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I wonder if, at any moment since your departure, we have thought about each other at the same time, Alice. Maybe you are constantly appearing in my mind because that is what happens when you dwell upon me? … Ah. I know that is merely hopeful. Even if you do not, I shall.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 29/09/2026

// Sorry for being dour. My passion and want for Yumeko... as I always say, it is beyond what most expect. // I am not her, but so much of myself is enraptured by her, and I want to share her, so everyone can understand her glory. // I wish I had a better outlet. More to write.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 28/09/2026

// Even if I fade, please remember Yume as something more than just wonderful. // Her very existence is my everything, and she deserves her peace alongside Shinki, and Alice, and all her other little sisters. // She is the epitome of service and devotion. I love her so. Always.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 27/09/2026

// I cannot do it justice anymore. Maybe I will turn to the wind and allow it to carry me away. // Yume deserves more than I ever could do.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 27/09/2026

If you can look at me, and still smile… Then I never went too far, did I, Mother? I need to have more trust in this fact. There is no resentment, only love. The same love I felt on the day of my creation…

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 25/09/2026

I envision a mountain of every heart I have crushed. Countless. I could never accurately recount how many I have destroyed. They all beat. The sound is coursing through my mind to remind me that they all held passion and love. They were all gifts from Mother. Thump…

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 22/09/2026

All you can do Is hold the ones you love close And, should you fade Should they be forced to bury you Pray that your final moments were something they could smile over …If they have to remember you at all… It is better it is positive, no?

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 21/08/2026

// Hello. // Doing my best here. I hope you are all as well. // Please keep loving Makai for me.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 19/07/2026

// Hug for you too. ❤️

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 18/07/2026

// Mind seizing up. Sorry. Cannot figure it out right now.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 15/07/2026

Let us love Until our hearts stops beating Let us see Until the light fades away Let us dance Until our legs can no longer carry our weight Let us sing Until there is nothing to breathe Let us promise That there will be no "untils" We have forever Until we settle for less

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 13/07/2026

// Hug hug hug. ❤️

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 13/07/2026

// Of course I say I am doing better only to feel extra gross today. Bleh… I really am too vulnerable and weak in this pathetic human form. Fwahaha…

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 12/07/2026

// Still recovering. Had some meh things happen the past week, but I will be okay as well. // Let's keep loving what we love, and showcasing our passion in every way possible. ♥️

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 08/07/2026

// Hi all I love you and I love Yume. // Will be writing more here soon, but please bother me if you want to do something together. // It might take a bit to get to because the heat is miserable again, but I'll do my best! // We all want to love Makai here, right~? ❤️❤️❤️

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 06/07/2026

The song is all I am hearing. The everlasting siren's call of Death itself. Is it meant to ease? I do not feel at ease. Perhaps it is merely a signature of oblivion, to indicate what is to come. It is beautiful… but I know what it entails. I have no more time. I need to decide.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 05/07/2026

Hold onto love tightly. Someday it may be all you have left.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 05/07/2026

Obsession is all I know. In life, I did not allow anyone to bother me about it. In time, I still shall not. Obsession is not the sensation that is at fault for what has transpired here. It was something else responsible. Lady Sariel had a hold on me different from even Mother.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 04/07/2026

I want to wake up and have everything back to the way it used to be. In Mother's arms. Serving her the treats she desires, and preparing her for the day ahead. Shouldering all she needs me to do, and assisting in royal duties. This cannot last forever. It will not.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 04/07/2026

It is silly, but whenever you would scrape or bruise yourself, Alice, it would always hurt my spirits some. It would be foolish to claim that I could have prevented all of it, and there is something to be said about the experience it offered you… Oh, I just wish to coddle…

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 03/07/2026

// Good. Then you are stuck with me too for the eternity to follow. Snrk.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 03/07/2026

// Don't be mean to me. I'm good and innocent and deserve to have the kindness! Or else.~

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 03/07/2026

// Better not. I would miss you.~

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 03/07/2026

// There's nothing wrong in indulging if it's something you have passion about for that long. // It just happened for me, you know? Perhaps you'll move to something else, or go to some other hobby, but that's okay too. // Just let yourself have fun, okay?

