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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 08/08/2026

Trauma survivors can be real good at staying calm while everyone else is losing their goddamn minds-- & losing our goddamn minds when things actually slow down around us. Which can get complicated, when we start healing & the default drama level in our life starts to level out.

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 08/08/2026

i can tell i'm back on that symptom grindset because i keep having those full body shudders when we switch

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 18/07/2026

>get worried about splitting a moxie >"ugh what if we have ANOTHER customer service guy that would suck a lot" >think about it too hard >suddenly compelled to do work when i've been avoiding it all day >remember what friend said about how not proxying for a while precedes a split OKAY.

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 07/07/2026

post-hangout crash is bad tonight.

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cuteosphere @cuteosphere.bsky.social · 15/04/2026

Note: please remember our art is not a diagnostic tool. It is simply us sharing our experiences. Thank you. Understanding #brainbunnies

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 23/06/2026

my distress tolerance is thru the flooooooooooooor todaaaaaaaaay

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cuteosphere @cuteosphere.bsky.social · 19/06/2026

Make a movie of this one please

>straight boy
>about 5’5 but I don’t let it get to me
>meet a 6’5 guy at a camp that I work as
>we have to move a bunch of boxes
>I pick one up, trip and fall
>”don’t be such a silly little boy”
>instant throbbing boner

Fuckfuckfuck please don’t be gay I don’t want to be gay what does this mean

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cuteosphere @cuteosphere.bsky.social · 19/06/2026

CW: discussion of eating disorder & bullying Supposed to like it #brainbunnies

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 19/06/2026

at least i have you, prism

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 19/06/2026

tried out florality and MAN it somehow manages to feel like a cheap knockoff of pluralspace despite having paid tiers

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 11/02/2026

One of the most recovery supporting things you can do for yourself online is mute, unfollow, & block social media accounts that distract you from your recovery work-- that only piss you off, frustrate you, preoccupy you. Just do it. Life's too short & recovery is too important.

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Criss "The Crisses" Xes @thecrisses.bsky.social · 08/02/2026

When working by committee (and literally on boards of directors), I prefer a clear meta-discussion of “what are we doing here” to make sure goals are aligned. Otherwise “too many cooks” and long debates and arguments are inevitable. Pro tip for plurals: you’re running a whole life by committee.

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 05/02/2026

i feel deeply bitter writing this stupid Thing for my job for valentine's day while my grandmother is dying in front of me. like what do you even do but laugh. the love in my heart is a dam forced through a straw

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 29/01/2026

Experiences of pleasure & life enrichment aren't the "reward" for having "conquered" trauma-- they're tools for recovering from trauma. Eating well, learning things worth learning, & feeling sparks & spikes of pleasure, are the path, not the goal.

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 24/11/2025

Trauma Brain will try to get you to dismiss recovery tools like self-talk, visualization, & purposeful breathing as "silly" or weak sauce or otherwise not worth trying-- but don't let it trick you into assuming that because a tool sounds "simple," it's superficial or ineffective.

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 24/11/2025

CPTSD is like someone in your ear, 24/7, listing all the ways you suck, & anyone who says you don't suck doesn't "really" know you, & you may as well not try to not suck, because you just SUCK so much. And they don't shut up & they don't get tired & they don't stray off message.

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 19/11/2025

sometimes i find out people have me blocked on my other accounts and i get curious and every time without fail it's like yup i would hate you if we ever met properly. blocking was a good idea i'm glad people do it

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Ness 🟡⚪🟣⚫ @nesstheenby.bsky.social · 08/11/2025

Being a headmate is weird because sometimes you pick up an object and are hit with the realisation that this thing you use every single day predates your existence as an individual

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 08/11/2025

did a scary thing (sent my first invoice for my new job)

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 07/11/2025

funniest part of DID is when it turns out some guy i knew like 4 years ago has a grudge against me and i have zero recollection of who they are

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 01/11/2025

Everyone feels child-like when an emotional flashback hits. There's no need for shame, & no "shoulds" when it comes to reactions we don't choose & are actively woking to manage. Meet those reactions w/ compassion & patience-- you know, those things you needed as a child.

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 05/11/2025

my brain is like a sieve that everything falls out of UNTIL it finds something to ruminate on

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 31/10/2025

no one told me that the price of getting a job i really like is intense thoughts of self-sabotage

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 28/10/2025

Starting over after we relapse or otherwise crash isn't a "failure." Trauma Brain is going to try to frame it as a "failure," but it's actually evidence of enormous maturity & commitment. So it was a sh*t day or night. Do the next right-- i.e., recovery supporting-- thing.

