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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

another case of the "the fantasy is hot, but in reality i probably would hate it"

River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

i would be into somno if i wasn't just so eepy all the time i genuinely would get angry if someone woke me up, just to go back to sleep and wake up later to be mad at myself for fucking up getting railed in the middle of the night

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

yeah nah not to sound like an edgy teenage boy but i think i am just going to put my emotions on mute for a while again

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

do i think these are intrinsic to the woman experience? no. like most things it's a spook. but we do live in a society.

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

if i learned anything about womanhood from the few years i have been out it, plus what i learned from my mother, is that a lot of it boils down to sacrificing more than you ever thought you would need to while also needing to know exactly where to dig your heels in

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

i miss leaving a girl's place looking like i am returning from the field of battle 😔

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

it doesn't really hurt anymore but it's always there. i still think about music recommendations for a friend that i stopped talking to like a decade ago.

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

the gap left in your heart when you have a music recommendation for someone no longer in your life

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

my lainpilled gf customized my desktop and installed this little staticky gif of lain to appear when i log in 🥹

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

i love that my entire first foray into queer sexuality was with an abuser and manipulator and just immediately poisoned my relationship with parts of kink and sexuality for me

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

watching regret form on a stranger's face that gendered me correctly right after she heard my voice

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

they really out there stacking subs, huh?

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

no face pics for a little bit until i finish recovering from my last laser session 😭

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

the amount that i get deadnamed at work is highkey unacceptable, actually

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

i feel like that Haus comic where i, an older trans woman, finally comes to terms with just being "mommy" that is the way it is now i might even be starting to enjoy it..

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

i think i have finally been fully indoctrinated on the superiority of mechsploitation (gf explained her Girlframe homebrew to me and it sounds fucking awesome)

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

yeah from what i understand it's the type of place to live when you just go home to sleep and go out for everything else lol

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

eh kinda? depends on the crowd. everyone there just kinda seemed to mind their own business and that kinda put me at ease just being one person among millions. i don't get as uneasy as i did back in Florida wondering if someone in a crowd was gonna try to take a swing at me.

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

i am so in love with this stupid 🙂‍↕️ emoji

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

i was in nyc for like 24hr this past weekend and i already have my heart set on moving there 😤

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

when the vocalist hits the OOF and you just start swinging 🤌

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

gf and i skanking in the kitchen yesterday has to be a memory that plays back when i am about to die please please please

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

i can't believe i had a d&d character named "Pyre" years ago and never entertained the idea that they might be nonbinary until just now

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

the morning light is doing a lot of heavy lifting in this pic methinks 😖

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

you sure that's not the reflection of your face in the screen of your phone? 🥺💚

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

i'm transitioning into a brunette cigarette mom version of my mom

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

that cat is trying so hard to sleep whyyyyy 😭😭😭

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

operation "Get My Partner into BTMI/Jeff Rosenstock" has been a success 😤💚

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

girl i wish you could just catch a fucking break 🥺🫂💚

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

i could probably just get into better shape but that has less poetic symmetry, shut up

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

33yo i have finally had the experiences in life to help me understand the music i listened to when i was younger just in time for my feet and back to hurt after going to a show

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

i still remember when i was on Tumblr back in 2014 and i knew that BTMI was playing their last show in NYC and me and these other nerdy punks were all crying online and now i hear that song being played live a decade later 😭💚💚💚

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Peter @notalawyer.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

a lot of people act like there's a trade being offered where we give up trans athletes in sports and in exchange fascism is defeated forever

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

also, i just never thought that i would hear that song live ever since Bomb The Music Industry! stopped existing

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

basically this was a sad song from his old band about not being able to make a living playing music and just giving up on it to get paid and then completely resenting that choice but now, 20 years later, he played a huge show on top of Pier 17 🥹

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

Jeff played "Future 86" tonight and honestly i just started crying in the crowd 🥹😭💚

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River 🐺🥢🔥 @heinyhxc.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

oooooh i love this! it's giving ADF-01 Falken from Ace Combat

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