iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

azzy 🛸 @nulctrl.bsky.social · 01/03/2025

Also i know im always bitching about this but online did spaces are so fucking annoying and self cannibalizing bc everyone is so obsessed with having their experience categorized as The Most Valid

azzy 🛸 @nulctrl.bsky.social · 01/03/2025

I rly need the losers who get pissy abt other ppls lived experiences if they dont align with a DSM diagnosis to understand that the term "plural" was not made for them

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azzy 🛸 @nulctrl.bsky.social · 28/02/2025

I love this tv show but holyshit it keeps hitting such specific triggers every single week i need to start planning Coping Activities for after i watch it ajfkhskgjskvj

Egge was fun for a day and is now overrun with stan twitter weirdos SAD

i feel so weird and dead whenever i front lately . I feel like i died on that fucking road trip with that guy last summer and im only now realizing it

I dont even feel ownership over memories from others in my subsystem which is not great

i feel like im not processing and storing memories normally lately

Its going pretty great over on the egg app

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My favorite professor is a creep apparently :(((

azzy 🛸 @nulctrl.bsky.social · 26/02/2025

Blehh ill stay up to finish this assignment on time but ill need to skip class tomorrow morning so i can sleep. But thats ok bc i checked the syllabus and we get one free absence a month wheee

azzy 🛸 @nulctrl.bsky.social · 26/02/2025

Omfg i feel so bad for the egge devs suddenly getting flooded with an influx of kinnies you guys we have to behave on there . Ok?

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Im on that app everybody apparently secretly foundout about at theexact same time as me. i dont think giving my username will do anything since u cant search for ppl but if u see me on there you will know its me

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Walkig to art store in a bit to get an xacto and hole punch and some other stuff i need to make chaaaarmssss

I needto play mroe CROSSCODE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They should invent good weather

Really pathetic i cnat stop crying bc i wish my dad didnt abuse me and i wish my family was safe and normal

50/50 chance im having a pmdd moment and my mood gets a lot better in the next week or so. if this isnt the case i have to start lighting things on fire i guess

Jen Cross @jencross.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

Reposted by azzy 🛸

This is a fancy, diurnal, clear-winged moth sipping liquid from a leaf. Moths in this family often resemble stinging insects, but this species didn't get the memo. It went for jungle air-shrimp instead. #Inverts #MothMonday (Euryphrissa sp.) Tatama National Park, Colombia

A moth with fuzzy pantaloons, clear wings, and a fuzzy shrimp-like tail. It is standing on a green leaf, sipping some liquid.

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azzy 🛸 @nulctrl.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

fuck ok i dont like having this specific type of fear in response to [redacted] but maybe tjis is just my default stress response.

I got my homework done yay :) I only have 3 real classes aside from ensembles/lessons this semester and i think it will be so nice to not have a lot of work to do

I wish i had played with my friends this weekend but instead i had a mental breakdown. SAD !

I want to be friends with so many of u people btw but im shy

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Mmkay i did about 75% of my boring sequencing assignment

Soft synth free trials will fix meeeeeeeeee :3

I wish i could have bug pets rn but it just doesnt work with me going back and forth between states every few months -_-

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Okieee lunch time and then ill get started on homework

Jen Cross @jencross.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

Reposted by azzy 🛸

Here is a wee Putnam’s Jumping Spider making herself a cozy little safe space. These cuties can be found in various habitat in the eastern US. #SpiderSunday

A small fuzzy spider with large forward facing eyes. She is perched among green leaves and there are strands of web holding the leaves together.

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I was never supposed to be alive 😁

I need help lol i dont know

I dont think it would matter if i was gone i dont think there are really any reaosons for anybody to like me at all i dont do anything

I might be really insane and offputting for the foreseeable future if thats ok with u guys

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I got asked if i wanted to visit family over spring break and started crying and hyperventilating thinking about having to see my dad so um i think i will be staying here lol

Everything is going to get so much better when the weather is warmer i havbe to believe this

im ok though. Rare emotional regulation W

I love my friends so much and would do literally anything for any of them if they asked but i never reach out first or initiate anything and thats the kind of thing that would make me useful to people . I dont contribute anything. i cant actually communicate meaningfully with other people

well i miss this person so much and when i had the opportunity i did try to communicate how much i like and miss them but i dont think theyre coming back and thats fine. I didnt think thats what they were looking for from that interaction anyway and i know not to chase after people

Confronting an ocd food fear this morning eberyone clap and cheer for me for being really braveys

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Just anothwr beautiful day of understanding The Character

Gets nervous and kills everything cutely

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Impulse ordering a whole printer

azzy 🛸 @nulctrl.bsky.social · 21/02/2025

I can wear them comfortably under a hat which is huugee...And seriously theyre so detailed and even the low end is good enough for me which is crazy bc im picky about bass

azzy 🛸 @nulctrl.bsky.social · 21/02/2025

Probably gonna hop back and forth between this acct and @mdrqnxtagon.bsky.social if we're muts here you're welcome to follow me over there. I repost more bug pictures there too lol

azzy 🛸 @nulctrl.bsky.social · 21/02/2025

I tried to write about thhe thing botheringnme snd instead completely physically froze for half an hour like lost all volition to move Normal reaction to normal experiences