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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

at least i learned stick? 🙃🙃🙃 it just blows my mind the things i accepted, but then i remind myself that’s why they call gaslighting abuse because ppl do it so well you lose your ability to see through their constructed image to the reality of a situation

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

double bonus points: later when we did have three cars again they just paid to move their second car out of pocket… but i had to sell my only car to make space for theirs…

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

bonus points: before our first move i had to sell my car because the coast guard wouldn’t pay to move three and they wanted to take their barely functioning Beemer where they didn’t fix it and ended up selling it anyways..

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

new on the list of fucked up shit i keep realizing even months after the fact: they made u move houses early twice because we couldn’t afford it and blamed me for spend too much (i made less so i accepted this blame)…on both occasions they had just taken out a loan to purchased a second vehicle…

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 06/06/2026

anyone in buffalo and want to see Rhys with me tomorrow >.>

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

trigger ⚠️ warning i’ll never get over their moms reaction (lack of) to the inc*st stuff, when she knows my hx and i know hers. the amount of image protecting denial at the expense of not just me but her own family.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

somedays i miss believing in the person i always thought you were deep down.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

cleaning off their desk to take to the storage unit and… honestly what an utter and unbelievable disappointment..

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Giraud, basically @giraud.bsky.social · 24/05/2026

A spotify playlist of various artists where all songs are either “running up that hill” or “rolling down the hill”

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Aimee Steinberger @aimeekitty.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

Don't let fear of cringe stop you from making the thing you want to make. Life is short, make something you love. You'll improve through the process. Someone will probably love and relate to what you made even if what you made isn't as good as you wished it was. Let it exist. <3

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victoria scott @victoriascott.bsky.social · 09/05/2026

“Checkov’s Gunge” made me stop what I was doing to break down laughing

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

thinking about every birthday and holiday where they’d get me shit that had nothing to do with me, then get upset and pout if i never used it. thats narcissism but i just couldn’t see it at the time, it doesn’t help that once every few years they’d hit it on the mark. but thats part of the pattern 2

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 28/04/2026

yesterday i learned that narcissists who feel they are loosing their supply (like that person goes to grad school for example and is less available) very commonly choose sex and porn addiction as a means of coping as it allows them to still see themselves as better then another human… huh.

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The Onion @theonion.com · 20/04/2026

www.theonion.info

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 17/04/2026

i know it’s not their fault but it feels like they jinxed my fucking dog.

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dbSaveOFMD (Danielle)💜🏴‍☠️ @dbsaveofmd.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

BEHOLD!! Ed as Disney’s animated Robin Hood by @megofmd.bsky.social!! Look at his adorable teeth & his confident pose! He is GLORIOUS 🤩 My earliest crush meets my current one. A perfect circle 🏴‍☠️ Have you ever seen something so perfect?!

Meg’s drawing if Ed as Disney’s animated Robin Hood

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

this isn’t about not coming home that night, this is about my friends remarking how i’d wake up clear and by bed be falling apart because of your continual abusive behaviors which only served to protect your ego from feeling guilt for the harm you were doing, by blaming it on me, gaslighting,

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

the sad part is you’ll only keep doing that as long as your refuse to look at yourself. with me or anyone else. your lack of trust is and always has been your own and no amount anyone can give you will fill you up. i tried for years.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

from a partner so insecure that they took out their insecurities about our relationship on me in various forms, all which slowly tore me apart. this started before buffalo, i think there may have been aspects of this all along, but the worse was obviously when i got friends and asked stop moving

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

the most you can accuse me off is deleting your spotify account after you messed with our other more important joint accounts. it’s wild the pity party you’re throwing when you’ve made every part of the bed you are lying in.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

i’m fairly sure that’s also why you haven’t seen the dogs because your ego won’t let you come knowing you’ll need and escort that won’t be your mom.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

i sent the protective order to the last place i knew you were, didn’t do anything else with that info but serve you. didn’t contact you or anyone else, save your mom who you put as a go between by you when you didn’t want a guard escort to come get your shit

