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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

unfortunately the burrito book is just what i call it for reasons so stupid and esoteric I am frankly embarrassed

Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I think it's finally time to start assembling the burrito book. There's enough material here and I'm not writing a ton of new stuff, which is usually a sign.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

New poem up on the Some Words Lit board in which I argue that deer hunting is ontologically sapphic: somewords.boards.net/thread/209/b...

An excerpt from the poem "Bullet, to the Deer" as published in the message board/lit journal Some Words Lit. It reads:

"Bullet, to the Deer

Your teeth found a clutch of clover
Your tongue a giving river
Your black nose an interesting smell under the bark
of something that fell before both of us
got here.

You closed your eyes in perfect stillness,
your body rigid with peace.
When you found a clutch of clover,
I found you."

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

My girlfriends are getting me into hardcore

A selfie of Billie Sainwood in bed wearing a black graphic tee shirt for the band Spiritiste. There is a citadel in a storm on the shirt. She is smiling.

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

want the best in trans poetry? kithbooks.com/shop Direct Address Robin Arble The Death of the Cult Classic @kblair.bsky.social 36 Views of My Breasts: A trans body memoir @billiewrites.bsky.social Like Blood on a Dog's Teeth @nivikthejackal.bsky.social Another double text K Angel

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

In delving deeply into her lifelong relationship with her breasts, Sainwood offers a lens for reflection, a framework for reimagining our bodies as patient creations who’ll welcome us back. 36 Views of My Breasts @billiewrites.bsky.social kithbooks.com/shop/p/36views

36 Views of My Breasts: A trans body memoir
Wilhelmina "Billie" Sainwood
cover: water colour painting of two snow capped mountains nestled in a lush valley of growth.

No two breasts are identical, no two relationships with them the same. In delving so deeply into her own, Sainwood offers a lens for reflection, and a framework for reimagining our bodies as patient creations who’ll welcome us back.

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 12/06/2026

Leather Bound & Spread Open Billie Sainwood x kith share your love for reading with this cheeky collection from our very own @billiewrites.bsky.social—poet, essayist, performer, and lover of ...books. kithbooks.com/merch

Leather Bound & Spread Open
Billie Sainwood x kith

new merch!

the words "Leather Bound & Spread Open" wrap over and under a book laid open to form a circular shape.

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Leather Bound & Spread Open
Billie Sainwood x kith

new merch!

the graphic described below is shown on a crem coloured hoodie a burgundy T-shirt and a black mug

graphic:
the words "Leather Bound & Spread Open" wrap over and under a book laid open to form a circular shape.

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 26/05/2026

The Holy Ghost Lives in Her Laugh Darius Phelps Mother as woman as wanting as child. 36 Views of My Breasts: A trans body memoir @billiewrites.bsky.social A holistic love letter to the always of breasts Multimorbid Rebecca Wood An affecting & honest account of chronic illness. kithbooks.com

The Holy Ghost Lives in Her Laugh
Darius Phelps
cover: a painting of light's reflection on black

36 Views of My Breasts: A trans body memoir
Billie Sainwood
cover: watercolor of two mountains nestled in a lush landscape

Multimorbid
Rebecca Wood
cover: a cross stitched wreath of flowers bearing the title

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 22/04/2026

LIVE BRAVELY • LOVE LOUDLY • READ TRANS ethically made shirts, sweatshirts, mugs, and stickers for those of us pushing the trans agenda™ kithbooks.com/merch

INTRODUCING KITH MERCH

LIVE BRAVELY
LOVE LOUDLY
READ TRANS

ethically made shirts, sweatshirts, mugs, and stickers for those of us pushing the trans agenda™

two graphic designs are shown on a variety of shirt colours and styles. in the first, the phrase BREAD AND ROSES is styled in all caps letters with the E of bread replaced with a vial of Estrogen and a drawing of a rose in place of the O in roses. the second reads 'this body BESPOKE' with a long sewing needle piercing 'bespoke' horizontally along the midline.

