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@jestherbeck.com
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systems admin & wannabe music maker // anti-imperialist anti-capitalist and anti-borders the heart of a child and the wit of a transsexual (she / her)

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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 04/10/2026
the vibes rn
shirt screenprint of a girl smoking. the smoke is compromised of the words 
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 03/10/2026
really soothes the soul to browse and pay more than ticket price for local and indigenous art
prints, zines and stickersmore prints, stickerseven more, with one supporting a free palestinesome books and more prints
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 03/10/2026
psa: do ur shotttt
hrt box next to a circular bandage on a thigh post-injection.
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 25/09/2026
you can in fact get good quality speakers for cheap lmfao polyphia fans are fans the same way that taylor swift fans are istg
polyphia youtube comments for WITH EYES TO SEE bitching about 'clipping' when 1000% they're listening on their civic or cellphone's crackly-ass speakers
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 24/09/2026
instead of buying bonanza i uh
101% file of dk64 on jess' switch 2 because she felt kinda sad and wanted to hurt but in a deeper sense and so burned 30 hours on a collectathon that doesnt track a very common collectsble (the coins) and whose rare coin is so much easier than its nintendo coin i swesr to god
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 23/09/2026
timeline day? cool cool cool
jess (beard era)jess (dress arc)
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 23/09/2026
im maia('s customer) @crimew.gay i love it its so perfect
jess wearing maia arson crimew merch 

"Map Your Network" sweater is so comfy in an XL (im usually a small)
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 22/09/2026
moments before i get absolutely destroyed (two artists collaborating on my back piece today!!)
jess' as-of-yet untouched back
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 08/09/2026
its always cool to give trans women money
my receipt of a knit map your network xl sweater for coziest winters at work as a noc manager + stickers to deploy strategically at work and home
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 31/08/2026
holy shit check this out
koi
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 29/08/2026
i think weaponized borders are bad regardless of who is victimised and what they did
Norman Rockwell's Freedom of Speech painting
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 16/08/2026
hyped as fuck for the porch light show in november, proper basement bash
receipt for Porch Light tickets
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 14/08/2026
setting my priorities now that im approaching 30
jess' banking app showing three accounts. the first two are nicknamed:

Fwoot Gummi (Chequing)
Hookers & Blow (TFSA)
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 11/08/2026
feeling cute, might float away like a feather in air, drifting away from the hurt and despair later
jess selfie in a feather patterned shirt
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 09/08/2026
this felt targeted, spirit halloween 😔
Harry Potter shit on the same corner with the amazing digital circus
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 09/08/2026
Cthulhu says trans rights
Cthulhu saying trans rights
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 03/08/2026
the antidote to this re-litigation of COVID is reading "The Future is Disabled" by Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha its full of stories, songs and remonders of the efforts esp. bipoc queer disabled communities made to take care of each other when the govt. explicitly decided they were disposable.
The cover of THE FUTURE IS DISABLED by LEAH LAKSHMI PIEPZNA-SAMARASINHA
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 03/08/2026
im a fucking liar im so sorry
sleeby cat
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 02/08/2026
hey did you guys know its Buy Trans Women Audio Gear Month? i would love one of these please 🥰🤗😍😚
A listing for the Roland GO:Mixer Studio Audio Interface, a mobile-friendly multi-input audio mixer.
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 31/07/2026
holy shit peak is coming to the switch i played this back in fucking 2006/7 fiesta.gamigo.com/us/news/fies...
quite possibly the worst official game art for a 20 year old continuously updated mmo you've ever seen. im not going to explain, its anime and they're playing switches and it's incoherent and i love it
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 31/07/2026
our neighbour's pear tree brings all the skunks to the yard 🤙
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 30/07/2026
dawg i tried to get one of those transphobia exemptions to play wizerdle with my favorite mormon gameshow host but The Trans Community™ is just uhhh playing nice and offering to make out sloppystyle
trans community c:
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 25/07/2026
tag yourself im indiana
a map of america divided into a yoga popularity and gun ownership matrix. the plot's extremes are labled Peaceful and Flexible, Neither Prepared Nor Relaxed, Armed and Agitated, and Armed and Centered.
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 25/07/2026
call me gullible but this exchange was a nice balm in current climate
VGEsoterica:

The page makes no mention of it no

Kaptajnen:

Btw, I'm not trying to throw you under the bus here or anything, mate.

