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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Almost near my goal. Got the hotel booked, and currently at the "other expenses" part. Thank you all for your support.

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Fallon | [see pinned!] @fallonturing.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

PLEASE STOP IGNORING ME! I NEED THE MED TRANSPORTATION BY TOMORROW! PLEASE HELP ME SURVIVE!

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Almost near my goal. Got the hotel booked, and currently at the "other expenses" part. Thank you all for your support.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Lodging plans fell through for the NEPA comedy festival I'm attending in Stroudsburg, PA this Thursday through Saturday, and need to come up with money for a motel and other expenses. Please help if you can, and thank you for all your support. Venmo: @susantkeiser PayPal.me/tdkeiser

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I beg for money all the time, but the margins are razor thin to begin with, and standup is my last, best hope for escaping poverty in my early forties and beyond. Which is real fucking sad when I put it that way.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

and after that, current transphobe Alice Cooper lolololol thanks, automated college station that normally plays decent deep cuts after hours

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

My earbuds cut off for like a half hour and what song on the classic rock station came on when it restarted? fucking DUDE LOOKS LIKE A LADY

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

This episode misled me into thinking The Island of Dr. Moreau was about someone who turned humans into animals and not the other way around. Needless to say, I cancelled my flight once I finally read it.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Public service announcements on TV at the peak of the War on Drugs and (the concern of straight cis white people getting) AIDS. I was the only kid they worked on. A clip from BRAZIL where Katherine Helmond gets her facelifted was scary as fuck but honestly I could use that right about now.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Sorry for venting tonight, but goddammit, it's been all quite a lot to handle. I'll post more fundraising in the morning, have 40 dollars but need at least 200-300 for lodging and expenses this week after my room fell through at an important gig.

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Jessalyn vs ACME 🏳️‍⚧️ @hulkied.myatproto.social · 04/10/2026

So while I have the $130 met, I am hoping we can get possibly another $70 by end of day today to give me a bit more breathing room and also help me work on bullshit like this? Y'all have been great so far, thank you ❤️ ko-fi.com/hulkied paypal.me/hulkied Venmo/CashApp: HulkieD

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Thank you. I'm fucking trying, but it never feels like I'm doing enough, and even the advice my friends give me makes me feel like the pig they put lipstick on in the saying. I'm five years in and every stranger at best sees me as a man and at worst as Sloth from The Goonies. And the onus is on me.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

People don't tell you how fucked up that was, during Easter break so kids were home watching it live. A firefighter holding a dying baby was on the cover of every magazine and newspaper in the country. My mom had me write haikus about it and send to people she'd later say she hated, like Oprah.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Like, I grew up equating happiness with death anyway, to the point where I still feel that I killed the puppy I got for Christmas at the age of 6 because I couldn't take care of it and it allegedly died in a fire after we had to give it back. Those fucking children at the OKC federal building.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I don't know why I'm feeling all of this right now, but can only assume it's my fault and I only deserve to wallow in it like the mannish piece of shit my brain thinks I am currently.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Everything is goddamned horror these days, which sucks when you only see yourself as, at best, the best friend who dies at the end. And with horror, it's heavily implied that only the final girl is worthy of being spared death. Why even try

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

It does suck that the only way I believe I will truly feel love is after my death.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I know I'm not in a good place right now, and don't necessarily deserve pity, much less love, but even after this feeling eventually subsides due to exhaustion, this has always been my life, no matter how "good" it is, and likely always will.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I'm just at the point where I believe everything is my fault, and that every mistake is something that I deserve to be heavily punished for. I believe I deserve to be unhappy because I probably didn't take the right meds at one point or didn't put enough makeup on to be seen as a girl, etc.,

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

This is not a joke. I am honestly suicidal right now and am pretty close to unfollowing and/or blocking you. This is absolutely a me thing but yeah, no.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

of course the first thing I see when returning to Bluesky is a Family Guy gif of characters killing themselves. Don't tempt me with a good time.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Also, never have the one time you told a friend you were suicidal occur on September 10, 2001. Not only will they tell on you and it'll get back to your emotionally abusive mother, but she'll try to bribe you with a trip to Disney that she'll soon rescind due to 9/11. Don't even try to be happy.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I just wish I could say what I truly feel without being afraid of condescension, punishment or pity and it's that i'm having a shit time right now where I'd rather be dead than feeling this way, but also feel like I simultaneously can't fix this alone and I must've done something to deserve this.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Honestly, screaming into the void is better than nothing at this point, but not by much.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Fuck it, I'm going to keep asking for money. paypal: tdkeiser venmo: susantkeiser If I'm going to be feeling sorry for myself I might as well ask others pay for what my fucked up mind can't help to believe are my small but grave mistakes.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I'm just glad that Trans Lifeline is there 12 hours a day, five days a week just so they can't hear me through my own crying.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Most of my family's advice was "one mistake will ruin your life" or "stop feeling sorry for yourself" or "you're my heart" or "my son in a dress" or "you killed his son" or *tosses sandwich you walked a mile each way for in the air because it had mayonnaise on it* or "you live like a [racial slur]"

