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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

New poem up on the Some Words Lit board in which I argue that deer hunting is ontologically sapphic: somewords.boards.net/thread/209/b...

An excerpt from the poem "Bullet, to the Deer" as published in the message board/lit journal Some Words Lit. It reads:

"Bullet, to the Deer

Your teeth found a clutch of clover
Your tongue a giving river
Your black nose an interesting smell under the bark
of something that fell before both of us
got here.

You closed your eyes in perfect stillness,
your body rigid with peace.
When you found a clutch of clover,
I found you."

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

My girlfriends are getting me into hardcore

A selfie of Billie Sainwood in bed wearing a black graphic tee shirt for the band Spiritiste. There is a citadel in a storm on the shirt. She is smiling.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 23/04/2026

This is who I'm writing about btw. He fucks

A photo of Ben Quadrinaros, a green skinned, joweled alien with a huge kite shaped head that is most of his body, spindly limbs, and kind pink eyes

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 23/04/2026

Sometimes you write Phantom Menace fanfic for a live show and your friend reads it and screams at you.

A series of text, one is a voice memo, the other is a reaction that reads "Hey. Hey. What the fuck? How dare this be so good? How dare this be so fucking beautiful? What am I supposed to DO WITH THIS." Followed by a message that reads "Ben Quadrinaros!"

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 11/04/2026

New substack post about voice dysphoria, Fat Bastard, and what it really means to speak up.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 05/02/2026

A new post up on the ol' substack about bones, hope, immortality, and 28 Years Later. Link in replies

A banner image for a blog post feature a brown block of color on the top half with the text reading: Good Bones wilhelminalibrary.substack.com Billie Sainwood

the bottom half is a promotional image for the movie 28 Years Later the Bone Temple and the actor Ralph Fiennes naked to the waste and shaved bald screaming in front of a multitude of bone pillars

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 25/11/2025

So every November I try to write 30 poems in 30 days and little recap essays on my substack. In this one (Week 1) we talk about St. Augustine, Jonah, and Charles Peguey

Blog image of rotting yellow greeb pears covered in brown black ants. above it in a burnt umber text box, in white lettering reads "Pears and God's Scumbags: Week 1 of November Writing Challenge

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 15/01/2025

New blog post up! Epiphanies of Impossible Women: Tokyo Godfathers, the Virgin Mary, and Trans Nativity

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 21/12/2024

Posted my year recap! I did entirely too much.

A yellow title card with black text that reads:

12/21/2024
Drowning in Coats: 2024 in Review

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

This photo is the crowning achievement of my life.

Billie, in black boots and a white and midi black dress, stands behind a desk and a laptop. Behind her is a projection of a power point presentation. The slide is solid black with a single white word: tits.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 18/06/2024

Hi! Please pre-order my book I worked so incredibly, unbelievably hard on it. It’s gay, it’s trans, it’s sexy, it’s violent, it has FEET in it!!!

The cover of What was eaten was given by Wilhelmina "Billie" Sainwood on a pale peach background overlayed with a red rectangle that reads "All those women, so far up there they could’ve been angels. It is because of their height, I knew I could climb." sits beside black text reading, "release date July 14 pre-orders are open"

on the cover a glistening, uncut liver rests on a white line drawn plate flanked by cutlery on a black background. the title and author's name are rendered in white.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 15/06/2024

I have a book coming out next month. If you like body horror, love poems, religious trauma, and feet? You’ll have a new favorite book by July. WHAT WAS EATEN WAS GIVEN out July 14th

[Desc: a promotional flyer for my poetry collection that reads PRE ORDER OPEN JUNE 17th 2024. The background is spruce green, the text is coral pink. To the right is the book’s cover, a glossy black background with the words “What was eaten was given” over a piece of liver meat laid out on a sketched white table setting (plate, knife, fork) and the text “poems by Wilhelmina “Billie” Sainwood” at the bottom right]

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 26/05/2024

New blog post up! Link in replies! We talk about Vincent Price, opera, and how much I miss my girlfriend.

Screenshot of a link:

5/23/2024
Airports, Horror, and the Love that Bleeds

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 03/05/2024

I’m doing a Zoom Show with some of my friends and peers. Hear me do TWO (2) poems about A Star Is Born! Link below

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 03/05/2024

New blog post up! Korean cinema! Ghosts! Long Distance Relationships! Link in bio and down-thread

5/2/2024
Clay Pots and the Haunted Wilderness: Week 4 of National Poetry Month

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 25/04/2024

New blog post is up! As I continue to chronicle my experience of writing 30 poems in 30 days. Get the URL from my bio!

