j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 03/10/2026Rather happy about that last one. Seems like it takes a bit after each medical thingy to pick back up in the writing world (both fiction and non-), so I'm happy to have found my keyboard again in terms of being able to get things out of my head and through my fingers. 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 03/10/2026Haven't posted much over here, but some quick updates: - Drawing again for the Mini-mall's yearly thing. Fun. - Writing little blurbs for each day too for the challenge. Nothing amazing, but they're helping to exercise the creative side of the brain again. - Also Journaling again. 120
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 03/10/20263) Bouncy. Not sure how well the transparency shows up on this one. I'm only giving myself 30-60 minutes to work on these, so this one ended up with a bit of a copy/paste for the bouncing ghost. I *think* I'm getting a better process for these simple animations. #art #procreate #AuGhost2026 020
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 03/10/20262) Anger next. I went with the sort of split mask because, well, anger appears in so many ways but still gets hidden away at times. If you notice, I'm trying to mostly keep with the same brush for each day. #art #procreate #AuGhost2026 110
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 03/10/2026This year I'm trying to keep my own entries pretty simple in terms of composition, but I've given myself the added challenge of doing a little animation. We'll see how well it keeps up. Here's day 1, Breeze. #art #procreate #AuGhost2026 120
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 03/10/2026The mini-mall is doing their late #AuGHOST2026 again this year for October, and we're using the list provided by the @temporaryaughost.bsky.social folks since the dear ones at the main account had to take the year off. (Hope things are going better for you @therealaughost.bsky.social lovelies ) 110
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 02/09/2026And look, I understand where they're coming from. Aorta surgery is no joke, and a big body around it doesn't make surgery and recovery any easier. But I'm still a living person working on this husk. I'm still trying to make things work between the disability, the dysphoria, and everything inbetween. 110
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 02/09/2026To be told that this success is no achievement, that it's not good enough, that all of the weight lose buttons need to be pressed in rapid succession is... it so deflating. I'm not going to stop doing the right thing, it's not making me want to give up. But it is so depressing and infuriating. 110
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 02/09/2026It's... discouraging. The first time in my life I'm seeing not just significant weight lose, but I've kept at it. And I'm not haivng a hard time keeping at it. For some reason looking at the salt thing is so much easier than the counting calorie thing. And the salt is far more restrictive, trust me 110
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 02/09/2026I am adverse to wanting to get the shots they're recommending, but I've already acquiesced to that point. Now they're pushing the bariatric surgery button to go along with it. All while I am successfully losing weight now with the low salt diet I transitioned to last year. 110
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 02/09/2026Feeling briny. Stewing over Doc call yesterday afternoon. The "panel" of doctors debating my aorta condition are doubling down on an issue that's... upsetting to me. I haven't even started the process for the first part they want done, and they're already saying that's not enough. 110
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 28/08/2026Hey, thanks for your discussions over there. I was looking at the game after seeing folks playing it, but the negative reviews and steam comm page posts got me to reverse course. I know it's exhausting but thanks for taking the time to shine the light on these things. 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 24/08/2026Probably spend too much time watching device repair videos, but I'm glad they gave me the general gist of what needed doing. I didn't risk the deep clean scrub out with isopropyl alcohol, but maybe will next time. But yay, repairing a device instead of it becoming plastic waste. 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 24/08/2026Emboldened by having a shiny new one, I took screwdriver and guile to the old. The culprit foiling the devices inners (cat hair and misc.) has been evicted. And behold! I now have two perfectly functioning devices. Going to keep using the new for now but great to know I have backup. 100
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 24/08/2026Have a old trackball ergo that has been acting up. It's a few years old so I figured it was time to replace it (which I did). But I had a dangerous idea on what to do with the old device. 100
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 17/08/2026Oof. Therapy today destroying the mental construct of a parent versus who they actually are. Tiring but also, somewhat freeing. Still doesn't exempt me from an awkward conversation that'll need to happen. 000
Reposted by j samuel diehlInbal Breda @greyannis.bsky.social · 09/08/2026Might as well post it here! A magical girl animation I've been slowly chipping at over the weekends for ages. 8022938110095
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 31/07/2026I love waking up to finding unknown food delivery charges in my acocunt and having a hell of a time contacting a human at a support desk. Super times we live in. 000
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 29/07/2026Feeling a smidge of the creative spark. Pulled out an in-progress story bible for an old thing, and plopped my XIV character down in game to mimic. I don't know why but the externalized character helps me focus. It's sort of like the lo-fi girl thing I guess? 030
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 26/07/2026And here we are again. Surprised how the test was. Most of the LR tests have been harder than their MR base version, but this was the same. 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 20/07/2026Creativity isn't a river that flows on planned engineered clockwork. She is a wild river that moves as she wants. Sometimes that's away from the paths we know, sometimes it's directly against where we're standing. I hear you for feeling like she's flowing away at times. My writing feels that way oft 110
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 19/07/2026Reading someone upset about a new term for a type of wide ranging attraction and then seeing them try to use a Shakespeare quote to backup their justification... Of all the writers to use to backup a claim about "not needing new words," Bill is not the guy. 000
