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j samuel diehl

@nulloperations.com
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She writes, games, and occasionally streams and podcasts. Might also be a gorgon. blog: hiddennode.com pfp: @skettikritter.bsky.social

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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 03/10/2026
Rather happy about that last one. Seems like it takes a bit after each medical thingy to pick back up in the writing world (both fiction and non-), so I'm happy to have found my keyboard again in terms of being able to get things out of my head and through my fingers.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 03/10/2026
Haven't posted much over here, but some quick updates: - Drawing again for the Mini-mall's yearly thing. Fun. - Writing little blurbs for each day too for the challenge. Nothing amazing, but they're helping to exercise the creative side of the brain again. - Also Journaling again.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 03/10/2026
3) Bouncy. Not sure how well the transparency shows up on this one. I'm only giving myself 30-60 minutes to work on these, so this one ended up with a bit of a copy/paste for the bouncing ghost. I *think* I'm getting a better process for these simple animations. #art #procreate #AuGhost2026
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 03/10/2026
2) Anger next. I went with the sort of split mask because, well, anger appears in so many ways but still gets hidden away at times. If you notice, I'm trying to mostly keep with the same brush for each day. #art #procreate #AuGhost2026
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 03/10/2026
This year I'm trying to keep my own entries pretty simple in terms of composition, but I've given myself the added challenge of doing a little animation. We'll see how well it keeps up. Here's day 1, Breeze. #art #procreate #AuGhost2026
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 03/10/2026
The mini-mall is doing their late #AuGHOST2026 again this year for October, and we're using the list provided by the @temporaryaughost.bsky.social folks since the dear ones at the main account had to take the year off. (Hope things are going better for you @therealaughost.bsky.social lovelies )
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 02/09/2026
And look, I understand where they're coming from. Aorta surgery is no joke, and a big body around it doesn't make surgery and recovery any easier. But I'm still a living person working on this husk. I'm still trying to make things work between the disability, the dysphoria, and everything inbetween.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 02/09/2026
To be told that this success is no achievement, that it's not good enough, that all of the weight lose buttons need to be pressed in rapid succession is... it so deflating. I'm not going to stop doing the right thing, it's not making me want to give up. But it is so depressing and infuriating.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 02/09/2026
It's... discouraging. The first time in my life I'm seeing not just significant weight lose, but I've kept at it. And I'm not haivng a hard time keeping at it. For some reason looking at the salt thing is so much easier than the counting calorie thing. And the salt is far more restrictive, trust me
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 02/09/2026
I am adverse to wanting to get the shots they're recommending, but I've already acquiesced to that point. Now they're pushing the bariatric surgery button to go along with it. All while I am successfully losing weight now with the low salt diet I transitioned to last year.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 02/09/2026
Feeling briny. Stewing over Doc call yesterday afternoon. The "panel" of doctors debating my aorta condition are doubling down on an issue that's... upsetting to me. I haven't even started the process for the first part they want done, and they're already saying that's not enough.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 28/08/2026
Hey, thanks for your discussions over there. I was looking at the game after seeing folks playing it, but the negative reviews and steam comm page posts got me to reverse course. I know it's exhausting but thanks for taking the time to shine the light on these things.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 24/08/2026
Probably spend too much time watching device repair videos, but I'm glad they gave me the general gist of what needed doing. I didn't risk the deep clean scrub out with isopropyl alcohol, but maybe will next time. But yay, repairing a device instead of it becoming plastic waste.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 24/08/2026
Emboldened by having a shiny new one, I took screwdriver and guile to the old. The culprit foiling the devices inners (cat hair and misc.) has been evicted. And behold! I now have two perfectly functioning devices. Going to keep using the new for now but great to know I have backup.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 24/08/2026
Have a old trackball ergo that has been acting up. It's a few years old so I figured it was time to replace it (which I did). But I had a dangerous idea on what to do with the old device.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 17/08/2026
Oof. Therapy today destroying the mental construct of a parent versus who they actually are. Tiring but also, somewhat freeing. Still doesn't exempt me from an awkward conversation that'll need to happen.
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Inbal Breda @greyannis.bsky.social · 09/08/2026
Might as well post it here! A magical girl animation I've been slowly chipping at over the weekends for ages.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 31/07/2026
I love waking up to finding unknown food delivery charges in my acocunt and having a hell of a time contacting a human at a support desk. Super times we live in.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 29/07/2026
Feeling a smidge of the creative spark. Pulled out an in-progress story bible for an old thing, and plopped my XIV character down in game to mimic. I don't know why but the externalized character helps me focus. It's sort of like the lo-fi girl thing I guess?
A screen shot of the video game Final Fantasy XIV, features a female presenting roegadyn character sitting at a desk and working at a a cosmic exploration computer terminal. A blue light emenates from the monitor, illuminating the desk and the woman typing away. The room is mostly wood, with a darker board and batten trim on the wall. The darkened window suggests this picture may have been taken at night in game. The female figure is wearing a loose dress shirt with a dark purple vest. She has an orchid flower in her hair.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 26/07/2026
And here we are again. Surprised how the test was. Most of the LR tests have been harder than their MR base version, but this was the same.
A screenshot of the video game Warframe.

