iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I can't wait to put another two hours into this project just to wake up tomorrow to explain that it's not going to be done in time :) I love being a failure and a disappointment

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

they don't 100% have names yet but I do have a fair chunk of their story mapped out, it's a little bit romance, a little bit coming-of-age, and a little bit a mystery. very inspired by things like Pita-Ten and The Lovely Bones and also kind of the power of social media to do good?

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

I think I have more sketches lying around but these ones at least have notes to translate the mess, I love my fashion girls! the left drawings were done on different canvases so they ended up at different heights which is killing me lmao, the right side is more accurate

a Procreate screenshot of two different fashion looks for two different fictional women: one is a petite and pale blonde with a punk or alt vibe and the other is a taller fat dark-skinned woman who is more elegant and feminine. both of their red carpet looks reflect their respective styles, drawing inspiration from Irish lace-making and Ethiopian embroidery, respectively.

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

the next time I have 15 dollars in the video game budget...oooh, y'all better watch out! I'm gonna be a menace!!!!

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

the way I wrote this and then like 24 hours later that goddamn dressmaker game blew up on my socials I literally manifested this

a highlighted passage from my bullet journal entry for October 1st that reads: I've been watching Chris Klemons's red carpet roasts for so long now that it's got me arrogantly thinking I could design good red carpet looks and then I realized that I literally have two OCs that are fashion designers and models... my freaking mind...

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I feel like my brain wants to throw up

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

the two key lessons from this post: 1) I miss quizilla 2) I wanna rewatch derry girls

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

(uncle "derry girls" colm voice) so t'was on the quizilla, you'd go on the quizilla and take your quiz sure as on uquiz today. but the difference, see, was quizilla would let yourself see all the results after--and not just some little distribution graph, no, you could read the descriptions as well-

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I have a follow-up with the prescriber in exactly 2 weeks so I've decided to just keep suffering until then unless it gets worse. if it does get worse I'm going to just go ahead and blow up the whole earth and end everyone's suffering forever if that's cool.

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

medication side effects continue to be side effecting and I was warned that 1) this could happen and 2) it'll (hopefully) be temporary as my body adjusts but it's been a few days now and I'm not sure I can take much more of this

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

policing is a slimy industry and the only people cops ever protect and serve are themselves.

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

watched a local cop car stop at a red light and then turn their lights and sirens on just long enough to run that same red light, shutting them off the second they crossed the intersection. then a few seconds later I heard them do it again at the red light two blocks ahead. my tax dollars at work!

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

when I hear people talking about how climate change has doomed our planet I think about how when I was in middle school my entire science curriculum was about how greedy capitalists ruined the Mahoning River but then we realized that was Bad and started cleaning it up. Cuyahoga too. and Lake Erie!

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

about to ugly cry over some otters playing in a river if anyone wants to join me

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

update I was perusing the cleveland and mayo clinic websites reading about my symptoms and they basically all coincide with side effects of a medication I recently started taking an increased dose of 😌 I actually hate pharmacology I thought this shit was supposed to make me better not worse!

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

your work gave me the kick in the pants I needed to finally pick up HTML/CSS again so if anything I should be thanking you!

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

ribo.zone is unironically one of my favorite websites and I think perfectly encapsulates what the world wide web was like when I was a kid. it's so fun and there's a wealth of good resources too! happy birthday ribo.zone I love you ribo.zone

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

felt kinda weird when I went to bed last night and today I woke up soooo dizzy 😵 don't like that!

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I also managed to condense two future doctor appointments into one which is gonna save me a ton of gas and headache and if you're thinking "wow that's a lot of great news for one day" you'd be right! but fear not, I also have to delay a car repair cuz the mechanic forgot to order a part 😌

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I was preparing to drag myself back into the mines today and then my mom was like "actually can we push this deadline by a week" (it was originally in 2 days) and I almost fell to my knees and wept for joy yeah I think an extra week will work for me no prablem 👍

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

call me an early 2000s era web designer because I'm putting everything in fucking tables!!!!!!!!!!!! tables everywhere forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sick of everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

the desktop publishing saga continues: I have given up on scribus and am now using LibreOffice Impress. yes the powerpoint knockoff. believe it or not it is going better but only now that I've given up on getting paragraph styles to work.

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

we'll never know though because I'm currently ~*~between psychiatric medication managers~*~ because the one that originally took me months to find and who was awesome left her practice 😔 top 10 anime betrayals like if you cry every time (I'm working on finding a new one dw 👍)

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

I was so productive yesterday and did so many hard things that I've been putting off for [loud coughing to cover up the word "months"] and I think it was because I took the prescribed amount of my adhd meds instead of half of that. could mean nothing!

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

god I feel like I got a contact high from this

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

unlocked the ability to cook pasta in the rice cooker. turns out it's pretty much just as easy as cooking rice in a rice cooker. I don't know why it took 35 years for me to figure that out but it is what it is.