You were hoodwinked exactly like I was.

And I DID check other places as well, and as you said, none of them were clear or upfront about A.I being involved whatsoever.

VGEsoterica:

No worries I know :) I don't like it either. I tell people if it does or does not use Al. I don't like being tricked. Or dudes language.

Kaptajnen:

Let's hope that if anything good comes out of this, it's that it might potentially motivate and inspire someone else to make their real
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 25/07/2026
im so fucking FLUFFY
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 24/07/2026
handful of pussy as a bonus!
jess being cute in a dress
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 24/07/2026
dang Chicago you're pretty
chicago skyline as seen from a restaurant
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 24/07/2026
my guy is uhhh oceans 11 man
Oceanus Parks

Cold Wheelwright

he/him

Chevron moustache

will infodump about urban architecture at the drop of a hat

mostly reads heist novels
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 16/07/2026
hi sorry to interrupt
jess is making a face like hi ✌️🤩 sorry i saw you from across the restaurant and i gotta say the food you ordered looks 👀 REAL GOOD 👍👍 may i please have a bite
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 16/07/2026
or carnally i guess, i mean hi(:
jess wearing a striped tank, taking a bathroom selfie
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 07/07/2026
3 beds just for me!! chicago moots, who wants the top bunk(:
a hotel room with concrete walls and a loft bed
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 04/07/2026
god meccha chameleon is so much fun - try and find me in this!
a screenshot of meccha chameleon where the map is a pokemon-themed museum
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 03/07/2026
prevagen is uh
Apoaequorin is an ingredient in Prevagen, which is marketed by Quincy Bioscience as a memory supplement. In 2017, the US Federal Trade Commission (FTC) charged the maker with falsely advertising that the product improves memory, provides cognitive benefits, and is "clinically shown" to work.[38][39] According to the FTC, "the marketers of Prevagen preyed on the fears of older consumers experiencing age-related memory loss". Quincy said that it would fight the charges.[40][41]

Prior to the suit, a clinical trial run by researchers employed by Quincy Bioscience "found no overall benefit compared to a placebo for its primary endpoints involving memory and cognition", while the company's advertising misleadingly cited a few contested subgroup analyses that showed slight improvements.[42][43]

The suit (Spath, et al. v. Quincy Bioscience Holding Company, Inc., et al., Case No. 18-cv-12416, D. NJ.) was dismissed in the District court, but an appeal seeking to overturn the dismissal was filed. The suit was consolidated with another against Quincy
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 02/07/2026
Pagliarani buddy, dont you see how "the pope is on the wrong side" is in contradiction with papal infallibility?? if he says youre being a prick, you dont have a comeback except literal "mea fucking culpa im a moron"
"We are accused of not respecting the pope," Pagliarani said. "But it is precisely because we love the pope as the vicar of Christ, as the head of the church, that we don't want to see the pope humiliated anymore, on the side of false shepherds representing false religions."
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 20/06/2026
casting a spell for the girlies today after i find my lighter pic of candle unrelated
a candle in a jar with the label "trans magic". theres a vial on the label. in the background there is marijuana and a grinder
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 19/06/2026
some of yall looking to catch these hands fr
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 18/06/2026
still cute as fuck tbh
jess' lip piercings
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 16/06/2026
hmm wonder what the discourse is this afternoon 🧐🤔🤔
[Three separate posts on a bluesky timeline]

cedar longpenis:
i know a guy who died on DIY testosterone. he got so horny he exploded

francis:
if you touch a vial of DIY T you get a boner so big and hard that it explodes and you die immediately