4/23/2024
Hardcore Slump: Week 3 of National Poetry Month

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 17/04/2024

Second National Poetry Writing Month recap is up on the blog! We talk about DeadMau5, hell, sculpture, and the anxiety of writing a book! Link in bio.

A screenshot of a blog title:

4/16/2024
You Must Submit: Week 2 of National Poetry Month

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 09/04/2024

First NaPoWriMo recap is up on the blog

Screenshot of blog post:

4/9/2024 Chocolate Convulsion: Week 1 of National Poetry Month

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 03/04/2024

Special thanks to photographer Robert Wolfgang for taking pictures at the Atlanta Trans Talent Show so I can look like “I’m curse you!”…”with puppies!”

A picture of Billie on stage in a dark green blouse and khaki skirt reading a poem. The look on her face is intensely serious and her hand is outstretched toward the audience.

A picture of Billie on stage in a green blouse and a khaki skirt. She has a goofy smiling impression and her hand is pointed towards the audience in a silly, casual way.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 31/03/2024

Wrote this for Trans Day of Visibility. We exist. We are glorious and mundane. We are vibrantly alive even in silence.

“Trans Day of Visibility”

Today, all the Dragons like me watched the red sun
rise and spill its light through our windows
like pink champagne, like medicine,
like blood.

Today, it looked like blood more than usual.

Today, we all yawned and roared and spread our terrible wings.
And looked at clothes.
And messaged our friends.
And flirted with each other.
And laughed at stupid jokes.
And went to work.
And fixed our cars.
And drew pictures.
And cried about Palestine.
And cried about home.
And cried about each other.

“Trans Day of Visibility”

And made sandwiches.
And wrote poems.
And watched movies.
And played video games.
And took pictures in the mirror.
And asked for money for groceries.
And gave each other money for groceries.
And blocked people.
And ignored phone calls.
And read books.
And checked in on each other.
And posted online.
And practiced our woodworking.
And drove across the country.
And made plans to see each other.
And kept our ears open
for the sounds of suits of armor,
for loud marches.
And we wondered in whispers
which of our day’s labors
would be called a fire
this time.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 24/03/2024

Figured I’d update my profile picture since I’m feebly dedicating myself to posting on here more frequently.

Bee poses for a bathroom mirror selfie in which the mirror is dirty in the transfeminine tradition. She is wearing a new chocolate brown top with the deepest V-neck of her life, showcasing a subtle whisper of cleavage she is frankly only slightly insecure about. Her hair falls in a gentle straight sheet down her shoulders (this is the only straight thing about her by the way). Her hips are playfully cocked to accentuate the hint of denim skirt at the bottom of the frame. On her face is a slight smile she hopes conveys an emotion somewhere between “Mommy’s home!” and “I’m still not sure if this outfit is safe for work, but I wore it to a Zoom meeting with my boss today and it went well so here’s hoping!” She is also leaning on the counter to indicate a friendly and approachable demeanor.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 19/03/2024

New post up on my writing blog. This time I rant about wine, anosmia, Italo Calvino and second selfish secret life of books. It’s in my bio.

Title card for blog post:

3/17/2024

The invisible cities of smell and wine

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 14/11/2023

“i’m bruised with potential.” Reading HERE I AM, PRY ME OPEN by Atlas St. Cloud after stumbling across one of his poems on Twitter. What a bold, flensing look at transformation and the quiet moments between bodies. A staggeringly honest and worthwhile collection of work.

An image of the book cover for HERE I AM, PRY ME OPEN by Atlas St. Cloud. The cover is a realist oil painting of a supine body with a bleeding wound in their side.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 24/09/2023

Current favorite selfie. What’s yours?

A picture of Billie, a trans white woman seated on a sofa. She is wearing olive green shorts and a tight mint green sweater shirt. The angle accentuates her ample thighs. She is smiling sweetly. Her shoulder length brown hair is adorned with a matching mint green headband.

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 19/09/2023

After a 7 year hiatus I’m writing poetry again and will be performing as the Local Poet featuring for this event. Link ⬇️

A promotional flyer for a poetry reading.
Meet Me There: Daddy Boy by Emerson Whitney featuring Samuel Ace (host), Emerson Whitney (featured writer), and Billie Sainwood (opening poet)

A Charis Books Virtual Event Thursday October 12th at 7:30pm EDT

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Billie Sainwood @billiewrites.bsky.social · 18/09/2023

Making a little videogame about social anxiety with “combat” encounters at a party and accidentally made one of the “enemies” too cute by accident. She plays guitar. I am a fool.