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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Im like the shoe size right about where all the funky fun womens shoes end, its maddening lol. And appreciate that, certainly never get that vibe in person from people but its good to know they are maybe out there

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

the fucking realest. It either hugs my hips but cant fit over my chest or fits chest but has so much extra space below or BLEH just tiring

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

always feel free to reach out!

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

Kinda just want to be done having to think about this

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

One fucking single party of my transition that brought me joy and it's kinda looking like it will be visually ruined for me forever. Don't really know how to feel about it. Or rather what to do. I feel hollow and dead inside and just endlessly angry at the whole deal anymore. Seems pointless.

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Jessica Ellis @baddestmamajama.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

I feel like we don’t talk about millennials in particular, hitting our 40s - in earlier generations many of us would be reaching the peak of our careers, but because of disaster after disaster, locust after locust eating our industries, many of us are on our 3rd or 4th fresh start.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Losing my steam motivation energy joy for everything lately the way I did right before transition for obvious reasons. I wish this shit brought new the joy it does to those around me but also painfully easy to see why it doesn't.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Shedding this dress to make patches out of. The one piece of new clothing I've felt good in is a wildly oversized hoodie and that probably says enough

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Would very much love to live as just a skeleton. Just bones you could decorate and paint and still enjoy and engage in the world with

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Every attempt at new clothing in have tried in the last few years has failed. Still wearing the same ripped up hand me down jeans and tank tops. Body just does not fit into anything femme I try. Feeling low low low low low low

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Thank you, hope they pick up for you as well 🧡🫂

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hammancheez but spooky @hammancheez.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

Yall wanna see a 2 hour old highland cow

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

for sure, luckily we release soon

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Will be super apparent what scene this is for lol. Cant wait for episode two to release. Both because year of work finally goes out and omfg I need a break. We work seven days a week most of the day lately. Bodega runs are the most outside time I have had in a month lol. sigh.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

unusual but entertaining VA session

microphone next to large dildo, audacity running in the background

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Really would love to photograph porn again. Just miss playing in that space, more interesting and fun portraiture. If I know anyone making content that wants free photo shoots I would love the practice.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

I eat like 90% vegan now days but since Lilith was out for the day I planned ahead and went all out on some filet mignon. That is the kind of cooking I was good at. Nice to spend so much time on a dish too just have it be perfect.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

Disaffected cynicism from people so worried about being the coolest kid hitting with the same energy as when we were ten. Not triggering as they like to yell, just tiring and embarrassing.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

Saw sex and death, connected with that one. Feel like any thoughts i have on it I'll keep in irl spaces to avoid getting called a bad queer for not cumming the same way someone else does.

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dollpaws ❆⚢ @snowfall.gay · 02/09/2026

Day 2 of Swordtember! 2 - Gamble Artemis is presented with a relic from the old world. (Going to start splitting these up into smaller images so that the alt text doesn't get truncated) #rbswordtember

Journal of Record - Article 324-0012.

A piece of the old world arrived on my desk today.

It is evident that the whoever had sold it to the curio shop in Sailskeep had not the faintest idea of its significance. How sad it is to think that those afflicted with such a brief time on this mortal coil could so easily lose touch with the things sacred to their predecessors. To think that I shared the same voyage with one already so thoroughly lost to the passage of time, generations and bonds forgotten - it compels one to interrogate their own bones in fear that they too have decayed to sand.

But here it sits. A ritual coin from the old Church of Laserie, the Lost Goddess of Chance.

I wonder if some of those that made the voyage would have still done so, knowing that they would lose touch with their deities so abruptly upon entering this new system. Was fleeing the war worth that? I would like to think whoever this coin belonged to found peace here.

Alas, I am neglecting the task at hand. The coin is two inches in diameter and about an eighth thick. Appears to be solid gold, intricate detailing along the outer edge. The reverse face bears the Church's seal- an ornate spinning wheel with a pocket watch hanging down from its axle as a pendulum. The obverse face bears the portrait of Laserie herself, a soft faced woman with dimpled cheeks, curly hair, and the faintest hint of a knowing smirk.

There is something compelling in her expression, and for some reason I am reminded of whispers I once heard in a tavern in Latramere, talking about the "Daughters of Laserie". I wonder if she knows she has retained a cult following in her absence. It might explain that smirk of hers.

If memory serves me correctly, the coins were used in offerings to Laserie, with a spin of the coin on the altar determining whether she had heeded the gift or not, landing with her face up being the preferred result. Would that there were more folk from the old world still with us to help keep these cultural intricacies alive.

