iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Hopefully that helps… like I very much see where the similarities to disassociation come in, but trauma disassociation is different in the way that a helium balloon isn’t a rocketship. Both are Outside the Self but one still hasn’t “left orbit” of the gravity/atmosphere of the ego to see outside it.

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I’ve watched a friend go thru ego death. They couldn’t talk; talking requires distinguishing your body/tongue/mind as 1 entity, inhabiting that entity, having thoughts, telling it to speak. They are in a state much like an astronaut outside the planet; they’d need to first “land” back in their body.

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If you have depersonalisation without the sense of transcendence that’s often called the “dark night of the soul” and considered like… the ego death han’t been integrated. Ego death is a specific journey with an end point, a return; not a perpetual state of being.

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

It is both different from disassociation (associated with childhood trauma) and can also contain elements of it. In ego death there is often a sense of merging with the universe/the divine, transcending the boundaries of 1 body/mind. Being one with every rock & stars all at once.

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Maybe he just needs a few different angles rather than one perfect song? I don’t think many songs hold that particular mix of arrogance & yearning together at once But to add to suggestions: Lick U Clean by Kidneythieves I think captures Ares trying to lure Xena back to her warrior ways

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Yeah I feel about games the way a lot of people feel about movies. Gamers and movie buffs both make them an identity but they don’t have to be an identity to be enjoyable or have value. And something doesn’t have to last forever to have been worthwhile. If it was good at the time, that’s good enough

Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

Yeah honestly it’s a train wreck that’s hard to look away from so i get it. Does give very little back as an activity 😅🤷

Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I hiiighly recommend Mortal Engines if they like adventure/action and stories that don’t require female protagonists to be pretty to have value. I think it’s prime content for ages 13-16 especially but i sometimes re-read as an adult and still have a good time.

Urban Truth Collective @urbantruth.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

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Have you got a photo or image that really illustrates the #WarOnWalking, at any scale and in any context? Send it to us and we might turn it into another poster in this series. Thanks! #UrbanTruth

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Deleted some thoughts- I veered off target. It’s an evocative topic. Article is written by one with experience who is perhaps trying to place the alternate world of madness into a non-pathologised context & I appreciate that has value. Just: surely people are tired of the male-only shadow-plays.

Philosophy is well-known as a profession that relies on privilege and power to pursue. The domestic caretaking required to pass through madness & back out again is significant. Meanwhile, feminist philosophers are so often forced to reclaim our mental freedom from the assignation of domestic labour

It’s really interesting to me that every philosopher I recognised in this piece is male. Not that female philosophers are immune to professional risks but it recalls to mind Lord of the Flies as a hypothesis not on children’s behaviour, but specifically of privileged male behaviour.

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Incredible 😂 when/where was this one made?

Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

Ohhh… don’t tempt me with a good time…

Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

Character playlists are fun :D Oops! Thanks, hehe

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

This is Love by Air Traffic Controller is also a fun one… Throne by Saint Mesa if you want something a little darker, perhaps :)

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

Oooh… Psycho - Lauren Aquilina (for Aries’ girliepop heartbreak energy) Die Young - Ke$ha (more girliepop, something about a war god’s favourite kind of devotees in here) Conqueror - Aurora - again, more Aries pining for Xena, nicely themed

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

I think it’s why conventions are such good roleplaying spaces, because they’re contained away from regular life which helps uphold the magic circle. But my regular groups, we depend on the OOC chatter, or debriefs at pub afterwards the same length as the game, where we go be ourselves together.

Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

Yeah totally. I think of it often as a natural limitation of the magic circle. Like an enchanted forest, you can go there & be transformed together, but you can’t live there. You need normalcy, the work of the everyday, where you implement the transformations and make the lessons mean something.

Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

If you do take a break this year, i hope you can find ways to stay connected regardless :)

Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

There’s pathways it offers to be new selves with old friends; to collaborate & decorate time together with play. Which I think has a lot to offer for friends who are caught up on one’s news, just want to coexist & grow together. But w/out time together outside play, the self can feel neglected.

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

There’s definitely times when I feel that too - where I need to be “me” and to feel accepted as just that - I do think it’s coincided strongly with depression; & in those states, routine, rigid social behaviour structures can turn into stifling obligation. Breaks are important, then.

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

Haha yes! ☺️🫶 She was friends with my grandmother, also a children’s book author, which is part of how it happened. Both women are in their 90s now & in their twilight, so it’s been a while since my family’s had contact with her. Bless her, she helped my mum at a tough time! It takes a village & all.

Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

They’re just shorts - the algorithm factors the format, and they’re easier to rewatch, boosting the numbers. Silly shit in general tends to do better numbers than more serious art though, in my experience 😅

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

It’s all a shell game anyway because the free dental clinics already exist, they just have massive waitlists and staff shortages due to a lack of competitive wages. They’ll pump in the bare minimum lifeboat funding to stop the clinics running further into the ground & consider that a promise kept

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

That all sounds really lovely! It’s wonderful when change makes tangible widespread improvements for everybody long term ☺️

Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

On the one hand it fills me with peace that so many tiny little things peacefully + silently cooperate on the fundamentals of living, and have done so for millennia, & I’d like to keep that energy going But there’s still the cosmic horror of Knowing & being unable to truly comprehend its scale

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

Also, dragons cool as hell 🙂‍↕️

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

And then there’s “what is monstrous?” - familiarity found in misunderstood villains for the marginalised. Particularly relatable to people pleasers is the monster whose natural needs are at odds with others - when we’ve been made to feel monstrous for having our own needs, it’s a mirror to the self

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

Reminds me of a comment thread I saw full of ppl talking about being kidnapped by their parents’ drug dealers, who treated them better than their parents 😮‍💨 that in these stories of rescue from a “monster” there is a sense of the familiar, of something reachable, something from our own dark worlds.

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Martin Greenaway @mgreenaw.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Yeah so just your reminder that cloud storage isn't and never has been *YOUR* storage. If someone doesn't want you to have something, Google *CAN* (and apparently will) delete it for them first and ask questions later.

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

However long it’s been, I can still feel humbled in my trauma healing journey by the casual reflexive kindnesses of people who grew up fully loved & supported. Like the phrase “let’s find out together” 😭 straight to the soul, that one.

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Only 15 minutes, but that feels like an eon even you’ve got to pack up on time to keep good with the venue 🤪 the sobering realities of healthy logistics is a very effective closer 😅

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Players never wanting to be limited by time is so relatable… 😂 I guess, when your players go wild and want to live in the magic circle of play forever, you know you’ve got ‘em good, as a GM in any format 🙂‍↕️😅

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

Thinking strongly about the saying “not every game is for every one”

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

Mmm yes. Many whole & fragile multidisciplinary systems needed both in process, & in end result. And without a vision how can success reaching that vision be measured, or how far its fall? Game design is so often a team sport too… so many ways it fundamentally differs as an activity.

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Ketan Joshi @ketanjoshi.co · 14/08/2026

Meta is so unbelievably evil. They make a technology primarily designed to enable abuse, harassment and privacy violations, but also embed real disability aids. The tactic now is to use an entire community as human shields to defend against criticisms www.engadget.com/2236054/meta...

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

They’ve had multiple seasons of dealing with difficult issues…! They just do it with hope! It sounds like some people need to re-check their definition of toxic positivity 🤪 I am looking forward to it too

Corey Brickley * Blight's Hollow Dot Com @coreybrickley.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

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giving a subtle thumbs up of encouragement when the crown prince hesitates in the moment before he must ritually sacrifice me

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Ketan Joshi @ketanjoshi.co · 05/08/2026

Data centres are hell-bent on further bloating their already-massive energy hunger. The fact they mostly fake support new renewables is part of what makes them such a huge threat to climate goals and such a warm friend to fossil fuels. New vid + piece here: thepoint.com.au/opinions/260...

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

They’ve accepted it fine so far. Many know on some level that knowledge is one of the keys to class liberation, it’s how they or their kids (like me) have gotten opportunities. But admitting misunderstanding is difficult. It takes some careful discussion when about online disinformation campaigns.

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It wasn’t “left out”. Please don’t jump to assuming my own class/disability status and how it informs my perspective.

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I struggle to imagine how the conversations I had to have with my own community and peers would have gone any easier if I had called them stupid instead.

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As a working class person with mental health issues, who talked directly with neighbours taken in by this exact conspiracy after lockdowns - expressed genuine fear & powerlessness behind it - how is it not ableist or classist to call them “stupid” and “gullible” instead of attending to their needs?

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Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

It’s not by coincidence that such conspiracies are associated with working class people vulnerable to mental health problems. It is easier to throw stones than to unpack. The best inoculation for communities against conspiracy is education; the second best is compassion.

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She always purrs quietly, a little unevenly, crackling; which makes her sound like the embers of a very small fire, banked low. Of course with those little dashes of flame in her dark fur, it completes the illusion

Rhydian @indigodecay.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

The elegant little princess and her incredible pink snoot

Lock screen screenshot. A photo of a fluffy cat perched on a velvet beanbag with her paws neatly extended together, to the side, while her eyes stare directly at the camera. On the UI above the photo, a fully charged phone icon centred, torch shortcut icon on the left and a camera on the right. The clock says 11:36, Mon 3, during a waning gibbous moon.