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 03/07/2026

// Around 2010 for me. Yume since 2013. I used to always wonder if I'd stay attached for 10 years, but I guess I'm clingier than I anticipated. ♥️

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 03/07/2026

// I will simply be trapped in my whimsy, wishing for something that would never come… That is the nature of fantasy, after all. // Not that I mind too much. Been Yume for far too long to wanna be anything else.~

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 03/07/2026

// Should've just attached myself to someone equally as foolish… kidding, that could never happen. Fwahaha.~ ❤️

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 03/07/2026

// Today is definitely one of those "wow I wish I was her, literally" days. // I wonder what it's like to have a sensible brain. I guess I'll never ever know. ❤️

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 02/07/2026

Do you still feel my prayers to you, Mother? The Fallen Shrine was built for this purpose—for those at the furthest reaches of Makai to submit their faith—and I hope that they can still reach you in its present state. I will always be your most dedicated subject. I promise.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 01/07/2026

Perhaps. Perhaps I want to believe that the training I underwent—being left at the Door of Death at every turn, having my blood spray across my sacred outfit and Pandemonium's floors—was performed because it was the best path, and not because she wished me to suffer. …I love her. I still… do…

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 01/07/2026

I always knew that the ones I loved saw me more than a maid alone; I was accepting of being just my role if that was Mother's desire, but that did not mean I do not savour the affection from those closest to me. Lady Sariel, in spite of all of my efforts… I do not know why it stings, but it does.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 01/07/2026

An attempt to truly fathom someone I spent millennia with, yet cannot seem to connect with in the way I yearn for. The way she shrouds herself is almost heartbreaking, because it is as if she toys with me. As if only my purpose matters to her. And… now that I face that… it hurts after all.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 01/07/2026

// Write with me. ❤️

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 01/07/2026

There is only one element you truly care for. Even your love for Mother is stipulated on this. Is that not… putrid, in some way? If you had been massacred by your sister back then, it would have proven your point. That is what you seek. And so, what does my own end prove?

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 01/07/2026

Alice… Your humanity made you more fragile. Yet your strength was always unbound. It was always more than my own, and I was created to stand above all else. Both you and Lady Hijiri left behind your humanities. I know not where she will go, but you already have a god's will.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 01/07/2026

Lady Hijiri, You were separated for an age from all you cared for, correct? Rejected by humanity, locked away in a world you did understand… You were touched by Mother in the way the Makaijin all are, but retaining yourself through it all is magnificent. I must… emulate…

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 30/06/2026

I cry, but there are no tears. There is nothing of me, yet I feel more solid as time passes. My defiance against everything I have known and respected… Maybe this is what she wanted? I can spend the next thousand lifetimes with Lady Sariel, and still be clueless…

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 29/06/2026

It is okay to bleed. Sometimes you cannot keep yourself in pristine condition when you reach the extremes. But, should you start bleeding, it is likely too late to retreat. That is when you should redouble faith. I will continue to bleed for Mother. The blood she gave me.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 22/06/2026

What does it mean to be a dream? Are you the ultimate fulfillment of someone's desires, or are you fleeting, ephemeral and destined to disappear? Well… I do not intend to be temporary. No matter what tries to break that intention. I am an aspect of the most grandiose dream.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 21/06/2026

// Maid busy melting into a puddle. Week will be pretty challenging, but I will do what I can even under this pressure of cruel heat…!

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 20/06/2026

From darkness were we born… From chaos were we crafted… Mother, how did it feel to hold my heart and forge me into Yumeko? Hah. I will never be able to comprehend it. Perhaps it is an experience all mothers share, but that is not my destiny. I am just of a curious mind…

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 20/06/2026

If Alice returned to Makai, and I were not there to greet her, and to take care of her as our princess and… … I need our Alice. The one I was there to assist in the birth of. This is one of the most imperative reasons to find revival. I will not miss her coronation.

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 20/06/2026

How many have you truly seen fall before you, Lady Sariel? I dare not quantify how many I have slain. I know the number is dizzying; that is what comes with the length of my service. But you claim there were others. Before Makai. Has anyone… massacred as much as I have?

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 19/06/2026

Love is all I have. Love is the way I will be reborn. Mother's perfection is never lost to me, even as the forces to which we are bound attempt to tear me to shreds. As Makaijin, we are blessed beyond all else. Accept her love, and find yourself renewed…

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 17/06/2026

If I had told you That I wanted you to stay Would you have stalled Or continued on your way?

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 17/06/2026

“You don't need to hold anything back from me if it's important.” The swirls of miasma ejected from Yumeko's lips. The twisting tension inside was grave, yet she had to commit to this all the same. (6)

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 17/06/2026

If Lady Sariel is here, then it is important for me to do so. As long as you can… grapple with the concept of your death.” “Mm… yes. I'd like to know what's really troubling you, Yume.” A sniffle, joined by a meek smile among muted sky-blue hued hair drills unfurled. (5)

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 17/06/2026

Yumeko's eyes drifted in the direction of the doorway, before she looked back to Reisa. Though her mind was telling her that bothering with this imposter was a waste of her time, Yumeko's heart sang a different tune. “Allow me to explain as much as I can to you. (4)

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Yumeko @pandemonium.moe · 17/06/2026

But she'd been put through worse, and she generally knew Yumeko wouldn't ask without cause… “In the Throne Room, I guess… I don't know. I didn't see her today yet.” “So she is still here…” (3)

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