REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 05/10/2026they tease me and turn a blind eye to how I'm genuinely suffering 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 28/09/2026did I deserve it? am i in actuality a horrible person for waking up twenty minutes later than I usually do? 100
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 15/09/2026My memory has been particularly crappy and I crave weed nonetheless. 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 13/09/2026I dissociated mid killer round and I got beat so hard I felt tears well up in my eyes. why do I have to be sick . 001
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 02/09/2026I hate this flesh cage. so much. and I hate how its making me care right now. by far the most agonizing facet of this anatomy is the way this thing releases hormones now. it is the most disgusting, repulsive, and unfair fact of my current circumstances. 110
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 01/09/2026almost a week ago now I looked in a mirror and actually somewhat liked how I looked. 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 19/08/2026so why am I getting memories of them mocking and degrading me while I'm right in front of them now? when I feel so numb and detached I could genuinely hurt myself. 100
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 23/07/2026I feel so sick . I was somehow very productive today anyways 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 20/07/2026I used to think I would rather still be apart of all the minorities im in now, because it helped me develop into a better person. straight bs. I'd rather be torn limb from limb than relive all of this. 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 14/07/2026hardest part of drawing mequot comforting me is figuring out how to comfort me :/ 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 14/07/2026I grieve the person I could've been if they raised me to question. if they raised me to be proud of who I am. 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 08/07/2026come 8:07pm tomorrow, I will be 30 days sober. I will also be breaking my month long streak of sobriety five minutes later. what a journey. 100
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 05/07/2026In my dreamspace, we made eye contact. I left before she could process the face she was looking at. I don't regret it. 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 02/07/2026I'm so stupid and pathetic and why can't it all be over 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 02/07/2026I need comfort. I need to be held. I need to be reassured. 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 01/07/2026How do I feel? Hopeless. Voiceless. Degraded. I'm surrounded by those two morons. How is suggesting that if we can't take care of the birds adequately, we should give them to someone who can, COMPARABLE to just killing people who don't have good lives for a variety of reasons. Fucking. Dumbass. 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 30/06/2026Everytime I take a sip of Canada dry ginger ale it's like I just shot up heroin for the first time. I go completely limp and start drooling all over myself. 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 27/06/2026I'm worried. I feel sick. Why can't they think of these things. I wish I didn't have 11 fucking birds. 100
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 19/06/2026"I was just being honest" I'm a man. A real man. You were lying. You fucking bastard. You FUCKING bastard. You petulant, unstable, neanderthal fuck. and you have the fucking audacity to smile like it's funny. Look over to him like he's on your side. I hope he's not shit talking me in private. 100
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 18/06/2026I had such a good time today that while leaving my house to walk bro home I left the door WIDE open. Holy shit. 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 11/06/2026nothing can make this feeling go away, besides rehab, therapy, and the right medication, in that order. 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 11/06/2026I was so hazy in fourth period today. I lost sense of time, told the teacher I came in at 1:13 cause that's what I thought it said on my phone. didn't question it. wasn't thinking at all 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 07/06/2026IM so flattered... this other really impressive person on the honor roll called me a "top student".... 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 07/06/2026I watched the TADC movie in my local Cineplex with my bestest of buds and I had a great time. I am very content. Above my baseline for the first time in a while. yippie! 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 04/06/2026can I have some subordinate/submissive male role models pls. 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 04/06/2026I would get high again but I'm low-key dissociating severely ✌️✌️ so if I don't consume weed I dissociate if I consume weed I dissociate damned if I do damned if I don't 010
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 03/06/2026could be my paranoia but I'm pretty sure they noticed how high I was last night. my eyes were red. I tried to fix it but I didn't commit to giving the orbs time to rehydrate. 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 03/06/2026sometimes I get the feeling I'm not sad enough to still be an addict hmmmm 000
REFUSAL @i0refuse.bsky.social · 02/06/2026I had a dream that my math teacher knew that I had tears in my eyes when I answered that question wrong and confronted me about it. when I told her I felt stupid she comforted me I think. wow I really do subconsciously want emotional support from her. god 000