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

i found the shit in the computer while uploading photos and dividing our shit. it isn’t my fault it was on there. that was all your doing. i had no idea how bad it was. it made me sick learning it. i gave it to the coast guard because it was relevant.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

i’ll never wish you harm, but i’m not ganna keep quiet knowing you could do all this to another person. and that’s why this is happening. And i’m sorry, it’s hard facing the person you’ve become but you should really fucking try it if you ever wanna be a safe place for anyone again.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

The worst thing about that day wasn’t you finally crossing the line and leaving marks on my body. It was you trying to manipulate me and gaslight me the whole day about sex and sexuality, to have your cake and eat it too.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

I’m not the one who wanted to hide how they were acting so much that freaked out on and I tried to gaslight my partner when they told my mom about the shit I was doing when i got hospitalized. that was you.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

it’s part of how i realized i didn’t really know you at all anymore.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

and what i found, i have to assume you’re capable of doing me great harm, even more then you’ve already done, and act to protect myself from that. molly isn’t dying she’s sick and needs care you can’t provide. i’d love you to put the effort in to see them, you abandoning them hurt more than anything

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

beyond that, the further you get, the more i see through cracks and recognize, i don’t think i’ve known who you are or what you’re capable of for a while. so i have to base my actions on what i think you could be capable of, and given everything, the things you did, the things you said

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

i don’t want to keep the dogs from you, and you could come and see them and get your shit, it states clearly how to do so on the orders. i’m sorry it has to be that way but i don’t feel safe around you anymore, even posting this here shows how easily you can still wind me up

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

that’s not how love or friendship is supposed to be or feel. i’m learning that more and more, the more i find, and the further i get from you. and it’s the bitterest sweet pill on the planet.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

I’ll always wish we could have been friends, even now realizing that you never really treated me like a friend. You like people who adore you, so you can feel better about yourself. And the second you feel a lack of adoration you start burning down relationships slowly.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

I’m sorry I didn’t do the work either, I should have found the words and communicated. I did try, each time I asked you to go to therapy, but that’s only effective if you learn how to face yourself.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

There were a million exits you could have taken that wouldn’t have ended here. I let stuff go, made excuses, lied to myself and everyone so i could keep the you i loved safe in my heart. and I know I would have kept doing that forever in a different world, so i guess i should thank you for that.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 23/03/2026

because those parts feel like they died, your paranoia and insecurity killed them. and those are the parts i feel like im betraying everytime i feel happy, everytime someone else shows me love or makes me laugh. and that’s what feels like mourning a spouse, because in that way i am.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 23/03/2026

but even looking back and seeing the patterns, i still mourn the person i knew was underneath all of that, in your better moments. they are the reason i cry and rack my brain about what i could have done to save those parts of you

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 23/03/2026

no reassurances or actions on my part could have ever stopped your long slide down that hill that ended in you convincing yourself i didn’t love you and discarding me, but only after four years of emotional abuse, sexual abuse and cohersion and finally physical right before the end.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 23/03/2026

looking back through dms from 2019 and reminded me that this paranoia and possessiveness existed before i even got consistent friends and had other ppl to hang out with or other hobbies. you still were convinced i was leaving even then and before i ever uttered that i might have to stay in buffalo.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 23/03/2026

it really is so much like grieving the dead. i cried the other day because someone made me laugh harder then i have in years. and later i realized it meant i was moving on, and the felt like betraying the parts of you that i still love but am not sure exist anymore.

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Wyatt Sinclair @crumblsucks.wyattswickedgoods.com · 16/03/2026

Jesus when he comes back to Earth:

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 05/03/2026

they did see the rest of it though, and never thought to give them feedback. this is how i know they’ll never change, and they’ll do it again. they’re surrounded my a narc family who can’t see the fault in their own even when it’s blatant. and they’ll discard you if you try and point it out.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 05/03/2026

they called her it. “scared of losing it and having to start over”, the reason they asked her to be monogamous. “needed it as an escape or i’m ganna kill myself because of my job” i still don’t understand how no one in their life said anything to them besides me. though they didn’t see the abuse.

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Auggihaythere 💜🏴‍☠️is writing again @allihaythere.bsky.social · 05/03/2026

they knew her less then one month before they used suicidal threats to manipulate me into bending my boundaries. they knew her a month and a week before they physically abused me for not breaking my boundaries, and conceding my needs in our relationship and navigating poly.

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