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LIVE BRAVELY
LOVE LOUDLY
READ TRANS

ethically made shirts, sweatshirts, mugs, and stickers for those of us pushing the trans agenda™

a photo of a cream coloured shirt on which the phrase BREAD AND ROSES is styled in all caps letters with the E of bread replaced with a vial of Estrogen and a drawing of a rose in place of the O in roses.

kithbooks.com/merch

LIVE BRAVELY
LOVE LOUDLY
READ TRANS

ethically made shirts, sweatshirts, mugs, and stickers for those of us pushing the trans agenda™

a photo of a black hoodie on which the phrase 'this body BESPOKE' is cut through laterally by a long sewing needle

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 23/04/2026

This is who I'm writing about btw. He fucks

A photo of Ben Quadrinaros, a green skinned, joweled alien with a huge kite shaped head that is most of his body, spindly limbs, and kind pink eyes

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 23/04/2026

Sometimes you write Phantom Menace fanfic for a live show and your friend reads it and screams at you.

A series of text, one is a voice memo, the other is a reaction that reads "Hey. Hey. What the fuck? How dare this be so good? How dare this be so fucking beautiful? What am I supposed to DO WITH THIS." Followed by a message that reads "Ben Quadrinaros!"

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 21/04/2026

Sainwood invites us to stand in communion with the flesh that has carried and carries, to trust in our own bodies, and to hold them in wonder as we watch them grow. 36 Views of My Breasts: A trans body memoir @billiewrites.bsky.social kithbooks.com/shop/p/36views

36 Views of My Breasts
Billie Sainwood
cover: a watercolour painting of two snow capped mountains nestled in a landscape of blue sky and lush fields.

Breasts are a landscape ripe with tension. Breasts are celebrated, shamed, hated, and fetishized across the gender spectrum. Considered unsightly on men, fawned over on women, and, at best, tolerated on those drifting between. Having grown up as a fat “boy,” and transitioning into a woman, breasts were heavy and omnipresent all my life. This book is my attempt at charting my journey, from shame to glory and back again.

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 12/04/2026

I want to talk so much more about trans bodies as always existing. In 36 Views of My Breasts, @billiewrites.bsky.social's reflects on having breasts all her life.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 11/04/2026

New substack post about voice dysphoria, Fat Bastard, and what it really means to speak up.

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 02/04/2026

SHE'S LIVE!! “I am breathing as I write this. My chest is expanding and contracting until my nipples press the soft fabric of my sports bra then disappear. My breasts are filling with stubborn proof of my life. I am heavy. I am light.“ - @billiewrites.bsky.social www.kithbooks.com/shop/p/36views

36 Views of My Breasts: A trans body memoir
Wilhelmina "Billie" Sainwood

“for once, my body is not the punchline;
for once, a pose is meant to accentuate;
for once, posture is not self defense;
... for once, I take a picture of myself naked
and do not shrink away.”
- Wilhelmina “Billie” Sainwood

the text is accompanied by a selection from the watercolor painting that appears on the front cover. two snow capped mountains sit nestled in a lush forevround of red, green and yellow before a blue sky.

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

TRANS RIGHTS READATHON: DAY 4 Aïcha Martine Thiam Ozzy Welch @adrianf.bsky.social @billiewrites.bsky.social kithbooks.com

TRANS RIGHTS READATHON: DAY 4

To Bring You My Love
by AÏcha Martine Thiam

the collision and costs of cross cultural girlhood in cnf, essays, poetry and art.

Toothache
by Ozzy Welch

is there anyone who truly leaves childhood unscathed?

Book of Extraction: Poems with Teeth
by Adrian Dallas Frandle

iykyk in this liturgic trip to the dentist. 'that's it, a little farther back, if you can manage. alright, now open your mouth'.

What was eaten was given
by Wilhelmina "Billie" Sainwood

is the cover offputting? is it kind of intriguing? are you having trouble looking away? this one is for you.

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 12/03/2026

"Breasts. Breasts. Breasts. I have breasts now. The truth of it grows into a chant. The novelty of this never lessens, growing richer in context over time.” 36 Views of My Breasts Wilhelmina "Billie" Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social kithbooks.com/shop/p/36views

“I feel God's love in how my body holds me now. I feel resurrected again and again, feel it come over me slow and constant as faith. There's boundless joy and in its celebration, I feel the need to cross myself and honor it with art. Breasts. Breasts. Breasts. I have breasts now. The truth of it grows into a chant. The novelty of this never lessens, growing richer in context over time.”