The image shows the end screen of the mastery Legendary 6 test, with a large banner to the right showing the test name, and the rewards: +1 loadout slot, +500 daily standing limit, +5000 daily focus limit, +1 legendary core, +50 void trace storage. Pictured on the left is the warframe Voruna Prime. She is mostly painted black with plum colored accents.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 20/07/2026
Creativity isn't a river that flows on planned engineered clockwork. She is a wild river that moves as she wants. Sometimes that's away from the paths we know, sometimes it's directly against where we're standing. I hear you for feeling like she's flowing away at times. My writing feels that way oft
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 19/07/2026
Reading someone upset about a new term for a type of wide ranging attraction and then seeing them try to use a Shakespeare quote to backup their justification... Of all the writers to use to backup a claim about "not needing new words," Bill is not the guy.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 08/07/2026
With the last update of Warframe indicating the future can bleed into the present, as the past does in the 1999 update; how soon until we meet the third form of our tenno? We have the youth and the adult. The child and champion. When do we meet oldest form? the crone? The corruptor? The calm?
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 30/06/2026
Random kvetching, do not parse: We agreed for arrival at one. You got told afternoon appointments are best because I'm nocturnal. Why are you here an hour early? Of course I'm doing poorly on the physical eval, I don't have my meds yet and I've been up five minutes and am quite cranky. *grumbles*
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 23/06/2026
Early bed tonight. Surgery in the morning, at last. Its been a rough two months, and I see a glimmer of the other side from here. There's more to come in the future (the other kidney and all) but a few weeks of peace will be nice.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 16/06/2026
I really wish I had kept that deadjournal. Keep debating paying for a new one.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 16/06/2026
I know it's a season. I keep reminding myself about that. That I'll be past half of these meds, that I won't have a surgery again on the horizon, that things will... settle, I suppose? But I just feel so tired. And I'm tired of hurting and doing the medical merry-go-round again.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 16/06/2026
I don't like that right now creativity only seems to want to find me when I'm angry. That the only passion I have is when I'm hurting in my head and trying to not let it turn inwards. That's a hard feat right now. Because oh do those thoughts want to sink into their own gravity wells.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 16/06/2026
It's the deep part of the night when I'm in my head. Where the bridge of my mind can link creativity to the waking world but rarely without passengers. Tonight seems to be contempt for my current physical state of affairs. A familiar taste and topic.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 16/06/2026
All these pills for prolonging my life, and I am coming to detest them. I loath the feeling of scooping them from their plastic prisons. I recoil at the bitter taste when I take the required handful. But most of all, I hate the smell of them; Chalky, dusty, nerve numbing. Smoldering in disgust.
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Macaron @macaronstar.bsky.social · 10/06/2026
youtu.be/WCA_Rh3YjsA?... Throwing this at you and disappearing so I don't throw up from nerves lmao
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Silent Blaze - Kanata Konoe | Song Cover by Macaron Star
YouTube video by Macaron Star
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 09/06/2026
Woo! Final Fantasy Brave Exvius lives! Glad to see they didn't abandon that world when they killed the gacha game. It had a good story, just needed to strip the predatory sales practices from it. youtu.be/wbsfQYI_IIY
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FINAL FANTASY RESONANCE - Announce Trailer
YouTube video by FINAL FANTASY
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 04/06/2026
Once I'm done with these prescriptions, I need to try and make myself something special. The antibiotics nuking my taste buds sucks, but it's better than the alternative.
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Oh Joy Sex Toy @ohjoysextoy.bsky.social · 02/06/2026
Happy 13th Birthday to Oh Joy Sex Toy! Join our Patreon Pledge Drive this month for BONUS COMICS and to keep the site going for one more year! www.patreon.com/OhJoySexToy
Erika draws with a bouncy, cartoony style and uses a color palette of warm yellows, oranges, and reddy-pinks. 

"Ahh, summer again!" Exclaims Erika, a white cis middle-age woman in beach attire, which is appropriate since she and her crew are walking on a sandy beach. 

