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hammancheez but spooky @hammancheez.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

Yall wanna see a 2 hour old highland cow

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

unusual but entertaining VA session

microphone next to large dildo, audacity running in the background

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Really would love to photograph porn again. Just miss playing in that space, more interesting and fun portraiture. If I know anyone making content that wants free photo shoots I would love the practice.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

I eat like 90% vegan now days but since Lilith was out for the day I planned ahead and went all out on some filet mignon. That is the kind of cooking I was good at. Nice to spend so much time on a dish too just have it be perfect.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

Saw sex and death, connected with that one. Feel like any thoughts i have on it I'll keep in irl spaces to avoid getting called a bad queer for not cumming the same way someone else does.

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dollpaws ❆⚢ @snowfall.gay · 02/09/2026

Day 2 of Swordtember! 2 - Gamble Artemis is presented with a relic from the old world. (Going to start splitting these up into smaller images so that the alt text doesn't get truncated) #rbswordtember

Journal of Record - Article 324-0012.

A piece of the old world arrived on my desk today.

It is evident that the whoever had sold it to the curio shop in Sailskeep had not the faintest idea of its significance. How sad it is to think that those afflicted with such a brief time on this mortal coil could so easily lose touch with the things sacred to their predecessors. To think that I shared the same voyage with one already so thoroughly lost to the passage of time, generations and bonds forgotten - it compels one to interrogate their own bones in fear that they too have decayed to sand.

But here it sits. A ritual coin from the old Church of Laserie, the Lost Goddess of Chance.

I wonder if some of those that made the voyage would have still done so, knowing that they would lose touch with their deities so abruptly upon entering this new system. Was fleeing the war worth that? I would like to think whoever this coin belonged to found peace here.

Alas, I am neglecting the task at hand. The coin is two inches in diameter and about an eighth thick. Appears to be solid gold, intricate detailing along the outer edge. The reverse face bears the Church's seal- an ornate spinning wheel with a pocket watch hanging down from its axle as a pendulum. The obverse face bears the portrait of Laserie herself, a soft faced woman with dimpled cheeks, curly hair, and the faintest hint of a knowing smirk.

There is something compelling in her expression, and for some reason I am reminded of whispers I once heard in a tavern in Latramere, talking about the "Daughters of Laserie". I wonder if she knows she has retained a cult following in her absence. It might explain that smirk of hers.

If memory serves me correctly, the coins were used in offerings to Laserie, with a spin of the coin on the altar determining whether she had heeded the gift or not, landing with her face up being the preferred result. Would that there were more folk from the old world still with us to help keep these cultural intricacies alive.

It disappoints me greatly to say that my colleagues find this to be one of the more tedious parts of the work that we do here. What could be more important than to document and preserve such things that gave comfort and meaning in life?

Ex Arcana Scientia.

Artemis KaumeraHead of Arcane Research for the August Order23ʳᵈ Light of the Season of Tremors, Cycle 324.

P.S. Having placed the coin near my measurement equipment while I wrote this entry, I returned to find some erroneous readings on the more sensitive devices. Frustratingly, I was unable to replicate this phenomena under observation. For a brief moment, I believed the coin might still possess some trace arcane signature from the old world. However, I can detect nothing of the sort, and am not ashamed to admit my disappointment. It is surely a trick of the light, but I could swear that smirk seems ever so slightly wider.

Graphic reading:

"REGAL BONES SWORDTEMBER 2026

1: Fanart
2: Gamble
3: Primal
4: Flock
5: Decay
6: Noir
7: Wings
8: Oblivion
9: Fractal
10: Fae
11: Hunger
12: Inversion
13: Flesh
14: Werewolf
15: Lost
16: Leviathan
17: Bramble
18: Tempest
19: Atom
20: Junk
21: Cocoon
22: Crystalline
23: Fool
24: Sticky
25: Generation
26: Moon
27: Grave
28: Mystery
29 + 30: Deadly + Sins

Prompts brought to you by my amazing patrons at patreon.com/regal_bones !"

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

Adhd meds will really help you focus, sadly that focus can be on anything lol. Spiraling? You are deep sea drilling now baby! You are a 10k rpm spiral.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

Was reading a series that was so inspiring but it super got poisoned by some outside shit. Trying to force enthusiasm for it again to recapture that inspiration.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

on the downside got sick and missed the furry event, on the bright side didnt have to deal with any parasocial weirdos chasing my gf and turning another queer thing into an exhausting nightmare. so who is to say. would have rather gone than get sick though lol

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

I'm not saying I don't want to draw more varied body types but someone sent a complaint that I only draw skinny characters and my first thought was I don't draw skinny or fat characters, just starving hungry needy characters.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

I never know how i feel about bar culture being the only interactable thing here but that said playing with a bunch of wonderful strangers all night is so fucking healing.