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 28/10/2025

They're going to tell you "it must not be that bad," because you're "functioning" at a "high" level-- because they don't understand dissociation. Their ignorance is what it is-- but don't let your "functionality" convince you "it must not be bad." You know it's not that simple.

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 28/10/2025

i really have no idea what to Do when one part of my trauma brain is crying for reassurance and the other part is horrified of being perceived

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 28/10/2025

frustrated. was having such a good day but then i came home from group therapy and got triggered three different ways in like four hours and i'm just running out of coping mechanisms

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 27/10/2025

We're going to have imperfect moments because we're human-- & our trauma conditioning is going to both make those moments even cringier, & try to convince us we "can't" be forgiven for or rebound from them. Prove your CPTSD wrong by being relentlessly gentle & fair to yourself.

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 26/10/2025

CPTSD survivors w/ a history of being gaslit & coerced need to be very intentional w/ how we consume & engage on social media. Influencers & algorithms are not "neutral," & often don't value our emotional or intellectual autonomy. Notice how you feel & focus as you scroll.

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 25/10/2025

99% of posters stop right before they post through it. as your lawyer please keep posting through it

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 25/10/2025

Something you're going to notice as you work your trauma recovery: being reflexively silent because you're intimidated or in a "freeze" response feels very different than choosing silence because you're opting out of a toxic exchange that doesn't support your recovery.

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 25/10/2025

giving myself a gold star every time i practice my dbt skills instead of doing soemthing wildly self destructive past midnight

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kafkaesque transfag @plagueground.bsky.social · 15/10/2025

my toxic trait is that i'm gonna kill you and kill you and kill you and kill you and kill you and kill you and kill you and kill you and kill you

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 14/10/2025

Beginning meditation can be rough for CPTSD survivors, for some of the same reasons falling asleep is rough. Our head's full of chatter (or worse), & we don't love surrendering "control." Don't force it. Start w/ tiny increments of gently focused attention, & build up slowly.

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 14/10/2025

Dissociation-- up to & including DID-- is more common that the culture around us will ever want to admit. Talking & working w/ our "parts" does not make us some kind of "fragile" weirdo. It makes us realistic & adaptable in designing a recovery & a life.

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 13/10/2025

dandys world is so fun but its literally a machine that turns me into dissociative soup

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Ness 🟡⚪🟣⚫ @nesstheenby.bsky.social · 12/10/2025

I think if you are self aware enough to recognise that you are having The Mental Health Disorder, the disorder should just give up, throw it's hands in the air and go "you got me" and leave

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 03/10/2025

Trauma Brain tries to convince us that basic self-care, like feeding ourselves, hydrating, cleaning & organizing our space, & managing our money, is "pointless"-- as if they have nothing to do w/ our safety, stability, or cognitive/emotional load. Don't bite. Just do your best.

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 03/10/2025

We're just never gonna realistically recover from trauma as long as we prioritize being "perfect"-- especially our bullies' & abusers' standard of "perfect'-- over being authentic. Breathe, blink, focus, & be you-- not who they told you you "had" to be.

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 03/10/2025

One of the biggest threats to our trauma recovery is going to be people who refuse to work their own trauma recovery-- & who try to outsource their emotional regulation to us. People who aren't taking their own recovery work seriously won't take our work seriously either.

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aster ! 🔞 @wizards.love · 03/10/2025

program that matches up persecutors with masochists in other plural systems

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 02/10/2025

Like okay fine maybe I'm locked in another self-criticism spiral leave my ass alone

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 02/10/2025

A weird side effect of starting group therapy is that now people in here are weaponizing our therapist's words against each other <- Just got told "oooh I'm sensing some judgment"

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Dr. Glenn Patrick Doyle @drdoylesays.bsky.social · 29/09/2025

Acknowledging our pain or vulnerability is not "surrendering" to it-- it's the first, necessary step toward realistically transforming any of it. We're not "whining" or "ruminating"-- we're strategizing. The art of war involves knowing our opponent w/o illusion.

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kulupu @kulupu.leoweo.ooo · 29/09/2025

today maddie got us coffee with our lunch and i hate it sooo much but she likes it so we're just sitting here drinking it with crazy mixed emotions

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