36 Views of My Breasts
Wilhelmina "Billie" Sainwood

kithbooks.com

“This is a book about breasts. Specifically, my breasts. I've had them for as long as I can remember, much longer than HRT has pinned them proudly to my chest, pink as boutonnières. These breasts have changed with me, time-lapsing with the messy beauty of a forest floor. They've changed with my body, my beliefs. Our relationship has been a matter of perspective - an ongoing process, constantly occurring, the perpetual rot and decay and rebirth of a person, of nature. It’s random, but purposeful. This transformation has a form all its own.

Breasts are a landscape ripe with tension. Breasts are celebrated, shamed, hated, and fetishized across the gender spectrum. Considered unsightly on men, fawned over on women, and, at best, tolerated on those drifting between. Having grown up as a fat “boy,” and transitioning into a woman, breasts were heavy and omnipresent all my life. This book is my attempt at charting my journey, from shame to glory and back again.“

Billie Sainwood writes the kind of work that burrows under your skin and finds a home among all your other most cherished, precious thoughts, you know? 36 Views is a book I have not been able to stop thinking about. Billie's writing is funny, vulnerable, and breathtaking in its vastness. Did you know your body could be so much? Did you know your trans body is art? Billie knows, and what a joy she would share it with us.
-Daniel Herd, Host of Write Clube ATL

36 Views of My Breasts is a true longitudinal study, in that each poem is its own remembrance of the flesh of chests past and reverence of tits present. Using repetition as an act of meaningful accumulation, Sainwood builds resonance through rituals of self-demolition and reconstruction, sweetened by remembering every awkward, dissonant, sexy, nurturing, discoverable iteration of self. Deftly and tenderly, Sainwood reminds us that we’re always naked under our clothes—then guides us to embrace the parts of ourselves that can only face forward alongside us.
- Stephanie Anderson, SOMEONE ELSE’S FEELINGS

Through a raw and luminous lens, Billie Sainwood pieces together the trans experience through a series of sharp, intimate stories that never shy away from the mess of becoming. With language that’s both visceral and tender, Sainwood writes through the body; its aches, transformations, and small triumphs, to reveal how identity is felt as much as it’s understood.
Bobbi Twiggs, The Pros and Cons of Killing Your Cult Leader

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Tomboyish Transfemme @naomihofficial.bsky.social · 03/03/2026

Shout out to girls who are fat. Fat girls are so fucking cute

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 07/02/2026

In celebration of b̵r̵e̵a̵s̵t̵s̵ Billie, we've got a discount for everyone just catching up 30% off What was eaten was given with code I<3BREASTS when you pair it with your preorder of 36 Views of My Breasts in the shop kithbooks.com/shop

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What was eaten was given
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36 Views of My Breasts: A trans body memoir
Wilhelmins "Billie" Sainwood
cover:
a water colour painting of two snowcapped mountains nestled in the suggestions of pastoral surroundings under a clear blue sky

What was eaten was given
cover: a glistening raw liver lies on a drawing of a place setting in white outline on a background of glossy black

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 06/02/2026

36 Views of My Breasts: A trans body memoir by Wilhelmina "Billie" Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social release date: April 2, 2026 preorders are OPEN kithbooks.com/shop/p/36views

36 Views of My Breasts: A trans body memoir
Wilhelmins "Billie" Sainwood

cover:
a water colour painting of two snowcapped mountains nestled in the suggestions of pastoral surroundings under a clear blue sky

While posing with a can of Coke Zero for a joke

I can’t even remember the joke.
Something about Warhol
Or advertising
Or my willingness to be naked
At the drop of a hat
But all I remember is that the joke wasn’t very funny
But was well received

And
for once my body is not the punchline,
for once a pose is meant to accentuate,
for once a posture is not self defense,
for once the coke can is the coldest thing in my chest,
for once I can feel my heart beating,
against the aluminum,
for once I take a picture of myself naked
and do not shrink away.

For once I do not blame lighting,
Or out of focus
Or any of the thousand arrows
Loosed in a volley of barbed excuses
to shred the tension
and explain why I do not send it.

