iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 7h

all I see are two pictures in different mirrors with a different perspective. of course it’s not gonna look the same, you look just fine girlie

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 8h

wouldn’t it be preferable to sit alone for some time rather than hanging out with someone who literally wants you dead 💀💀 dawg you ain’t safe there I’m just saying

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 8h

staying clean can be really hard sometimes, you learn to deal with the urges because, well.. you will have to deal with them. it’s normal for them to come back. It gives you an opportunity to show yourself how far you’ve come ^^ 5 years is huge I’m so incredibly proud of you freya : )

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 8h

I like the pictures they feel weirdly nostalgic. I’ve been wishing for snow in december since forever, maybe this year a miracle will happen :)

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 8h

I’ve been so busy the past week I’ve been doing omad every day without realising or weighing myself. that scale better be very nice to me tomorrow

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

that’s alright, it’s never too late to learn ; )

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

I never liked sweets much but I’ve been craving them like crazy lately

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

I haven’t been able to focus my eyes for two days now, I need to close one eye because everything’s is blurry and I’m not even on any drugs how is this fair

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

that’s cute, as a kid I also used to place my plushies in a row with me in front of the tv and we’d watch cartoons together

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

I’ve been saying this too 😭 you’re responsible for managing your own triggers, if you can’t handle a picture on the internet then imagine what kind of reaction you will have if you ever encounter this irl. it’s your job to work through them in therapy

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

how many “show less like this” does it take for bsky to quit showing me random politicians or some family pictures of people my consciousness never perceived before??

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

age regression school?? Ive never heard such a thing. Is it… a place you go to age regress and you’re acting like you’re back in school? sorry if I’m wrong : (

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

and believe me I try my best to get along with everyone

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

I’m so upset I have to be neurodivergent, my whole life I couldn’t fit in ANYWHERE, I can’t even fit in with groups of other autistic people or ppl who share the same struggles as me… I always try to be an optimist but even I am losing hope at this point… I’ll forever feel alienated from the rest

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

I’m actually not doing that bad ^^ and I hope you’re doing well too 🫐 : )

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

I love this post, it's a very cute way of thinking ^^

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

you've got this : ) even if it feels like the opposite at times, it'll always going to be okay in the end. What you're doing is very admirable

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

I heavily reduced the amount of news I consume and I feel so much happier. It's always just bad things, war, deaths etc. That stuff definitely need sto be talked about but it would be nice to have a source dedicated to the positive news, it would inspire many people to be better.

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

I've been house bound for two weeks only leaving twice for my checkups. I'm back on this app so maybe I am actually starting to go insane -_-

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

kids are built different because I've had several surgeries, one of which was highly invasive as a kid and I recovered quickly. I had surgery two weeks ago and I fr though it would be like how I remembered. y'all it's been two weeks I still can't straighten my back let alone leave the house.

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

I can't remember the last time i was sober for a month straight.... it hasn't happened in well over a year. The part that genuinely pisses me off was how easy it was once I decided to stop, barely any cravings at the beginning 😭 you really can't help someone who doesn't want to get better.

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

good thing I finally got my alcoholism under control because for once I actually decided I WANT to stop without being forced to (yay) bad this is that I now feel the need to relapse into something else so here we are (nay)

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

the stores closest to our homes only know us at our worst ✋😔

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

and tomorrow we’re going to an amusement park so even more walking let’s go

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

was late to my exam and they couldn’t let me in, my phone is dying I’m in a different city and I just spend my last 50 cents on water but it’s okay at least I’ll walk a lot today

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

at least the alcohol withdrawals make me lose my appetite

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 27/04/2026

WHY did I ever think using my irl name on here was a good idea….. it’s whatever now but I wouldn’t do it again T-T

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 27/04/2026

tbh I don’t have many games for it but I like the obvious ones like animal crossing and tomodachi life, miitopia is also cool when it comes to customization. I also liked persona 5 strikers.

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 27/04/2026

what pisses me off the most is that su1c1d3 is simply not an option for me because even at my lowest I know I’ll figure it out so I just gotta thug it out for the rest of my life

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

I love having a beer with my joint it just makes it feel better but I don’t have any more drinking days left this week I need to wait til Monday T_T I’m gonna stick to drinking 3x per week for now and not go down to 2x because it’s too hard and if I fail once I’m just gonna stop caring altogether

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

gf is going back on 0z3mpic next month, do you know what that means? it means matching her portions 😈😈😈

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

thank youu I’m glad you like it ^^

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

I miss who I used to be. Ive changed so much, I became the man I never wanted to be. I hate who I am as a friend, partner, how little respect I have left for myself. I used to love myself and what I had to bring to the table, I recognised my strengths. Now I feel like no more than a husk of that man

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

I’ve decided to start doing things that brought me joy around 2-3 years ago back when I was doing alright to hopefully regain my sense of self. Today I painted a goofy cat as an addition to a letter i’ll be writing to a friend. I feel better.

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

how are y’all managing an ed AND being a stoner? once I feel my eyes getting droopy I know its so over for any diet plans i’ve made for the day

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

my last weight was around 57kg/125lbs now I’m at 63kg/138lbs that’s not that bad. I’ll still be bitching about it tho so prepare to hear from me again soon xx

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

ALRIGHT SO bad news: I gained. good news: I gained only half of what I was estimating.

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

and there’s no hiding it from each other cuz we pretty much live together and notice everything

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

if one of us relapses the other soon follows it’s so bad guys

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

plus she’s pissed off because I didn’t want to order anything and I told her I’m kinda relapsing again

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

my gf and I eat out really often so now that I decided to keep it to a minimum of course she wants to go to mcdonald’s and doesn’t want to eat at any of the other places i’ve proposed ;-; I can’t tell her what to eat so we went where she wanted. Now I have to watch her eat while hungry asf

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

I’ve been following my plan to stop drinking and it’s going good, this week I have to go 4 days sober. Things are getting easier

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

as of the 21st of April I’m 3 years clean let’sgo…. the concept of relapsing still sounds good at times but I’d be so mad at myself afterwards it would be the start of the same spiral I struggled with for years

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Nataniel @weeping-garden.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

I’m weighing myself tomorrow I’m so not excited… I know I’ve gained I AM GONNA CRASH OUT

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