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I wish I at least could know my exact weight aahhh I might have to start counting calories again

also my aunt is controlling af and will make a big deal out of it if I say no to meals or try to workout. she already is constantly complaining to my mom that I'm "too thin" which I'm totally not, she just hates that I lost weight at all

rn I'm so disheartened bc I was losing weight consistently for like 4 days but my mom asked me to visit my aunt for a little bit to basically break the ice after a falling out. anyway i feel like I'm definitely gonna gain while I'm here because they're constantly going out to eat :/

I'm sorry for constantly disappearing I feel like I'm missing out on making genuine/lasting connections here because of it but everything sucks and life is hard lol nothing can go right in my life and my way of coping is isolating myself(which doesn't even help) and idk how to stop

good morning guys I hope everyone slept well and that you all have a good Saturday♡

Nobody @artichoke-enjoyer.bsky.social · 20/11/2024

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Why the FUCK am I always bloated

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𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐱 † @ursilentlover.bsky.social · 20/11/2024

I won't repeat the same mistake this time though❗️ (￣ー￣)

𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐱 † @ursilentlover.bsky.social · 20/11/2024

oh I totally binged yesterday after smoking (yeah I did NOT have it under control🤡) and somehow I still lost 0.6kg hehehe

𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐱 † @ursilentlover.bsky.social · 20/11/2024

hi guys I did the chores then I went back to bed and I've been stuck down a kpoptwt rabbit hole ever since, I hope you're all having a good day<3

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a young man is blowing a kiss while sitting on a couch .

ALT: a young man is blowing a kiss while sitting on a couch .

now I smoke and binge Mr Plankton for the rest of the day hehehe

omggggg I wish I could show y'all my makeup today aahh I love it

✮⋆˙ @thinstar.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

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also i smoked yesterday and it didn't lead to a binge woohoo I've got this under control

this bitch is still going wtf free meeee

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good morning mooties I hope you all slept well and are ready and able to take on this day♡

it's a Christmas thing! how'd I not know about this my family is Christian and very big on Christmas😭😭😭

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pls this goes for all my moots! I would never knowingly interact with fatphobes/fatphobic content

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okay google wtf is an advent calender and why is everyone talking about it

sharing some cheese and crackers with my mom as omad today ^^

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without downloading any new pictures where are you mentally? I'm so totally okay.

why do I still have my period on the 5th day??? someone is trying to get me to commit a crime

happy monday y'all! I hope you have a good start to the week✨️

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man isn't crying supposed to make you sleepy?? why am I literally immune to sleep ??

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does anyone know any tricks to fall asleep quickly/any time?

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I just don't really feel like doing anything..I'm too tired and too sad to put it simply I only feel motivated when I smoke but I can't do that bc I'll binge and I'm broke anyways lol

I feel like if I do this and try to pick up walking again maybe I can reach my goal in time but idk if I have it in me

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I need to get better at fasting like rn idk I think the only way I can be under 50s before my two weeks is up is to fast a lot. like every other day

Moth @handle.invalid · 17/11/2024

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Moth | 21yo ♡ eng | she/her ⊹ ࣪ ˖looking for interactive moots!⊹ ࣪ ˖ ☆ | dni: 🔞 🥀 for reach! [ #shedsky #shsky #caterpillarsky #988sky #goresky #thinsposky #fatsposky ] ♡/💬/↻ to be moots

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the fact that this was me at some point...how do I get back here fucckkkk idek if it's possible atp because of how far off I've fallen

how did I let myself go like this like how fr???I can't fathom that I look like this because of my own actions and lack of control

wow weed is lowkey my only source of joy rn might just end it tbh

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smoked and I didn't binge but I did end up eating more which Ik I wouldn't have done if I'd been sober so ig I really do need a break🥲

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been at 600 cals since brekky and I'm desperate to stay there but I wanna smoke and these days smoking makes me binge so what do I do now

can I lose 6kg in two weeks like is it possible???? I feel like it is, am I delusion???

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