For once, I take a picture.
Send it.

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 06/02/2026

36 Views of My Breasts: A trans body memoir In this print adaptation of her one woman show of the same name, Sainwood offers a lens for reflection and a framework for reimagining our bodies as patient creations who’ll welcome us back. @billiewrites.bsky.social kithbooks.com/shop/p/36views

36 Views of My Breasts: A trans body memoir
by Wilhelmina "Billie" Sainwood

cover:
a water colour painting of two snowcapped mountains nestled in the suggestions of pastoral surroundings under a clear blue sky

the cover is transposed over a photo of a mannequin's torso, pale skinned and wet as if by rain.

At a summer camp for boys

It’s summer at camp
at the swim dock.
All the boys have their shirts off
they’re all laughing, teasing
swapping the social slang of insults for friendship
of bullying for bouquets of flowers/
The quiet boy laughs
doesn’t think of his body much
except when he does.
When he laughs his breasts jiggle.
When the funniest kid in camp points this out
brays his joke about milk and udders
the dock bursts into a rich symphony of harsh donkey laughs
of goose honks
of heaving shoulders.

The boy’s breasts grow still.
They hide in the new canopy of his hunched shoulders.
He goes and gets a tee shirt
two sizes too big.

This is a cave that cannot hide them.
Cannot save them from more jokes.
Cannot save them from the boys who say they are “tits”
But still they hide in the baggy shirt.
Still, they decide, it will be years
before they come out again.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 05/02/2026

A new post up on the ol' substack about bones, hope, immortality, and 28 Years Later. Link in replies

A banner image for a blog post feature a brown block of color on the top half with the text reading: Good Bones wilhelminalibrary.substack.com Billie Sainwood

the bottom half is a promotional image for the movie 28 Years Later the Bone Temple and the actor Ralph Fiennes naked to the waste and shaved bald screaming in front of a multitude of bone pillars

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 08/12/2025

Brave and unflinching, Like Blood on a Dog's Teeth comes gracious & asking; From youth to adulthood, from lost pup to collared, Nivik reflects on bright lights and rough loves, the selfhood of aging, & all that it costs. @nivikthejackal.bsky.social Pre-orders are OPEN kithbooks.com/shop/p/dogsteeth

like blood on a dog's teeth

i love like a dog with blood on their teeth
caught up in the immediacy of the scent,
singularly focused and ever pursuing
eyes dilated, wracked with frenzy,
possession, instinct,
insatiable.

i am a dog in pursuit
baying and howling,
consumed by my quarry,
the trumpet beckoning me on
to settle the hunt
and feast

i am a starving dog following
the trace of you. finally
locked in my jaws
i gorge and gratify.

Drone
(love in a gas mask)

there is perfection
in unblemished latex skin
a mask that reflects the viewer
in eyes that are closed
knowing only your warm touch
magnified and heightened
to guide me.

There is transfiguration in a creature
relying on exclusively on your command
to guide and position me.

To be an empty shell where words like 'I' escape meaning.
To respond to the pulls at my collar.
To be an object at your disposal.
To be the thing you use and direct.
To have no will but yours.

An emptiness and silence punctuated by breaths
through a gas mask
and what moans you command me make.

Breathe life into my vents and filters
and play god a while.

gentle

i wish to live
a quiet life
stirred only by a gentle breeze
that tickles wind-chimes in dulcet expressions
and calls me to prayer

yet here
the gentility we build
is surrounded by smoke
and fangs
and the roars of the bloodthirsty

the peace i have
this gentility i wish:
the bloodthirsty remind you
you only have this world
because the wolves haven't come for you yet.
they tolerate you for a while.

in this shrinking, gentle world
that hasn't yet turned to ash
the desolate feeling
(ever closer to the brink)
that we must be quieter

unhurried
reasoning with those
with bloodstained fangs
in the hope they pass over our houses—
(perhaps our bones and sinew are not yet
offensive enough
to warrant them gouging us.)

i say to you
these wolves will feast on us all—
we must defend
the last of this fragile world
from these forests of ash
and glinting teeth.
we must defend our gentle peace
our quiet and felicitous solitude
by sharpening our teeth
to meet the monsters' own.

when the howls of the bloodthirsty
are extinguished
we can have our quiet peace again.

