iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Today is hard because we're realizing that our life is never going to be what it used to be and we can't imagine a future right now. 😮‍💨

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Trying to get any financial support when on disability is an uphill battle and it is exhausting. 🫠

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

It was exactly a year ago today that things fully crumbled. We thought it was going to be a matter of weeks, maybe a few months, to pick up the pieces. A year later we're coming to terms with being disabled and having to figure out a whole new way of navigating the world.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

Government officially agrees that we're disabled and that's been a lot to process. 😮‍💨

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

These white walls and white lines Remind me of the bad times Alone with you in reverie Erase me, forget me

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blackbear - toxic energy (Official Lyric Video)

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

A chapter in and this book already has me in a chokehold. This is the religious trauma book I've been waiting for, clearly. 🙏

Picture of a book resting on a pillow that is a black heart with a ribcage on it. The book is titled The Dark In Her Veins and it is by M.K. Lobb. It has images of the two main characters, the MMC with white hair, piercings, and an open top that shows a neck and chest tattoo in black ink. The FMC has blonde hair and is draped from neck and arms in an outfit made of red and black.

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Basil 🌱 @basil-mage.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

Autumn

Drawing of a puppy in a pile of leaves with the caption; "It's finally autism"

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

One of the hardest things over the past year has been the realization that we're not in a place to engage with the content and themes in TTRPGs/LARPs that we used to love. We know that may change as we work on recovery but right now we need to be mindful of triggers and more cautious.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

Got the plague, so we're watching let's plays of Alan Wake 2 and that's getting us wanting to write again.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Chronic fatigue and pain, autistic burnout, and trauma symptoms make an exhausting combination to live with 🫠 We are so tired of being exhausted and drained all the time. Bonus points for the fun of trying to explain to disability why all of these factors make it impossible to work right now.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

Very done with today and it’s not even noon 😮‍💨

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

It is starting to feel like autumn and we are ready 🙏

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

A boy, sleeping on a Mothman blanket with a ribcage pillow beside him.

A picture of a white recliner with a Welcome to West Virginia Mothman blanket and a ribcage pillow. There is a cat curled up on the blanket, looking peaceful.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Our name change went through the same day we saw MCR and if that isn't fated to be, we don't know what is. 🖤

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

Saw MCR last night in DC and everything about the show was incredibly healing 🙏

Picture of Onyx and Mack. Onyx is wearing a black parade tank top with a rainbow flag. They have on tinted glasses and a baseball cap and some of their tattoos are visible. There is a black chain collar around their neck. Mack's shirt is not fully visible.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

Going dark for the foreseeable future. Catch y'all on the flipside.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

Feeling so much grief as the upcoming anniversary approaches. I didn't know that barely a month later everything would fall apart and a year later, people I shared a beautiful memory with would no longer be a part of my life.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 09/08/2026

It's been almost a year since things fully crumbled and that's hard to sit with. There has been so much loss and grief and old trauma resurfacing and new trauma happening. We're definitely in a better place than we were but there is still so much further to go and some days that feels exhausting.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 08/08/2026

I'm so tired of being tired. 😮‍💨

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

🫠 Today sucks. I'd say "I'm going back to bed" but my body's decided that sleep is impossible so...

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

Trying to come to terms with the limitations from being mentally ill, chronically ill, and (currently at least) disabled is exhausting. 😮‍💨

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 27/07/2026

Pulled four major arcana in our tarot reading this morning and we're sure that's completely fine... 🙃

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

Today is a hard day and everything is feeling raw. There is so much grief and it is hard to hold.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 18/07/2026

Every day we get a little more feral and a little hotter ✌️

Picture of Onyx who is wearing a My Chemical Romance tank top that shows off a few of their tattoos (one flesh one end on the chest, a partial word and bird on the left arm). They are wearing a black metal permanent collar. They have an eyebrow piercing and a helix that is filled with a spiky arch.

Picture of Onyx who is dressed in a MCR tank top and part of their one flesh one end tattoo is visible. They are wearing a black metal permanent collar. They have a stud in their nose for the new piercing.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 18/07/2026

Spent years posting this semi-jokingly, only to discover over the past year that it is unfortunately very true. Nothing like discovering that you are just one walking trauma response. 🙃

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💖 Birdhism Jen @birdhism.com · 17/07/2026

For real. #noai #art

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 17/07/2026

Over here begging and pleading for creativity and inspiration to return. Autistic burnout and trauma symptoms are sucking the life out of any creative spark.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 11/07/2026

Had to get an emergency root canal today, so that's where we're at. 🙃

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 07/07/2026

Our family needs some good vibes and well wishes today. 😮‍💨 Our elderly cat is at the emergency vet and things are not looking great in terms of prognosis.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 28/06/2026

A weekend in the mountains, in a city made for me? Don't mind if I yes.

Image of an Evil Dead pinball machine. It is all in purple and blue glowing lights. There is the Deadite in the basement on top of the machine and Ash and his chainsaw on the score board.

Mural on the window of a movies, video games, books store. It is the red room from Twin Peaks and has David Lynch holding a cup of coffee. The Twin Peaks font reads, "A damn fine cup of coffee."

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 26/06/2026

Time for the next phase. Wish us luck.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

It's been really hard to come to terms with the fact that many of the fears I had were true. Out of sight, out of mind. The moment you stop doing things for people, they decide you're dead to them. The moment you slow down, everything crumbles. 2025 and 2026 have been sadly illuminating.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

Drinking Christmas in Paris tea at an unseasonable time? Don't mind if we do. 🍵

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

Someone told us this morning that we have a "golden soul" and we'll take it. (We were communing with the wild bunnies at the time and just letting the bunnies graze around us)

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

Maybe if we make enough lists and reorganize our entire home, we will finally feel in control of our life again. 🤷

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Gailey 🍉 @sarahgailey.bsky.social · 04/06/2026

Announcing DOWNRIGHT SCOUNDRELS NEEDED. The Anarchist Cookbook meets Unforgiven in a story that is unapologetically about the means and methods one should use to interfere with the logistics and supply lines of those in power. March 2027.

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Announcing Downright Scoundrels Needed by Sarah Gailey - Reactor

Return to the world of Upright Women Wanted for an explosive train heist!

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 04/06/2026

Dropping in for proof of life ✌️Wishing y'all the best during these times.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

One step forward, two steps back 😮‍💨

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 11/05/2026

CW: pet loss This anniversary is hard. I miss my baby girl.

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 10/05/2026

Relearning (or maybe just learning for the first time) how to be a person is challenging.

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Bob DeRosa @bobderosa.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

I needed this quote today from the amazing @sarahgailey.bsky.social: "Do what you can. Care for yourself and the people around you. Believe that the world can be better than it is now. Never give up."

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

It's been wild to wake up feeling rested and just filled with joy and creative inspiration. Things aren't perfect but we feel like we're not just getting ourself back but finding ourselves for the first time in a long time (if ever).

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Onyx (Human Disaster) @thekilljoyz.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

We've been able to feel joy and excitement and hope again for the first time in far too long. There's a lot that's still hard but our baseline is no longer pure numbness and depression.

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