Claire, Boob Haver:
alright campers today's challenge is to get through the next 24 hours without having to hear another made up story about diy
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 14/06/2026
shrimp with a shrimp hat hat
hat with a shrimp on it. the shrimp on the hat is also wearing a hat. the hat that the shrimp is wearing on the hat also has a shrimp on it. it is a shrimp with a shrimp hat hat.
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 13/06/2026
weeeeeeeeeeeee
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 12/06/2026
the purple haired character is allegedly a boy but i still cant see it tbhhhhh
hikaru no go fan arthikaru no go cover art
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 10/06/2026
This is, plainly speaking, genocide. Puberty blockers are the Faustian stop-gap negotiated under duress. Hormones for one's desired puberty remains the only humane medical assistance for trans people, myself included. www.engage.england.nhs.uk/consultation...
Current treatments

NHS England commissions the specialist NHS Children and Young People's Gender Service.

The service provides a focus on psychosocial, psychological and psychoeducational support following individual and family assessment. The aim of psychosocial interventions is to alleviate gender-related distress and any co-occurring difficulties (Taylor et al, 2024). Medical intervention is not the standard approach.

What we have decided

NHS England has carefully considered the evidence reviews conducted by Solutions for Public Health (2026) and has identified and reviewed any further published evidence available to date. We have concluded that there is not enough evidence to support the safety or clinical effectiveness of feminising and masculinising medicines to make the treatment routinely available to children and young people at this time. This includes both individuals who identify with a binary, or a non-binary gender.

Links and updates to other policies

This document supersedes the following policy:

Clinical commissioning policy: prescribing of gender affirming hormones (masculinising or feminising hormones) as part of the children and young people's gender service (March 2024)

This document relates to the specialised service for Children and Young People with Gender Incongruence:

Interim Service Specification for specialist gender incongruence services for children and young people

And the following policy:

Puberty suppressing hormones (PSH) for children and young people who have gender incongruence / gender dysphoria [1927]

Policy review date

This document will be reviewed when information is received which indicates that the policy requires revision. If a review is needed due to a new evidence base then a new Preliminary Policy Proposal needs to be submitted by contacting england.CET@nhs.net.
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 09/06/2026
what the actual fuck, linkedin
A screenshot from jess' linkedin timeline that reads as follows:

Connor Holliman
i'm still hurting from being laid off

as one of my ex-colleagues put it, "it's like being broken up with but yo...[more button with the text "more"]

Lawrence Fact replies:
My ex-wife taught me that some endings feel less like a decision and (the remaining portion is cut in half) more like a verdict you were not invited to hear. Being laid off can carry(the rest of the message is missing.)
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 06/06/2026
ive been stereotyped (positive) as the tranny dj for a wedding but we didnt have a usb-c to 3.5mm adapter also the bridal party wanted coffee drinks lmfao
just a fuckton of starbucks bottled fraps, an extension cable and a usb c adapter
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 31/05/2026
holy shit guys i think im trans
a whole bunch of trannies, anarchists, a baseball fanatic, and also alec technology connections
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 31/05/2026
everyone say good job for my garden though i swear to god
jess' flower garden with several new perennialsjess' older flower garden with rosss, creeping jennies and a bunch of other stuff
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 31/05/2026
wtfffff i hate puppygirls fr!!! a roving pack of them just came and tore up my yard 😭😭😭🤬🤬
a photo of jess' backyard grass with holes and ripped turf. in the background there are a pile of weeds, but thatd ruin the joke if i pointed that out
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 31/05/2026
ty for the reaction image ill be using for the next 10 years 🫂❤️
someone that the poster is texting is quote-replying their own text that read "Do you still wanna have sex with me?" with "Circling back to this"

this implies that the person did not receive an adequate answer, possibly due to the fact they were On Their Bullshit when they asked previously. the use of corpo-speak like "circling" evokes a sense of formality meant to cloak the desperation the person feels in once again bringing sex up. perhaps they had just balanced the risk of not letting this go and were still ensure of their standing but thought they had less to lose by returning to the gambit.
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 30/05/2026
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j.esther @jestherbeck.com · 28/05/2026
lol. lmfao even.
jess' dead brother
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