On a background of pale green is the muzzle of a person in pup hood and the following text

LIKE BLOOD
ON A
DOG’S TEETH
NIVIK

January 21st, 2026
kithbooks.com

No one teaches us how to age gracefully in the queer community; Nivik does the best job of it I've seen thus far. Their poems are elegaic exposés on an utterly new queer condition: what it's like to have loved and lost, to have danced until you're no longer the pretty young thing in the middle of the rave, to have had raw, unbridled intimacy in an age where the only epidemic people are worried about doesn't have to do with your sexuality. The animal imagery throughout, often classical, often beat, tells the tale of a dog who is lost and abandoned, found again, found again, and still possessing an immense, inane appetite. And whether you're a pup or a furry, a kinkster or a prude, a dom daddy or a sadistic sub, Nivik's poems are a dog unto themselves: they'll go for your throat, and you won't know until you're done whether their bite is one of love or of hunger. Or maybe they're both the same
-Thurston Howl, Fenris Publishing

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 09/12/2025

Don't get me started on the original trans allies: the Magi

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 09/12/2025

i think i'm gonna go to seminary

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 25/11/2025

So every November I try to write 30 poems in 30 days and little recap essays on my substack. In this one (Week 1) we talk about St. Augustine, Jonah, and Charles Peguey

Blog image of rotting yellow greeb pears covered in brown black ants. above it in a burnt umber text box, in white lettering reads "Pears and God's Scumbags: Week 1 of November Writing Challenge

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en•gendered @en-gendered.bsky.social · 09/07/2025

"The Great Blight of Yates County, New York" Wilhelmina "Billie" Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social engenderedlitmag.com/summer2025

And now nothing will grow here.
Not even grass.
Every seed in the Earth
spits back out yellow and hard
as bones
or black as bruises.

Every tuber and root
sinks into the soil
tight as dogs’ jaws
and doesn’t come up.

The soil is wounded
and abused
and unwelcome.

So nobody plants.

Billie Sainwood,
The Great Blight of Yeats County, New York

engenderedlitmag.com

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Flight: A Literary Sampler @flightlit.bsky.social · 18/08/2025

Day 18 of the #sealeychallenge August 18th- What was eaten was given, Billie Sainwood @kithbooks.bsky.social makes beautiful books, and the poems inside this collection are funny and well-crafted

The cover of the Billie Sainwood book What was eaten was given

"Love letter to my first crop top"
The way you hold me stretched taut as canvas across.
Flattering, honest.
There is no hiding
No cover for the stomach.
Soft geometry.
This is my body.
Its unruly pop and bulge.
It dares you to love.
Gift from my ex wife.
Once hers, now mine. Legacy.
Woman to woman.
Your strong cotton hands.
Grip me and squeeze. Pull me tight.
Lift me. Support me.
Stomach horizon.
Cliffs of breasts above ocean.
My new tectonics.
You show me new worlds.
You gently teach me new tongues.
The way you hold me.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

💛💛💛 thank you 💛💛💛

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 15/05/2025

Sainwood’s naked discussions of sex, mental illness, fear, hope, & longing beg the reader into their own self reflection. Cis, trans, queer, straight, our bodies all pray to something. How do you worship? What lies deep inside you? What must you let out? @billiewrites.bsky.social

What was eaten was given
Wilhelmina "Billie" Sainwood

cover:
a glistening raw liver on a drawing of a place setting outlined in white on a background of black.

text:
"The Sapphic Prometheus"

The gods' mistake was saying forever and thinking they wouldn't have time to fall for each other. That a titan and an eagle couldn't find more in common than pain and a full belly if they had forever to figure out.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 06/04/2025

Put a liver on a plate, that’s poetry

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kith books @kithbooks.bsky.social · 27/02/2025

Sainwood’s naked discussion of sex, mental illness, fear, hope, and longing begs the reader into self reflection. Cis, trans, queer, straight, we are sites of creation, deserving of worship. What lies deep inside you? What must you let out? @billiewrites.bsky.social