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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 29/06/2026

I gotta make September able to be a rest month for him, with promise, no matter what. I'll drag our asses out of state if I have to

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 29/06/2026

I want him to stay until the problems happening in our house stop, then stay a week extra so he can actually get a break before going out to sea for two months again. Dude's a sailor, though. It's not like he can just ask for time off on a dime like that

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 29/06/2026

My boy is lamenting going back to work after three months of zero rest, even through his break month, and I've been trying to stay bright for him but like...man. I don't want him to go either. At all. More than usual

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

Like...I've started taking videos for him when I realize I'm idly messing with my gut. I feel good about my body when I look at them. I feel hot as fuck I almost wanna post them online. I've never felt so desirable in a way that's actually related to me, not beauty standards that NEVER for who I am

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

Physically I'm the heaviest I've ever been and also the weakest. It's not really working for me But, I recently learned that my boy finds my gut EXTREMELY hot and I have never felt more attractive in my entire life With my goals, I can absolutely make both of these things work at the same time

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

I figured it out I am so smart (I have no idea what I did)

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

My BF wants to use VRchat more, especially with the distance from current circumstances, & I'm trying to get space mover stuff in OVR to work & oh god How the hell did I do this before?💦 It looks so straight forward & the nothing happens. I'm not technologically smart enough for this Q_Q

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

Maybe with some cross pollination, depending, but I've always been a multiple-friend-group kind of guy anyway (4/4)

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

I think I wanna prioritize fixing the vibe of this account for a bit, so to speak. I do love how i can openly muse about silly over at my streamer account, but I wanna better carve a space for myself outside of all that (3/4)

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

Good self check! However, it's lead to this account's posts all being TURBO NEGATIVE ALL THE TIME. WHOOPS I wanna talk about game development stuff and what I miss about doin it again, or cool stuff I found in VRchat and other VR experiences (2/4)

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

Came to a realization: So I have two accounts. One's a pseudo-business account, the other is this purely personal one I write a post and think, "Is this more appropriate for the personal over the one where I gotta mind face a bit?" (1/4 🧵)

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Indie Aut. Stuart Miller📖✍️🤓 Believe in yourself & your potential @stuartmiller1.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

Posted 3 hours ago by @paulkenton.bsky.social "One of my favorites. Beginning with splashes and poured tones, the work develops into a more refined image while maintaining its inherent randomness and energy. 🗽🎨 #art #painting #artist #artistsoninstagram #newyork" IG acct: @paulkenton Paul Kenton

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Ethan Kocak @ethankocak.com · 02/06/2026

I know BTS is universally considered the acronym for the Kpop band but it will always mean blue tongued skink to me

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Trevors (1990) starring Kevin Bacon @slimyswampghost.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

Backrooms is what you get when you deny an entire generation or more access to third spaces

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Rachel Lense is Professionally Curious @rachellense.bsky.social · 14/06/2024

I made this Pride flag using only NASA images and our team thought it would be cool to share on social (I work on the NASA heliophysics communications team), but it's getting all sorts of hate on the bird app and Fbook. Thought y'all might be more appreciative of it here. ☺️🏳️‍🌈💖

A pride flag with every color band represented by a NASA image. White is Earth clouds, pink is aurora, blue is the Sun in a specific wavelength, brown is Jupiter clouds, black is the Hubble deep field, red is the top of sprites, orange is a Mars crater, yellow is the surface of Io, green is a lake with algae, blue is Neptune, and purple is the Crab Nebula in a specific wavelength.

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Dylan Wilbanks is not a Halloween person @dylanw.social · 01/06/2026

Reminder that Klingons say TRANS RIGHTS BRING HONOR TO YOUR HOUSE

DS9 scene: Kor, a Klingon, greets Dax as Curzon. Dax corrects him as the host is now in Jadzia, a Trill female. Cor immediately responds, "Jadzia, my beloved old friend" without missing a beat.

Right: Two tweets from 2019: "This Pride Month, never forget that Klingons had trans rights"; "No hostility, no confusion, no clumsy excuse-filled justification, just a quick self-correction and the exact same amount of love and respect before and after. Cis allies: Be like Kor."

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

So all things considered? Especially with how things have been with all this? I consider that a net positive. Frankly impulsive plan didn't work, guest doesn't have to sleep in a car, and I got to unblock important parts of the house (6/6)

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

So I replaced the locks of the areas she's been doing that with. All of them. Left them unlocked, she can still use them, but no more locking them off from the entire house. And I'm okay with doing that bevause the people staying here do not go in other people's rooms, period. (5/6)

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

Granted, none of us go in those spaces without telling her anyway. We fo actually respect her space. However, one of those spaces is the garage. With all the important house tools and necessities. And she just refused to let people in because It's Hers Now (4/6)

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

On the other hand, everything is back to how it was before the sudden Kick Her Out plan - except I got to fix the lock situation. The guest had completely locked down major parts of the house and had forcefully claimed shared spaces as her own because she had keys (3/6)

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

So on one hand, one person's goal didn't work at all, which was to just lock the foul guest and her stuff out of the house, and the rest of us had to do damage control when I tried to tell her we shouldn't and we should just wait (2/6)

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

The end result of the day-souring thing? Could have been way worse, last of the weapons have been removed, point has been made, and I got to do my main goal as someone used to these situations. (🧵1/6)

