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Reposted by Liz. 508 [Loop Detected]

IDK what kind of monster would be ok with scraping someone's home into the trash and making a woman with a brain injury and her family homeless, and I'm sure they don't care. But I do. Can you help get her home relocated to a new plot? Time is running out fast.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 11h

The scariest thing for me right now is looking back over 50yrs & having no idea what was real & what wasn't. I realized I don't even know what I like & what I've been conditioned to like. First my egg donor, now my spouse. I can't distinguish & have no one to ask. It's weird not knowing yourself.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 08/10/2026

Everything bad just got so much worse in this house. I truly don't know how much I can keep taking. I reached 'can't take 1 more thing' about 5 things ago & I'm not trying to be cute. I'm at the point that having no one to support me or talk to is destroying me. I have to internalize everything.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 08/10/2026

Our car insurance just took out 3x our usual payment. I have no idea why. I do know that I didn't have that extra $600 so thank you Progressive for making sure I can't eat for the rest of the month or pay any of my bills. I can't even laugh or cry at this point. There's just no money for anything.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

Thinking about it (yes I'm stoned, hush) if this whole thing w/my eyes happened 2yrs ago it would have been different. I mean it would still be a big deal, but it wouldn't feel THIS big & traumatizing. It's because I wouldn't be doing it alone. That's the scary part. I don't know how I'll manage it.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

Lol. I actually did just type out who knew. You. You probably knew that.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

That means so much to me, truly. Like I'm actually tearing up. Phew. Thank you because feeling so unmoored has made this so stressful. Im waiting to hear from the retinal specialist, different from the cornea specialist who knew. But after would be thrilled to be able to reach out. Thank you so much

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

Good: my Littlest Monster will be home tomorrow for the weekend for Pride. Haven't seen her since JUNE! Bad: Her father refuses to tell the kids anything. The guest room is my room so I think she's going to notice. Which means I'll be forced to have the convo & he skates free. Again. I'm so tired.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

That sounds like what our couples therapist called a "soft no". I told her that I thought it was disgusting. I had never heard of it before, but sounds like it might be a thing. I'm still disgusted.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

.. this is only getting worse & yet our support is getting less. I don't want to cycle thru the 3 events that I never want to think about again every fucking week. So ffs can we stop. Stop being fucking cretins. Get 'your boys' under control & let us live our fucking lives. Or just burn it all down.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

... men out there right now defending this, actively looking to dox & further traumatize survivors, trying to make it about them & their feelings. I don't care you have a sister. I don't fucking care if you can't get a date "because of metoo". I don't care about your thoughts at all. I care that...

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

I'm going to be very selfish right now & I'm going to be very selfish for every single rape & assault survivor out there. We shouldn't have to relive the worst moments in our lives multiple times a week. We shouldn't be forced to look at our trauma nearly daily. I'm pissed. Pissed that there are...

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

Liz Pterodactyl I'll never be able to spell my own name again. I'm very tempted to use the name we were going to name our 2nd before we stupidly let the grandparents bully us out of it. Just not sure if that'd be weird.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

Now go back and read some of his other comments. Once you see the markings of an abuser, you can't help but see them in everything he says. He has the vocabulary down pat.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

I'm considering changing my name entirely. Not Liz, that's already my chosen name. No point in going back to my maiden name. My dad is dead & the rest of them can fuck themselves. Not keeping my married name cause fuck him too. No idea how to even begin considering a new surname. It feels immense.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

After my gastric bypass I lived on Bolthouse. They're really good @beckymew.bsky.social and have fruit variety and chocolate. The mocha was my favorite. I had forgotten about them. Id still be drinking them but I now have a lactose intolerance & they're milk based.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

3 Musketeers haven't betrayed me yet and I allow myself to eat them whenever the urge strikes. I figure I'm existing on maybe 500 calories a day, I can eat the damn chocolate.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

The nearly 7hrs to run 3 errands yesterday just caught up with me & my body just crashed out. Again. It's going to be a very long week.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

Thankfully there's no pain. The left eye can't see & I had no idea about the right hemorrhaging until yesterday. Since everything else hurts, I'll take it! It is scary as fuck & I'm not coping well. Im still trying to come to terms w/being dumped after 30yrs. I don't know how to handle it blind.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

Hey I haven't forgotten that email I owe you. Today was the first day I was conscious for more than an hour at a time. I'll get it out to you soon, i truly do want to help.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

Please excuse me while I go disassociate on the other account. I didn't have "go blind after husband dumps you" on my bingo card for this year & I'm kinda just freaking the fuck out all alone in my 10x10.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

I now have to see a retinal specialist. Im pretty much blind in my left eye. I need a cornea transplant & that money simply doesnt exist. Now my "good eye" is hemorrhaging & I need it checked. They used "blind" WAY too much. Im the fucking joke of the universe & have no one to talk to about this.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 07/10/2026

