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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 13h

<-- guy who is literally about to have a candle-lit bath accompanied by wine and youtube on this monday evening

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 13h

There are some exceptions though like having a bath/shower or lighting candles/incense often helps

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 13h

Not the guy who posted this but tbh I've noticed in general that a sensory-based grounding techniques probably fail for us because my dissociation is often caused by already feeling overwhelmed so adding strong sensory input makes it worse lol

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 23h

Okay ice cube grounding technique does not work for me. Backfired immensely. Now even more dissociated. Noted.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

GODDDD my brain screaming at me to grill my elf at all times like girl I don't have time for that I'm employed

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

*about to talk about feelings of alienation and trying to use academic success as a substitute for my lack of in-person human connection* *remembers I'm the one who split off an entire part of myself to contain those feelings because I couldn't deal with them* *sweats*

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Like idk if I fuck up bad enough to tank my career then that'd be grounds to consider it more seriously but objectively things are going okay at work and a lot of this is just anxiety over inexperience and uncertainty. Outside of work though uhhhhhhh not much else going for me right now tee bee ache

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Well I have some plans in the coming months that I've already paid for so hopefully I can stave off the parts of me that want to [redacted] at least until 2027 but boy life is not making that easy for me. But yknow I haven't hit rock bottom yet. I guess.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I just keep telling myself it's preferable to retail. Which is true for the most part lmao

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I took this job bc its in my field and I like a lot about what I do but god I would prefer something with less responsibility and something with set hours so I could clock out and stop thinking about work

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I'll be honest lads this year had kind of sucked major ass. But I can't afford to have a MH crisis rn so you know how it is.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I'm really hoping next semester will be easier but I'm not optimistic

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Ugh I feel very Not Good (mentally) but I still have to go to work tomorrow so guess I'll die

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I will at least re-read the book chapter we're teaching off of tho lol

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

To their credit Delta and Jaiden both tried to work today but neither could stay present long enough to make any real progress lmao

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Whateverrrr I can't get any work done today my brain is scrambled eggs rn. At least lesson prep is done for one of my classes already so it'll suck but I can get up early and do it for the other one tomorrow. At least I deep cleaned my apartment this weekend.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Yeah :) Would be a shame if anyone fiscally supporting him that didn't happen to be on bsky somehow missed out on knowing about it.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Lowkey I'm surprised he actually did get dropped from Nebula I wasn't expecting him to face any real consequences LOL

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Like yeah nobody needs to wear a fucking scarlet lettre about their past crimes but also it makes a meaningful difference if someone is gaining social capital whether or not they have a history of sexual violence come on. There is a middle ground btwn death penalty and zero social consequences

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Like I used to watch James Somerton too but you don't see the same kind of hand-wringing when his plagiarism & scamming got exposed do you. Not that I'm at all interested in defending him either but just like hmmmm the difference in reaction is curious

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

It's disappointing and I feel on some level that my trust has been violated, I think those are reasonable emotions to be feeling, but idk man there's other youtubers 😭 why are so many people bending over backwards to say this isn't that bad and that his career getting a dent in it is "too far"

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Obvs I'm making a personal choice to no longer engage with his work even tho I quite enjoyed his media analysis in the past but like we don't gotta act like he was the best to ever do it what the fuck is up with everybody being like "oh no how will I move on from this"

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Like okay due to some things in my own past I'm not one to leap to immediately believing accusations I see on the internet but like. It's on legal record and he admitted to it. Is deplatforming someone not the appropriate outcome in this? Its not like he's going to jail.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

As usual I have been trying to hold myself back from publicly weighing in on the discussion for the sake of my own mental wellbeing but goddddd some of the shit I've seen wrt [popular youtuber whose work I previously enjoyed] is deranged.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

I have three more bracelets to make the rest of you can hold your damn horses

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Holding front with an iron fist until I finish my arts and crafts project

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

I am literally just having fun here but sure be a kill joy

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Remaking the front bracelets again since the necklaces were too inconvenient and we realized which beads were irritating our skin and I started pulling out letters to spell Obsidian's name and he was like "if you make me one of those stupid things I will destory it" like okay whatever man!

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

And I did not drink a 2nd energy drink today bc last time somebody complained about it LOL but I WAS tempted

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

I don't even think this is an age thing bc this shit's been happening to me since at least high school. Maybe its my posture.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Anyways as nice as they looked sorted by colour it was too hard to tell the different styles of them (matte, glossy, UV reaction, etc.) so I resorted them by type.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

I need to get like. One of those floor cushions w arm rests or whatever. Do they make those in adult sizes

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Spent like 3 hours resorting my beads again instead of actually crafting but I was watching some fun lets plays so all is well. I'm too much of a wuss to play scary games so I let the funny youtube people do it for me

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

I ❤️ sitting on ⬇️ the floor but ☝️ my back ❌ does not ❌ 💔💔💔

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

"Sorry for being absent I've been at war with myself" etc etc

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Having an especially chaotic brain day it seems.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Strictly speaking *I* never agreed to the "no shittalking" rule. But I don't even consider this shittalking.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

@ the peanut gallery I know I'm not being nice. Delete these later if you wish.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

IIRC we determined it's also responsible for a lot of our dissociative fugue episodes. Some of which we were not sober for. So that's fun.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Apparently every time he fronts he immediately tries to get wasted. Or will backseat other parts into doing that. What is his problem.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

DID is such a ridiculous disorder what do you mean the snow leopard is the one with the drinking problem. Salem and Topaz were blaming each other back and forth for months about that.

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Sorry for posting and then immediately deleting like a dozen tweets in the past hour would you believe that talking about my psychosis is causing one of my paranoid parts to be paranoid

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

My life is out here looking like a Zero Escape flowchart

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Overdosed on Yaoi Cocaine @morphomemeticfield.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

I guess it's kind of interesting also that Jade and Rin fusion was going across different "branches" but still worked out pretty okay. Ofc we didn't realize that at the time bc we still had zero communication with Krystal (who helped clear up a lot of confusion / uncertainty wrt this)

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