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

A lot of the advice my loved ones (not my family lol) give me involves doing "small things throughout the day" to gradually make me feel better, but to me that feels like "if you don't do this then you deserve the shit you get".

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Being autistic is great because you feel as though every little mistake is your fault, and its importance is so high that even misspelling something on your first attempt at typing makes you feel as though you deserve to die. If I can't feel love, I might as well feel peace.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I fucking hate having to live like this, and how the only way my brain seems to deal with it is to yell at myself that I deserve it because I haven't tried hard enough to succeed and/or be loved, or be seen or feel like the woman I truly am. [insert transparently false denial of SI here]

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Been having a shit weekend full of dysphoria, bed rot, missed opportunities to be with other trans people, falling asleep at 9am, and waking up at 6pm. Oh, and I desperately need money for lodging this weekend at a prior commitment. Please throw money at it. venmo: susantkeiser paypal.me/tdkeiser

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Vera Kwang @armoredqueen.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Really need help getting some medicine or something plus haha guess who has a month to figure this one out

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I fucking hate how I have to simultaneously plead for what I need in life, shit on myself and mostly denying what I want, not be seen for who I am, and consistently believing that not only am I responsible for everything, but I am to blame, so I don't even deserve to be helped. Fun weekend!

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Of course my lodging plans for the NEPA Comedy Festival this week fell through, so I'll need to get a motel room for Thursday and Friday, and I was already going up there with next to no money. It's real fucking hard for me not to hate myself for begging. PayPal tdkeiser Venmo susantkeiser

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David Lebo @leboism.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

For those not following NJ politics, please know that the Lt Gov resigned a few days ago because a report came out saying he did serial harassment, and yesterday he went on TV to say "i put that report through multiple AIs and they told me it wasn't sexual harassment." Former university president

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

sooooo i guess my temple owls lost yet again

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I don't know if I need a hug or a thousand dollars or a dronification chamber right now. But I need something. I'll be fine and even if I wasn't I have a comedy festival in the Poconos this week to attend and look forward to. But I need love and it's nigh on impossible to know if I can feel it.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I'm dealing with a lot of ambiguous grief right now, for the years lost due to living other people's lives for them and being deathly afraid of living my own. For the unconditional love that obviously wasn't there. For life on my own terms only tentatively beginning closer to death than birth.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

"One mistake will ruin your life" well I guess I now know why they said that. It was more in the context of "don't be caught being racist" but Christ. I led my entire life for decades being deathly afraid of making that One Mistake no matter how large or small it would've been.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I have never experienced CSA or SA in my life, for which I am grateful and lucky, but CSA is a part of my extended family's history, and not knowing how deep it went until the COVID lockdown still fucked me up.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Being aromantic and aspec also throws a wrench into things. Intimacy is very rare for me, and in a house with so few boundaries we often had 5-6 people in a three bedroom house well into my adulthood, I was always on edge.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I was never really taught to love myself, and honestly, almost any "love" I get either feels more like pity, or the emotional incest and abuse I received from my family. I grew up believing the more I hated myself, the more I suffered, the more I would be actually loved, if only in death.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

The financial side of it also sucks too. My bestie is between jobs, but as a computer programmer who easily clears $100k, and whose next job will likely carry a raise that's almost twice as much as I get in disability in a year. It's equitable more than equal, and there's even a gap in that.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I could dress like the prettiest girl in the room, but it's not worth it when you're almost guaranteed to be ridiculed and most of the advice you get is either "ignore it" or "they might have a point" or "you can only control how you react to it" with very little further insight as to how.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I feel at my most comfortable with little or no makeup and unisex/slightly femme women's clothes, but even a few of my closest trans friends kinda think I'm not trying hard enough, and when I look in the mirror, it's hard to disagree, especially with my face and hair and no hope of FFS in sight.

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THE HOUSE THAT PEED BLOOD🏳️‍⚧ @skeiser.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

It goes for my transition, too. Five years in, and I'm not even clocky. I feel like a failure because I can't dress en femme without ridicule or extreme internalized transphobia against myself and only myself.

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