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

😌 I overslept and they're closed now so I have to try again tomorrow anyway, I love being busted and unwell

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

man I gotta make more phone calls and appointments tomorrow and I don't even have anything to bribe myself with 😔

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

had one of those days where I felt like I was passing every skill check and everything was going better than expected! all balanced by the discovery that I missed a fairly important appointment today 🥴 and it was 100% my fault. alas! it was still a darn good day otherwise 😌

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

anyway if I didn't have $18 to my name I think I'd just suck it up and buy a couple months of canva because I genuinely think it's the only thing on the market right now that meets my (admittedly specific but not that fucking unreasonable for 2026!) needs. I am very frustrated. I hate adobe forever.

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

*the documentation is 50% jargon and/or linux-specific and 50% dead links. the page that would have answered the original asker's question is blank and was last updated in 2007.

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

normal person: hey I'm having a hard time finding (feature that exists on all commercial analogs of this foss program and has since the Obama administration), is there a way to do this in [program]? average foss power user: no and there never will be so stop asking, idiot. read the documentation*

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

every day scribus and its users find new ways to piss me tf off

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

"nobody deliberately decided to make society this way it just grew organically over time" okay well 1) that's half-true at best and 2) when an invasive plant organically grows so big it overtakes my yard and starts suffocating all the other plants I rip it out at the roots and plant something better

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

you ever notice how all poor people are passing the same ten dollars around and all rich people are passing the same ten billion dollars around and that's just how we decided to organize society

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I ran out of room on my canvas for a fourth panel but if I hadn't it would have been my aunt mentioning the Shel Silverstein thing, because that's canonically how she followed that comment

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

still have no idea why my aunt felt the need to say that to us #art #comic

a three-panel comic. the first panel shows me as a teen with my cousin (also a teen) and her mom, my aunt. we're all at a table doing various activities while The Ballad of Lucy Jordan by Marianne Faithfull plays in the background. In the second panel, my aunt casually mentions that she's the same age as the titular character, who is assumed to have killed herself "at the age of 37". The third panel has my aunt going back to vibing while I look incredulous and my cousin, her daughter, looks horrified. there is a fun footnote mentioning that the lyrics were originally by Shel Silverstein.

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

man I wish you could customize brush stabilization by layer instead of by brush or app-wide in Procreate.

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

honorable mentions for each respective category that 100% should count but I discovered them recently enough that it seemed unfair to say they shaped me: anime: Anohana: The Flower We Saw That Day manga: Magical Girl Site game: Detroit: Become Human

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

saw someone doing the anime one but I was/am more of a manga reader so I thought I'd do that one also and then there was a third one for games so, well, here you go. my9animes.com/en 9koma.com/en my9games.net/en

the 9 anime that shaped me: Dragonball Z, Yu-Gi-Oh, Outlaw Star, Vision of Escaflowne, Cardcaptor Sakura, Puella Magi Madoka Magica, Inuyasha, Love Hina, and K-ON

the 9 manga that shaped me: Cardcaptor Sakura, Sailor Moon, Tokyo Mew Mew, Zodiac P.I., Wish, Petshop of Horrors, Inuyasha, Fushigi Yugi, and The Ring

The 9 video games that shaped me: Age of Mythology, Black & White, Emperor: Rise of the Middle Kingdom, The Sims, Portal, Donkey Kong Country 2, Final Fantasy IX, Shining Force, and Zelda: Ocarina of Time

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

pulled a muscle in my sleep last night and I don't even get the satisfaction of whining about it cuz I'm always met with the "just wait until you're older and it gets worse! a-hyuck!" like I haven't been dealing with this shit since I was a teen

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

thinkin about doing that draw six pokemon thing again but I might try painting them this time... 🤔 I've really been having fun painting, it's less stressful than lining + coloring

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

how your email finds me today, on day 3 of a migraine

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

what do you mean I have Bills next week. I had Bills last week. what kinda bullshit is this.

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

@ spotify please understand I don't want your AI slop annual reviews or smart shuffles or whatever I want human-curated gimmick playlists and to be able to click on a song and hear that song play in its entirety

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I know Spotify is objectively evil which is why I don't give them money anymore but I can never fully quit them because of shit like this

A Spotify playlist called "Marvin Gay is scared and confused" and features tracks like "What's Going On" and "Where Are We Going"

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I also got pho and a fancy iced coffee as a treat/bribe which I don't *regret* necessarily I just feel like I didn't enjoy/appreciate them as much as I would have on a better day and am a little disappointed about that. many such cases.

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I've gotten pretty good at recognizing my pre-migraine symptoms now and the usual suspects started cropping up today so I decided that, since I'm already gonna be kinda yucky and miserable for the next couple days, I might as well also get my flu and covid shots out of the way for the season 😌💪💉

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

incredible PBS documentary about the history of Africa and early humans was exactly the kind of thing I was looking for I love you PBS I love you free education for education's sake I wish this had been six hours longer youtu.be/2XS7s9S6q8Q?...

youtu.be

The Real History of Africa They Never Taught You | Full Documentary | Africa's Great Civilizations

YouTube video by PBS Documentaries

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kerry (they/them) @sillimancer.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

I finally started watching The Sopranos after years of knowing that the show was tailor-made for me but wanting to save it for "the right time" and 1) I'm glad I waited and 2) yeah this show was tailor-made for me (locking this post cuz I don't want spoilers or to talk about it!)

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