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 08/07/2026With the last update of Warframe indicating the future can bleed into the present, as the past does in the 1999 update; how soon until we meet the third form of our tenno? We have the youth and the adult. The child and champion. When do we meet oldest form? the crone? The corruptor? The calm? 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 30/06/2026Random kvetching, do not parse: We agreed for arrival at one. You got told afternoon appointments are best because I'm nocturnal. Why are you here an hour early? Of course I'm doing poorly on the physical eval, I don't have my meds yet and I've been up five minutes and am quite cranky. *grumbles* 000
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 23/06/2026Early bed tonight. Surgery in the morning, at last. Its been a rough two months, and I see a glimmer of the other side from here. There's more to come in the future (the other kidney and all) but a few weeks of peace will be nice. 000
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 16/06/2026I really wish I had kept that deadjournal. Keep debating paying for a new one. 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 16/06/2026I know it's a season. I keep reminding myself about that. That I'll be past half of these meds, that I won't have a surgery again on the horizon, that things will... settle, I suppose? But I just feel so tired. And I'm tired of hurting and doing the medical merry-go-round again. 110
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 16/06/2026I don't like that right now creativity only seems to want to find me when I'm angry. That the only passion I have is when I'm hurting in my head and trying to not let it turn inwards. That's a hard feat right now. Because oh do those thoughts want to sink into their own gravity wells. 100
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 16/06/2026It's the deep part of the night when I'm in my head. Where the bridge of my mind can link creativity to the waking world but rarely without passengers. Tonight seems to be contempt for my current physical state of affairs. A familiar taste and topic. 100
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 16/06/2026All these pills for prolonging my life, and I am coming to detest them. I loath the feeling of scooping them from their plastic prisons. I recoil at the bitter taste when I take the required handful. But most of all, I hate the smell of them; Chalky, dusty, nerve numbing. Smoldering in disgust. 000
Reposted by j samuel diehlMacaron @macaronstar.bsky.social · 10/06/2026youtu.be/WCA_Rh3YjsA?... Throwing this at you and disappearing so I don't throw up from nerves lmaoyoutu.beSilent Blaze - Kanata Konoe | Song Cover by Macaron StarYouTube video by Macaron Star 142
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 09/06/2026Woo! Final Fantasy Brave Exvius lives! Glad to see they didn't abandon that world when they killed the gacha game. It had a good story, just needed to strip the predatory sales practices from it. youtu.be/wbsfQYI_IIYyoutu.beFINAL FANTASY RESONANCE - Announce TrailerYouTube video by FINAL FANTASY 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 04/06/2026Once I'm done with these prescriptions, I need to try and make myself something special. The antibiotics nuking my taste buds sucks, but it's better than the alternative. 000
Reposted by j samuel diehlOh Joy Sex Toy @ohjoysextoy.bsky.social · 02/06/2026Happy 13th Birthday to Oh Joy Sex Toy! Join our Patreon Pledge Drive this month for BONUS COMICS and to keep the site going for one more year! www.patreon.com/OhJoySexToy 5444198
Reposted by j samuel diehlBriar Darby Sinéad Madarch (fae/it/he) @sineadthefae.bsky.social · 01/06/2024happy pride month (now with alt text) 🌈🌈🌈 541471865
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 02/06/2026Ugh, I'm officially declaring myself a part of the upset tummy club. 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 01/06/2026Still alive, despite the body's attempts otherwise. I'll take it. 000
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 27/05/2026But that icky pneumonia still siting in the bottom of my right lung. Was hoping to get let go today but it really is going to depend on how I react to today's treatment. 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 27/05/2026That hsopital life. So, got back into the hospital again. ER visit Monday morning after chills and high fever (103.5). Developed pneumonia, yay. My surgery was cancelled, so still have the stint in, and the associate pain. And yeah, still in the room today. Fever broke, chills are gone. 120
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 25/05/2026Community night catching Project Hail Mary with friends. Lovely movie. 5/5. No notes. 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 24/05/2026Oh, the video essay in question was @bandsplaining.bsky.social 's "Before Psychedelia, There Was SPACE AGE Music" www.youtube.com/watch?v=wEjW...youtube.comBefore Psychedelia, There Was SPACE AGE MusicYouTube video by Bandsplaining 000
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 24/05/2026Interesting media night. Started with Dating of the Future (neat game so far, loving the writing), and then a video essay on the post war Space Music genre (Neat, weird, sometimes not-so-vaguely racist). Currently listening to Sid Bass's From Another World (1956) www.youtube.com/watch?v=VZvF...youtube.comSid Bass - From Another World (1956, Full Album)YouTube video by Baxterland 100
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 24/05/2026Especially important in places that have rooftop dryer exhaust vents. Those can get really plugged up at times especially after rough weather. 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 13/05/2026What a little cutie! Doing good work while having fun skimming the grains! 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 13/05/2026Thats some atmospheric 90s Vampire The Masquerade level of design. Stunning work! The implied contrast is just striking. 110
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 12/05/2026Alright! Update time! So yes, ER happened twice! I've got new things inside of me helping me deal with things in the Kidney! I've got more surgeries to come! Recovering from the surgery, and dealing with the new body situation. I'm still here, and I'm thankful for that. But no stream tonight, k? 010
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 06/05/2026Hey, so did end up ER visiting. Stones indeed. Meds and fluids for now to see if i can pass this problem child. 110
j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 06/05/2026No streamy tonight. The kidneys are yelling something. Nothing to get worried on, already have med plans about it. 100