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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

and tomorrow we’re going to an amusement park so even more walking let’s go

Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

was late to my exam and they couldn’t let me in, my phone is dying I’m in a different city and I just spend my last 50 cents on water but it’s okay at least I’ll walk a lot today

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

at least the alcohol withdrawals make me lose my appetite

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 27/04/2026

WHY did I ever think using my irl name on here was a good idea….. it’s whatever now but I wouldn’t do it again T-T

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 27/04/2026

what pisses me off the most is that su1c1d3 is simply not an option for me because even at my lowest I know I’ll figure it out so I just gotta thug it out for the rest of my life

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

I love having a beer with my joint it just makes it feel better but I don’t have any more drinking days left this week I need to wait til Monday T_T I’m gonna stick to drinking 3x per week for now and not go down to 2x because it’s too hard and if I fail once I’m just gonna stop caring altogether

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

gf is going back on 0z3mpic next month, do you know what that means? it means matching her portions 😈😈😈

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

I miss who I used to be. Ive changed so much, I became the man I never wanted to be. I hate who I am as a friend, partner, how little respect I have left for myself. I used to love myself and what I had to bring to the table, I recognised my strengths. Now I feel like no more than a husk of that man

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

I’ve decided to start doing things that brought me joy around 2-3 years ago back when I was doing alright to hopefully regain my sense of self. Today I painted a goofy cat as an addition to a letter i’ll be writing to a friend. I feel better.

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

how are y’all managing an ed AND being a stoner? once I feel my eyes getting droopy I know its so over for any diet plans i’ve made for the day

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

my last weight was around 57kg/125lbs now I’m at 63kg/138lbs that’s not that bad. I’ll still be bitching about it tho so prepare to hear from me again soon xx

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

ALRIGHT SO bad news: I gained. good news: I gained only half of what I was estimating.

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

if one of us relapses the other soon follows it’s so bad guys

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

my gf and I eat out really often so now that I decided to keep it to a minimum of course she wants to go to mcdonald’s and doesn’t want to eat at any of the other places i’ve proposed ;-; I can’t tell her what to eat so we went where she wanted. Now I have to watch her eat while hungry asf

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

I’ve been following my plan to stop drinking and it’s going good, this week I have to go 4 days sober. Things are getting easier

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

as of the 21st of April I’m 3 years clean let’sgo…. the concept of relapsing still sounds good at times but I’d be so mad at myself afterwards it would be the start of the same spiral I struggled with for years

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

I’m weighing myself tomorrow I’m so not excited… I know I’ve gained I AM GONNA CRASH OUT

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

i’ve been wanting to do my nails for a long time now but the fact I’m a guy was always stopping me, I’ve decided to not care anymore and I think they look okay…. they only look a little bit bad 😎👍🏻 and my girl likes them so that’s all that matters

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 20/04/2026

GUYS I HAVENT STEPPED ON A SCALE IN MONTHS I’m SO SCARED #caterpillarsky

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 20/04/2026

I should start ⭐ving myself again fr

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 25/01/2026

my gf has been staying at my place for a week and I feel like I have no breathing room for myself because she needs constant reassurance and physical touch, I love her sm but I feel suffocated at times because I value my alone time

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 25/01/2026

I want to be a teenager again so I can be mentally ill as much as I please and it’ll be socially acceptable

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 21/01/2026

AND my relationship is going to shit too like pick a struggle 😭 we’ve both been fucking up (mostly me tho icl) but we’re going to couples therapy soon because it’s nothing that can’t be solved…. its just been really tough lately

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 21/01/2026

back to intermittent fasting it is 👌🏻😂😁👍🏻🥳🎉💀💀💀💀 somebody end me now pls

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 21/01/2026

guys I gained 5kg/11lbs it’s so bad I’m crashing out

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 02/12/2025

the people who show their face on here y'all are fearless

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 02/12/2025

when your disordered moots announce they lost weight, do you congratulate them in the comments? What are your thoughts on doing so? I prefer not to comment, sometimes it irks me a little but I want to hear other people's takes on this #caterpillarsky

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 02/12/2025

hit a new lw today, only 1,5kg away from my kinda gw

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 30/11/2025

my mom started commenting on my weight lately. She never ever did that when I was fat. I know commenting on someones weight is inappropriate both ways but hearing "I look like a stick now" is rlly validating.

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 30/11/2025

hate the fact that instant ramen is my autism safe food

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 29/11/2025

I look in the mirror and notice the changes in my body, my muscles more defined, my ribs more visible, the gap between my legs bigger and yet when I take a step back and look at the whole picture I see the exact same person I saw a few months ago. When will I finally be satisfied? #caterpillarsky

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 28/11/2025

throwback to when I was little, my mom thought it was so amusing when she would tickle me out of nowhere and I would react for one second before "turning my tickles off" so she'd do it often. And that, my dear readers, is how I learned to dissociate on command. thank you mom ♡

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 28/11/2025

I'm not a picky eater, I love trying new foods. I'll give everything a try, even stuff I'm not a fan of if presented in a different meal or form might turn out to be good. Except celery. I will NOT touch that shit EVER. Makes me gag as soon as I bite into it, fuck you celery. I'll always be a hater.

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 28/11/2025

actually, no. Last time I saw her I told her I haven't slept yet and was tired from tripsitting my best friend all night because she had a really bad trip AND THAT WOMAN 1/2

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 28/11/2025

I had to stop seeing my therapist because this was going nowhere... We have different values and I could never understand her thought process, bless her heart though

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 26/11/2025

I like looking feminine from time to time but I don't like being perceived as that, I dont see myself that way either... the concept of gender be blowing my cis, (almost) straight white guy mind sometimes

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 26/11/2025

tried making oatmeal and failed miserably

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 23/11/2025

okay so in the short time Ive been away I managed to start developing an alcohol addiction or maybe I'm already addicted who knows.. the worst part is that the person I spend most of my time with -my gf- has been developing the exact same issue... it's harder to quit when you both have the power to+

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

CAN I JUST BE HIM PLEASE we're similar enough... and look at THOSE LEGS

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 23/10/2025

I want a slutty little waist but I want to be muscular at the same time... give me both

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 19/10/2025

I've been so scared I gained because I've been eating like a rabid raccoon for the past weeks but I lost 1,5kg/3.3lbs

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

fuck them airport fries man, I didn't know fucking up fries like that was even possible

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 08/10/2025

today's one was diabolical, first it made me experience something that would hurt me the most while making it feel unquestionably real, followed by a nightmare I'm pretty sure I've already had in the past 😭 just woke up and I feel like crying

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 08/10/2025

can my mind cooperate for once and not make me experience the thing's I'm so desperately trying to heal from over and over and over again in my dreams PLEASE

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

most of my calorie intake be coming from alcohol these days 😭

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

my pants just fell off my ass 😭 luckily not in public but damn -_-

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