Six hours. It took me 6hrs for an eye appt, pick up at the dispensary, & grocery shopping for 3 items. I haven't eaten. Haven't taken any meds cause I was driving. I've made 1 trip up the stairs but still have 1 more bag & my body just noped out & I'm on the floor until it decides to work again.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 06/10/2026

Kate Farms literally saved my life when I couldn't eat. They're shakes, but they're damn good & don't taste like most of the meal replacements. They also avoid the major allergens. You can buy online but Walmart carries them now.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 06/10/2026

P.S. my Littlest Monster is coming home Thurs for Pride. I haven't seen her since June. (Prolly won't see much of her this trip, but that's ok.) The issue is her father refuses to tell the kids anything. Guess who gets to deal with that? I'm so tired of doing everything for everyone & being spit on.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 06/10/2026

I hurt, am sick, flaring, & in pain. I do not want to drive to Costco to get my eyes checked & go to the dispensary. I want to go to bed & get some actual sleep. I need to get dressed. I'm not sure I'll manage either. #disability #NoSpoons

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 06/10/2026

I would like to send you any hugs you might want. It's been such hell traveling with my manual wheelchair (& all the damage the airlines have done to it) that I'm paranoid to travel at all. I'm glad you have great support at home & hope you're getting some rest.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 05/10/2026

Since I'm currently conscious, I wanted to thank everyone who has shared and donated. I'm not sure we'll make it, but I truly appreciate the effort.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 04/10/2026

Half the posts are going full end of world. Half the posts are saying there's nothing to worry about. All I know is I can't go thru that again. Not now. Not like this. I can't be locked in, I won't survive it. And that's before we even take the illness into consideration.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 04/10/2026

I "broke him" & he's done. Throwing all the therapy words back at me. Things went from bad to, well does it matter at this point? I'm tired of talking about it. I'm tired of living it. I'm just tired. At least now I can finally be done. I was able to exhale & realize this is no place for me.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 04/10/2026

Not going to be able to do much boosting. Conscious long enough to pay bills & figured Id try this 1x in hopes I can give Kiddo2 1 more month before she'll probably have to drop out & move home Rent/Living Exp (Nov): $2000 Root Canal x2: $1500min School Loan: $600 CashApp: $GriefEnduring #MutualAid

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 03/10/2026

Woke up from a fever dream in which I woke up from a dream about dying & all 7 of my cats were laying on the bed with me, just looking at me. I'm not superstitious, but I'm not exactly OK right now either.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 02/10/2026

Baseline crashed. Cant break a 102 fever, eat, or retain consciousness. Got up long enough to pay kiddo2 rent & our mortgage. Ive completely wiped out our savings so Im going back to bed. If Im lucky, well Im never lucky so why bother wishing. I'm not ok. My health is really not OK. This is bad.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 01/10/2026

No way in hell Im staying in GA. Don't care if I have to hitchhike. Whenever it gets to that point, I'll hopefully have enough to get to a different state. It's all real doubtful I'll get out at all so I'm not sure why I feel the need to waste the effort, but I've never been accused of being smart.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 01/10/2026

Years ago SO & I were at a Ruby Tuesdays for dinner. The child serving us decided she was all about my SO, flirting, changing her tone, she even offered to make HIS salad for him. It's a freaking salad bar. I've never seen someone go so pale as when I picked up the check & handed her MY card.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 01/10/2026

They are also actively & purposefully going around muted words for the algorithm. They care more about the clicks & likes than the real human beings they are actively harming. They don't give a shit about our consent because we're just content to them.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 01/10/2026

After I pay mortgage & rent tomorrow, everything i saved after being laid off is gone. Interest rates are so high I can't even put things on a credit card. There's nothing left. Haven't gotten a single interview. I'm trying to prepare myself for the inevitable. Tomorrow is not going to be a good day

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 01/10/2026

Don't worry, it'll have to come out all over again in the morning.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 01/10/2026

Just for my own accountability. Made it through day two.

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 01/10/2026

Absolutely, thank you for this. I really had no idea how to even start this research so figured if I threw it out there, I might at least find a jumping off point. I really appreciate you ❤️

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 01/10/2026

Serious question, hoping someone can assist. Are there studies or better yet a person that can talk to where the safest/best city/state to be homeless is. Esp if you have no car or any support. Places that have some semblance of social svcs. Just trying to get my ducks in a row for the inevitability

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 01/10/2026

I want to believe these young men on tik tok. I want to believe them when they recognize it's their gender that needs to hold itself accountable. Problem is I remember GenX guys saying the same, nothing changed, & where are they now? Doing Boomer impressions. I don't have hope but maybe it'll change

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Liz. 508 [Loop Detected] @grief-enduring.northsky.social · 29/09/2026

Every accusation is a confession. Every single one.

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