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@noctalgia.space
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i am the feeling of missing the night sky i am the sound of insects and electrical devices genderanarchist they/them 49 disabled mentally ill pdx cascadia art writing cats dumplings catastrophic artist. dm for instagram link

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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 02/10/2026
day date look
just my face
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 02/10/2026
ngl.link/chaosagent1/...
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 01/10/2026
She looks how I feel today Up all night with pain, cats interrupted my sleep with fighting, woke up to cat poop on my bed (fortunately I didn't roll over on it!) Treating the pain with ibuprofen, gabapentin and weed. It's... sorta working. Today is gonna be slooooow.
grumpy looking grey cat stella
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 30/09/2026
Stella is baby.
a velvety grey cat (stella) curled up with her paw against her mouth
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 29/09/2026
so many pellets to keep me upright and moving forward
a dozen or so pills and capsules.
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 29/09/2026
oh co-star...
You probably won't change, but you might become more deeply what you already are.
Stop trying to fix yourself. The qualities that annoy you most are probably the ones that make you interesting. Your scattered attention isn't broken—it's how you process the world.
Lean in.
DO
Happy hour
Faux fur
Disco ball
Don't
Disguises
Exclusion
Performances
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 28/09/2026
i bet you'd be so angry if i told you what a murmuration is.
i bet you'd hate that there's a word you don't know, you'd hate that i know it, and you'd hate that it exists. why not just say, bunch of birds? or flock?
it's more specific. movement. group decisions.
but you don't care about that.
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 27/09/2026
20260927 - knobs-02, knobs-03 #art
an abstract composition of noise and knobs in blues and greensan abstract composition of noise and knobs in magentas and blues
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 27/09/2026
i honestly didn't do a lot besides scroll and post today, first time in a while i've been this blatantly lazy. i also applied to an apartment, took a shower, and kept the cats from getting in too much trouble (moon madness)
blurry jonny with tongue out stella on the computer
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 24/09/2026
The Rouse by China Miéville I'm 350 of 1100 pages in and I'm transfixed!
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 23/09/2026
in washington, visiting M. did a ton of work on the backlogged boxes, and took a big load of stuff to goodwill. good news is i also have tons of clothes to sell! i have a big headache and am going to take tylenol & listen to podcasts, i think
sunset with clouds
green and red leaves tacoma narrows bridge
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 22/09/2026
velvet creature
grey cat stella curled up sleeping
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 21/09/2026
pajama weather!
me in grey pajamas
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 18/09/2026
a commitment (a new china miéville book endorsed by @jeffvandermeer.bsky.social ? even at 1200 pages how could i say no?)
a large book, The Rouse by China Miéville
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 16/09/2026
helping truly is its own reward, for me, but knowing i made a friend's day a little less shitty feels really good.
DM:

Hey dude, thanks so much for everything you did today
You're a great friend and it's so appreciated
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 13/09/2026
first day cool enough to close my window. in my pajamas, cuddling with cat and watching castle rock.
grey cat stella, relaxed
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 12/09/2026
phew.
a negative covid/flu/rsv test
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 12/09/2026
Name a Disney Princess, wrong answers only
camina drummer from the expanse, fist raised
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 11/09/2026
It's suicide awareness day. I've tried to take my own life several times, and had severe ideation for years at a time.
There is no shame in this.
My biggest advice for those at risk is to let your support system know in advance, and tell them what you'd want to hear.
In addition, make a list of your reasons to live - do this when you're okay. Put it where you'll see it.
Lastly, if you do lose someone to suicide? It isn't your fault, that person was ripped from life by an often terminal disease.
Love to you all.
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 10/09/2026
Drop some weapons
jude law holds out a gun shaped item made of bones gun made of bones from the movie existenz
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 09/09/2026
we both look pretty hot tbh
my and my friend looking hot
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 09/09/2026
my bff is such a good model
a beautiful girl in a beret and glasses smokes a cigarette in front of a mermaid statue
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 09/09/2026
feel cute might make you fall in love with me later
meeee blue hair eyeliner
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 08/09/2026
i have her on an actually chicken free food now and she's stopped puking, her appetite is better, and she's generally much happier! i'm using blue buffalo skin and stomach care. it's stella approved 😻
stella enjoying some fish kibble on the very messy pet mat
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 08/09/2026
www.instagram.com/chaotic_zoem would love input from anyone who enjoys my work... thank you!
hey!
if you have a few minutes could you look through my posts & Imk which ones you think i should sell? a V is great a dm with links even better.
thank you!!
sina
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 05/09/2026
texts from me:

"i hope you got your underwear back and escaped

batman"
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 05/09/2026
a year since i started on a year long quest to destroy myself in a variety of ways my hair has grown out i'm 6 days sober we don't talk but occasionally i send texts i've sung a hundred karaoke songs and drank a hundred gallons of beer i made some truly good friends and left others i lived.
me just after shearing, a year agome with blue hair, showing my chest tattoo
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 04/09/2026
late night phone art. my photo + hyperspektiv. text added in picsart
an abstract image in green / faint text says "as above, so below"an abstract image of a glowing ball with indistinct cursive letters overlaid in greena blurry orboriginal photo
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 02/09/2026
from my dawn walk this morning
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 02/09/2026
Without saying your age, what is your favourite movie that came out when you were 20? It was close between Event Horizon and The Fifth Element, to be honest...
a person in a space suit approaches a glowing orbthe late sam neill in a spaceship corridor
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 29/08/2026
it's me and my beautiful lips, which have become my best feature since my eyebrows started wilding out
me,  with lips
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 28/08/2026
smell like the beach, taste like the sea, sand in my shoes - i touched the pacific, and healed myself.
beach and  lifts reflected in the water water exiting land into the ocean sky reflected in the water sky reflected in water
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the memory gun @noctalgia.space · 27/08/2026
look at the moon!
moon over 711moon over traffic signals moon over beautiful apartment building moon over a restaurant
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