It disappoints me greatly to say that my colleagues find this to be one of the more tedious parts of the work that we do here. What could be more important than to document and preserve such things that gave comfort and meaning in life?

Ex Arcana Scientia.

Artemis KaumeraHead of Arcane Research for the August Order23ʳᵈ Light of the Season of Tremors, Cycle 324.

P.S. Having placed the coin near my measurement equipment while I wrote this entry, I returned to find some erroneous readings on the more sensitive devices. Frustratingly, I was unable to replicate this phenomena under observation. For a brief moment, I believed the coin might still possess some trace arcane signature from the old world. However, I can detect nothing of the sort, and am not ashamed to admit my disappointment. It is surely a trick of the light, but I could swear that smirk seems ever so slightly wider.

Graphic reading:

"REGAL BONES SWORDTEMBER 2026

1: Fanart
2: Gamble
3: Primal
4: Flock
5: Decay
6: Noir
7: Wings
8: Oblivion
9: Fractal
10: Fae
11: Hunger
12: Inversion
13: Flesh
14: Werewolf
15: Lost
16: Leviathan
17: Bramble
18: Tempest
19: Atom
20: Junk
21: Cocoon
22: Crystalline
23: Fool
24: Sticky
25: Generation
26: Moon
27: Grave
28: Mystery
29 + 30: Deadly + Sins

Prompts brought to you by my amazing patrons at patreon.com/regal_bones !"

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

Def gonna try and wash am this away at some bar tonight, a a promise will attempt to just not revisit social media or vent. So byyyyyye for the night

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

Adhd meds will really help you focus, sadly that focus can be on anything lol. Spiraling? You are deep sea drilling now baby! You are a 10k rpm spiral.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

Was reading a series that was so inspiring but it super got poisoned by some outside shit. Trying to force enthusiasm for it again to recapture that inspiration.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Probably not within nyc but def trying to solidify plans to exit. People seem to even move here just to be weird about it

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Wild how that could be so many awful interactions lol

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Tired of it feeling like you are always under threat always always thinking about the stressful that wouldn't dominate every day every social gathering tired of nothing feeling solid

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Fr, tbf you can tell they don't often know how fucking weird and pushy they are coming off. Me the person that to sit there while someone ignores you exist and tries to put themselves between my partner and I def notice though lol.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Where the fuck are those locked accounts i need to be able to just fully vent about this lol

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

dont know how I feel about polyam at all lately but its noticeable every time we go to something that isnt a queer focused event and I can just relax my shoulders more because someone from the internet isnt there just to try and interact and stalk her.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

on the downside got sick and missed the furry event, on the bright side didnt have to deal with any parasocial weirdos chasing my gf and turning another queer thing into an exhausting nightmare. so who is to say. would have rather gone than get sick though lol

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

It def feels like people kinda understandably fall back on all the toxic methods of our modern culture to preserve self image regardless of how self reflective you might think their identity would force them to be. Sense of self built on its opposition to others will def box most people in for them.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

I mean as in the physical appearance of the characters is meant to convey emotional need not like an actual real body

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

Might be but tbh tired of unpacking of trans woman life of being told how masculine I am. Queers love to find a million soft terms for how you don't pass when they could just keep their thoughts to themselves

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

I'm not saying I don't want to draw more varied body types but someone sent a complaint that I only draw skinny characters and my first thought was I don't draw skinny or fat characters, just starving hungry needy characters.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

You gorgeous as hell and deserve worlds better

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

Like as a clocky butch trans woman you super start to lose faith in humanity if you only interact in trans gal spaces. It's a good reminder to pop outside that and be a human again. Gendered correctly more times tonight than a year at trans events.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

I never know how i feel about bar culture being the only interactable thing here but that said playing with a bunch of wonderful strangers all night is so fucking healing.

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violence @creature.gay · 21/08/2026

person who is not part of a community and has clearly made zero effort to understand the backlash to something from that community: "I don't give a fuck about this! why do you care?!"

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

idk dog that just feels shitty, this feels shitty

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 13/08/2026

No I'm just 38 and don't feel like taking a 21 yr old home tbh

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 13/08/2026

I always feel like I must be losing so much muscle but then you get a drink in me and I'm tossing girls up in the air. That and karaoke, fun night. Bar owner likes me too much though, meant to get one drink and got tossed so many shots. Massive hangover, anyways time to go get head tattoo 🙃

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