Anyone w/AP kids will remember the powerhouses of the cell. 2 kids, should have saved oldest's projects.

Text message with the Littlest Monster.

Kid: Plus the next chapters are easier and stuff I actually enjoy. I could care less about the mitochondria but gene splitting is hella cool.

Me: But they're the powerhouses of the cell!

Kid: two cry/laughing emojis

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 16/09/2026

I guess, at some level, I thought that if a situation ever came up that I really needed someone, that someone would somehow just appear? I don't know. I do know I didn't know I'd be going thru the worst years of my life & doing it utterly alone. I also know I can't do it. I'm not built for it.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 15/09/2026

I don't know how many more days I can do this.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 15/09/2026

Why is it such a taboo to talk about death? It's just another stage of existence, it just happens to be the last one. None of us asked to be here, we're here on someone's whim, so why is it expected that we all love it? And what makes it so special to begin with? Why do we force ourselves to suffer?

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 14/09/2026

Nights are the worst. Ppl head home to their families & the silence takes over. No family, friends, coworkers, acquaintances. 30yrs in a state w/nothing to show I even existed. I wish I knew what I wasnt seeing in myself that others hate so much. Isolating an extrovert is torture. Id rather be dead.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 14/09/2026

And some medical supply companies are already replacing their employees with Ai. Guess how I know.

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cait (and adonis) @cait.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

why is it not enough that vulnerable people must give up their rights for the greater good? why must they also accept their own sacrifice quietly and graciously? ask yourself if you would be so forgiving if you were the one expected to suffer for the greater good

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 14/09/2026

Sign is back down to 0. Generic news stories are now off limits cause I'm wrong about them, even if I'm quoting someone else. I don't understand how he can claim he wants us to work when it's very obvious he can't stand my very presence. I know there's no god cause I pray every night not to wake up.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 14/09/2026

I'd really love to talk about this with someone. He was a huge part of my teen years. Except I keep looking at my sign and the sad "1 day" & I know he wouldn't care anyway.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 13/09/2026

51% of the population is already very aware what men like him are capable of. It's not if, it's a matter of when. The longer the regime coddles him, the worse that final explosion is going to be.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 13/09/2026

He waited until I was in the bathroom before I went shopping to take the car. He'll be back "in a few hours". Guess he's paying for my instacart. He'll need a 2nd job if he wants to play these petty games. He'll be lucky if I don't order takeout. If I was lucky I wouldn't be here when he got back.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 13/09/2026

Decided to work on a craft project today. I'm trying to not just rot in bed. He's taken it over. While I was napping he decided to plug holes & drill new ones in the dresser I had started refurbishing. Guess it's his now. I'm going back to bed & staying. I don't have any desire to continue like this

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 12/09/2026

I'm very happy for Lady Gaga & her new addition to the family. However, just putting it out there, #LittlestMonster is mine. I should copyright it.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 11/09/2026

Applied for 29 jobs this morning. I'll never make it past the algorithm w/o a college degree. I have 1mnth to figure it all out & get a job all while existing on 500cal/day on a good day & hiding my disabilities. We're going to lose everything. I'm going to ruin my kid's life before it gets started.

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Fight For A Union @fightforaunion.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

Median unemployment duration just hit a 4 year high. People are now spending MONTHS looking for work while rent, groceries, and bills keep coming. That’s how the poverty trap works. Drain the savings, pile on the debt. “No one wants to work?” No. No one wants to hire.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 11/09/2026

If anyone can assist, even with a share, that would be greatly appreciated. Trying to raise $1500 for my youngest to get a root canal (that's with insurance btw). She's in pain & the sooner we can do this, the better for her. Thank you all so much.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 11/09/2026

I think I'm just going to rage read my sign & avoid the internet today. I can already tell it's going to be a cluster fuck & I do not have the spoons nor patience to deal with bullshit today.

It's been 1 day since you last chased him. Stop it! You deserve to be loved.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 11/09/2026

This is what it looks like when their masks start to slip so much they can't hide their true nature.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 11/09/2026

I'll be honest, there are times I wish I could simply choose to disassociate. Today would have been a great day. Instead it's crippling depression & the realization you wasted your 1x around the sun. It's why ppl believe in reincarnation, so they get a 2nd chance. I don't. This is it & I'm alone.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 10/09/2026

He's gone. The car's gone. I felt hope for the briefest of moments that he finally decided to do the right thing & make a fucking decision. My dumbass. Welcome to reality. He just went to the store without bothering to let me know. Reality. Just need to keep reading my sign.

It's been 0 days since you last chased him. Stop it! You deserve to be loved.

My corner desk in my 10x10.
It's been 0 days since you last chased him. Stop it! You deserve to be loved.

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