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

He's been trying to find ways to support me from afar. As someone who's used to doing stuff like this completely alone, I wish I could tell him how much doing little things like sending me photos of budgies and cockatiels really helps me a lot. He tries so hard for me even when his hands are tied

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

My boy is sending me pictures of little parrots at a pet store hes wandering through to help me feel better before I have to go do this shitty thing in a little under 2 hours I love him so much. He's been out to sea these past 2 months (sailor) and things went to shit the morning he left

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

A wish came true last night and this morning I am told I have to be put in harm's way in about four hours I don't drink unless if it's to enjoy a tasty drink. I'm getting fucking wasted when this is all over

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

And like clockwork, I have a moment that's really, really good and I feel good again and not even 24 hours later something that hits just as hard in all bad ways happens to take me out again Clockwork

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

So hi. Hello. Expect ramblings and a lot of VRchat nonsense

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

I didn't notice the Bsky app logged me out, so amongst everything and more I kinda forgot that this account? Definitely looking forward to using it again, though. It's nice having a space online where I'm not an internet personality and I'm just myself

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

Things are still hard, but I've been finding ways to make living with the whole of my chest easier. I have my loved ones to thank for that as well as deciding enough is enough with being generous to those who don't realize the damage they are doing

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

I wasn't in love with you, I'm still not, but I remember, around my jadedness, I had thought about it even if very briefly. I had thought about trying it. I wish I thought on it for longer. I wish I gave you a chance.

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

Maybe you'd still be here and I wouldn't have "woken up" from my zombie-like state so late. Maybe you would have been able to shake me out of it like I now see you were trying to do for so long.

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

Maybe you would have gotten help you needed over the doc who kept shrugging off the most vital part of his job. Maybe I wouldn't have surrendered to my demons & would have been able to push you through your pessimism as I always had, & you would have gotten a years-old staple vaccine you needed

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

Maybe we both would have been even more bold and tried even more things with that direct support from one another, like we did our best to do remotely for one another. Maybe I would've broken out of my haze sooner and found the joy of living over surviving off the little things keeping me sane.

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

Maybe things would be different. Maybe I would be better mentally and you would have had more time away from home. Maybe I would have had more of an offline social life. Maybe I would have had more to look forward to because you were just a train ride or a long drive away.

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

I wish you hadn't confessed to me while I was taking a break from relationships and had grown so jaded to confessions. I wish I stopped and gave it some thought. I wish I said yes to at least try and see how it went.

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

I so badly hope I am remembering that wrong. I am fucking PRAYING that I am remembering something wrong, but with your track record, even now, I wouldn't be surprised enough to even raise a brow if it turns out my memory isn't failing me. With only respect in these words, it's on point for you.

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

I'm furious. You parade your love & his corpse & you learned NOTHING.

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

Ten years of me knowing you & you've learned nothing. Five years with him & you learned nothing from one of the most patient mentors you could have possibly had. HE even changed 10 years & his stubbornness was only rivaled by a deafened bull

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

He trusted and cared about you so deeply and dearly that he broke a vow he grew into to never romantically connect again, made that VERY clear to you throughout your friendship, and you boast your love without even NOTICING the depths of his strife and pain? YOU DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE?

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

Are you daft? You were friends for five years and it developed swiftly into a relationship with you two hanging out just about every day for all those years, and you didn't know? You didn't NOTICE?

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

I distinctly remember his partner holding one of those journals close to their chest, surprise and mourning on their features, and they said "These are...deeply personal. He was hurting so much." You were his partner. And you didn't know. You didn't even notice?

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

His partner & I went through his room together. They went through his private journals where he wrote notes & vented as he tried to organize his life despite everything working against him. I saw glimpses of the pages & turns out he & I did the exact same thing. I know the sort of thoughts in there

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

A thought just dawned on me as I draw this vent piece to process grief. I am boiling in an anger I am fighting to keep down

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

I know he knows how much they're hurting, too, but if he were to see how they're handling that hurt in his eternal absence, I know for a fact he'd be pissed. He would talk to them, because they would listen to him But he's not here to help me now. I have to be brave and do this alone.

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

He knows I wouldn't hurt them. He knows I want them to be okay, but what's happening has been beyond unacceptable. It's been a year of torment for me because of them and them alone I know he knows I always want to be gentle with people who deserve it, and they count, but this can't go any longer

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

I'm scared out of my mind, but I know he'd want me to stand up for myself, no matter what, with something this important and dear to me, even if the person I have to push back in line is his partner.

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

I'm trying really hard to be brave today. Really fucking hard I'm done hiding from this person because they can't handle someone having their own grief. I'm tired of them forcefully crawling into my grief and making it their own, all while demanding people respect their space and their grief

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

No one deserves this and it was such a meticulously deliberate decision to do. Friends aren't chess pieces. I hate this.

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

I have many emotions about all this because I feel like I have been watching and waiting for this moment to come and I hate that fact. I hate that this happened at all and I hate even more that I saw it fucking coming when this shouldn't have even been something on the horizon in the first place.

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smilingBlacksmith @smilingblacksmith.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

I feel terrible for my friends who trusted and brought her so close. I feel the worst for the people she targeted and forced away from their friends as hard as she could to get what she wanted. I wish so badly I could offer more to the person she targeted so badly that they tried to take their life

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