Ahead of her walks Ziggy, a trans man in his 40s with a heavily tattooed arm, gauged ears, and a septum piercing. He wears big round glasses, a Pokemon trainer's baseball hat, swim trunks and a tank top while toting in more beach supplies under his arms.

He adds, "That means sunshine, BBQs, and celebrating-"

"Oh Joy Sex Toy's 13th Birthday!" reads the text on a giant beach umbrella that Matt stakes into the sand. He is a devastatingly handsome white cis British man with salt and pepper hair who has just crossed the threshold into his 40s. He wears square-ish glasses, a t-shirt, shorts, and sneakers.

"We invite you all to chip in to our annual Pledge Drive and support the site this month!" Matt continues. 
"For the price of a fancy coffee-" 

"(or tea)" Erika interrupts.

"(or kombucha!)" Adds Ziggy.

"-you keep the site going AND get access to a bunch of BONUS COMICS that we've been cooking up this last few months.*" Finishes Matt with an iced coffee in his hands while Erika and Ziggy rest under the umbrella, each holding up their own iced tea and kombucha. 

Caption: *In addition to all the previous years' extra stories if you haven't read them yet.
The scene shifts from the beach to show samples of the bonus comics, under a ribbon banner labeled "Preview"

Caption: Ripley LaCross travels through a backpacking retrospective. Hien Pham tackles Hourly Comic Day. Jey Pawlik explores what sketchbooks mean to them.
Surfing in on a wave of comic pages, Matt says, "Last year, we had to consider closing... but with our successful Pledge Drive, instead you all helped us raise our rates to commission 27 new and returning guest artists to publish 52 comics for the site, which now has... gosh, 680 comics, all available for free to the folks who need them."
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Briar Darby Sinéad Madarch (fae/it/he) @sineadthefae.bsky.social · 01/06/2024
happy pride month (now with alt text) 🌈🌈🌈
parody news screenshot showing an elderly pair of gay men and the headline “Does Kink Belong at Pride? We Asked LGBT Elders and They Asked if We Were Cops”. posted 3 years ago by Cam Crawford.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 02/06/2026
Ugh, I'm officially declaring myself a part of the upset tummy club.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 01/06/2026
Still alive, despite the body's attempts otherwise. I'll take it.
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Erika Ishii @erikaishii.bsky.social · 01/06/2026
WHAT DAY IS IT
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 27/05/2026
But that icky pneumonia still siting in the bottom of my right lung. Was hoping to get let go today but it really is going to depend on how I react to today's treatment.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 27/05/2026
That hsopital life. So, got back into the hospital again. ER visit Monday morning after chills and high fever (103.5). Developed pneumonia, yay. My surgery was cancelled, so still have the stint in, and the associate pain. And yeah, still in the room today. Fever broke, chills are gone.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 25/05/2026
Community night catching Project Hail Mary with friends. Lovely movie. 5/5. No notes.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 24/05/2026
Oh, the video essay in question was @bandsplaining.bsky.social 's "Before Psychedelia, There Was SPACE AGE Music" www.youtube.com/watch?v=wEjW...
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Before Psychedelia, There Was SPACE AGE Music
YouTube video by Bandsplaining
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 24/05/2026
Interesting media night. Started with Dating of the Future (neat game so far, loving the writing), and then a video essay on the post war Space Music genre (Neat, weird, sometimes not-so-vaguely racist). Currently listening to Sid Bass's From Another World (1956) www.youtube.com/watch?v=VZvF...
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Sid Bass - From Another World (1956, Full Album)
YouTube video by Baxterland
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 24/05/2026
Especially important in places that have rooftop dryer exhaust vents. Those can get really plugged up at times especially after rough weather.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 13/05/2026
Just living that grain mountain life.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 13/05/2026
What a little cutie! Doing good work while having fun skimming the grains!
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 13/05/2026
Thats some atmospheric 90s Vampire The Masquerade level of design. Stunning work! The implied contrast is just striking.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 12/05/2026
Alright! Update time! So yes, ER happened twice! I've got new things inside of me helping me deal with things in the Kidney! I've got more surgeries to come! Recovering from the surgery, and dealing with the new body situation. I'm still here, and I'm thankful for that. But no stream tonight, k?
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 06/05/2026
Hey, so did end up ER visiting. Stones indeed. Meds and fluids for now to see if i can pass this problem child.
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j samuel diehl @nulloperations.com · 06/05/2026
No streamy tonight. The kidneys are yelling something. Nothing to get worried on, already have med plans about it.
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