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violence @creature.gay · 21/08/2026

person who is not part of a community and has clearly made zero effort to understand the backlash to something from that community: "I don't give a fuck about this! why do you care?!"

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

idk dog that just feels shitty, this feels shitty

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 13/08/2026

Would have had a very successful night at the bar if I felt like picking up women in their young twenties. Shit I guess I'm a butch milf now. I can't have both that and morals.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

kickstarter is gonna drive me fucking mad.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

Can't tell if these antidepressants refuse to start working or if things have just went downhill at a matching pace.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 27/07/2026

Last few months been hard and we have to hole up in the house but idkkkkkk kinda liking the vibe of not having to have anxiety over certain interactions I've gotten so fucking tired of. Not really looking forward to it coming back in and sounds like it will come in swinging and stalkery

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 18/07/2026

I hate all the"miracle weight loss" drug ads flooding everything. Because I know people they worked for, because slow as hell metabolism makes it hell to lose weight, because i need to lose weight for chronic pain issues and it's been such a fucking struggle. Not ever ever gonna take them though

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 10/07/2026

sigh lost the only "famous" mutual follow that had me like 🥺 mostly just because I like that persons essays and it was nice thinking my art was reaching. Truly does not actually matter, brain does wonder what broke that though. Cant just show bunny girl cocks forever I guess lol

text chain:(blanked out name) unfollowed me what did I dooooooooooooooooo
was
was I
bad puppy

followed by gif of sad dog

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

Every time your climbing that mountain of trauma to convince yourself it might be good this time and you are thinking pls don't let this become part of this mountain too, it's hard enough just getting over this one

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 28/06/2026

Hit with a spontaneous decision which is always great for forcing you to realize how you actually feel about something.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 24/06/2026

weight loss is going steady but slow, feels great to be moving more again though. The other day accidentally just spaced and walked an extra 15k steps but honestly can just walk and walk. def miss wandering my old mountain home town all day.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

big "aren't you tired of being nice don't you want to go apeshit" energy, its learned behavior tbh

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

Brain nothing but pure fucking anxiety lately

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 12/06/2026

Plan still to leave nyc asap but now opening up where we are gonna go. It feels impossible to look at any place and see a stable future there.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 07/06/2026

Was worried I wouldn't find the enthusiasm for pride stuff this year and yeah just not finding it in there

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 23/05/2026

It's insane the amount of vague posts I see shitting on people i know and you can instantly tell which idiot spread the lies that caused it. I swear the sweetest most harmless people attract the most negative attention from unhinged morons without anything in their life but their grudges.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

Going through old art, nostalgic for the time when I was energized and hopeful and saw so much possibility in all this. Drew this lil comic excited to be moving to the place that ended up killing all that energy and hope and enthusiasm and any self joy I had finally built up.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 20/05/2026

Panic attack worse than I've had in years. Reverse egg crack maybe or like. Could feel that dream and hope inside me die. I feel so weird and hollow right now. Not feeling detrans thoughts more like the feeling i had pre transition without the possibility of doing it, already did and it didn't work.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

In my first year out I had little fleeting moments of gender euphoria that I now can't recapture. The years and experiences within have taken my ability to access those feelings anymore and I'm daily wracked with anxiety over if I'll ever get to feel that way again.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

I swear half the time I come to this bar I get offered mushroom edibles. They seem like they are ubiquitous lately. It's that the right word?? Anyways can't so no so. Yay.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

I keep seeing reports on ai generated videos meant to villanize trans women and every time I do they don't make the trans women in those videos look like my friends. They make them look like me. Starting to feel like that is contributing to me catching so much more flak in public than the people-

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

Going through the pile of post it's i drew while coming off meds, don't remember drawing this so yeah not uhhh trying those again lol

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

going through old photos and just fuck I wish I could take all the people I love and put them in the same place with safe housing and meds and I would enjoy life forever seeing those people every day

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

I'm very dysphoric moments I'm burdened by what pre transition me would think if she met me, or rather the big choice she would reconsider after meeting.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

Today feel happy but also drawing feels hard and weird and off. Tbh meds affecting art is a no go for me so gonna be watching that closely, exact kind of side effect I was worried about.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

finally taking an ssri for the first time and I think the thought of the side effects has caused me more anxiety and depression than I had before

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 27/03/2026

The amount of times you want to be like i don't fucking care what the reason this happened is. People can do things they have good reason to do and you can feel like shit about the action for good reason, both things can exist. And you can choose to distance over those things.

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 15/03/2026

seeing some genuine incel shit from people lately

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Phobia is @athazagora.bsky.social · 12/03/2026

Gonna be real saw the most unhinged shit today, truly child like behavior. Sometimes just have to remember people are not all there and it sucks they destroy the lives of others but I really dont know what you can do. Tumblr destroyed a generation for sure.

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