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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

in preparation for bottom surgery next week i shall now stop looking at social media of all sorts :) but not before posting a selfie

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

dreamt that jil sander was an acolyte of madame blavatsky

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

friend in a prestigious humanities doctoral program just told me the chair of their committee has advised/implored them to use chat gpt to finish their dissertation. so bleak

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

day four of a smoke detector in some adjacent building beeping its low battery warning every 60 seconds that i can hear very clearly from within my bedroom with windows closed :)

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

hair's not quite not enough and need thinner brows but im trying

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

remember 2010s trans studies when everyone was writing like this. not that i love it but that kind of heady optimism about 'trans*' as a concept feels so far away now

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

ambiently seeking recommendations for lengthy but also somewhat breezy novel or series of novels fitting for recovery from bottom surgery next month

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

just discovered that Berlant's blog, supervalentthought.com, which went down after they passed in 2021, is now hosting seemingly AI-generated philosophy slop, really really sad :(

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

feeling like my hair looks cute today after several weeks of not really feeling like that so i guess my daily routine from now on has to be swim in ocean with dear lesbian friend twenty five years my senior then shower but not wash hair and then sauna and not shower after that

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

selfie i took for purposes of flirtation in june

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

concrete poem i made for a large format artists book in 2021

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

history's greatest egg, miss jean genet

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steph @fkareynolds.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

'Cartoons were once exponents of the fantasy as opposed to rationalism. They ensured that justice was done to the creatures and objects thy electrified, by giving the maimed specimens a second life. All they do today is to confirm the victory of technological reason over truth.'

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

does anyone have an opinion about which english translation of faust i should read? partly inclined to read a 19th c translation but could do modern if there were a reason to

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

stray cat occasionally comes into my room

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 21/01/2026

i'm a very REASONABLE person

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 12/12/2025

dreamt that trans girls were calling each other dames instead of dolls

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 14/05/2025

dreamt i was making a tart. strawberries incorporated into the dough, and cooked chard with a drop or two of orange oil on top.

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 02/03/2025

dreamt of a new way people were signing off emails: IMYL (I miss your love)

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 30/01/2025

cat girls will outlast u

text from a 1952 paper by Margaret Mahler: "GEORGE was just under seven when admitted to our Children's Service with fulminant symptoms of delusions and hallucinations. He had developed fairly normally to the age of three. when a sister was born. He began to have night terrors. At about the same time he began to have what his mother aptly described as "talking tantrums." He would pace the room. talking angrily to himself about something which seemed entirely irrelevant to his environment. He would mumble: "I'm a pussy cat. I'm a pussy cat. Elaine is big. I'm a pussy cat." Shortly after the baby came, he wanted to wear her clothes. and often wanted to wear his mother's. He insisted that he wanted to be a girl, preferred female animals and asked his mother perseverative questions as to why he should not be a girl. At about the same time he began to be afraid of the holes in a fence which he passed. or wherever he encountered any. His father frequently used this fear as a threat. often telling him he would put him in a hole. He tried to get reassurance from his father by asking frequently: "Do you love me?"
George became a very good but asocial student. He often spoke of his sister. and again and again of his pet kitten in school. "I have a cat at home. It's a girl cat. I like my cat. I'm a girl cat."

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 23/01/2025

Dreamt that I was explaining dialectics to my brother with the example of needing to pee but not being able to

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 23/01/2025

incredible line from a student's essay

To be loved is to be changed. Covered in saliva, tears, and dry spots,

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

i have two poems in the new issue of Grotto: grottojournal.net/Willa-Smart

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 25/11/2024

have been casually assembling a bibliography of 20th century transfeminine life writing / memoirs. certainly not a complete list — if you know of any omissions plz lmk so that i can add them :)

pre-2000s transfeminine memoirs & life writing

* Daniel Paul Schreber, Memoirs of My Nervous Illness (1903)
* Jennie June, Autobiography of an Androgyne (1918)
* Jennie June, The Female Impersonators (1922)
* Lili Elbe, Man into Woman (1933)
* Tamara Reese, “Reborn”: A Factual Life Story of a Transition from Male to Female (1955)
* Hedy Jo Star, I Changed My Sex (1963)
* Christine Jorgensen, A Personal Autobiography (1967)
* Geoff Brown, I Want What I Want … To Be a Woman (1971, published as a novel)
* Dianna, Behold, I am a Woman (1972)
* Jan Morris, conundrum (1974)
* Being Different: The Autobiography of Jane Fry (1974)
* Canary Conn, Canary: The Story of a Transsexual (1974)
* Nancy Hunt, Mirror Image: The Odyssey of a Male-to-Female Transsexual (1978)
* Renee Richards, second serve (1981)
* Tula, I am a Woman (1982)
* Angela Douglas, Triple Jeopardy (1983)
* Ashley April (w Duncan Fallowell) April Ashley's Odyssey (1983)
* Inge Stephens, Alain, transsexuelle (1983, in french)
* Stephanie Castle, Feelings: a transsexual's explanation of a baffling condition (1992)
* Angela Douglas, Hollywoods Obsession (1992)
* Tula, My Story (1992)
* Julia Grant, Just Julia: The Story of an Extraordinary Woman (1994)
* Kate Bornstein, Gender Outlaw (1995)
* Jayne County, Man Enough to Be a Woman (1995)
* Mirrors: Portrait of a Lesbian Transsexual - Beth Elliot and Geri Nettic (1996)
* Bambi Lake, The Unsinkable Bambi Lake (1996)
* Claudine Griggs, Passage through Trinidad: journal of a surgical sex change (1996)
* Jennifer Spry, Orlando's sleep: an autobiography of gender (1997)
* Deirdre McCloskey, Crossing: A Memoir (1999)

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 17/11/2024

next dsm is going to replace gender dysphoria with unpunctuality

footnote from a robert stoller text: "In our research team, we practically consider the diagnosis of transsexualism made, before ever having seen the patient, when 'she' fails to appear at the appointed time for the first visit."

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 14/11/2024

it's cool that the entirety of the new world is in the sotadic zone

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steph @fkareynolds.bsky.social · 21/05/2024

I sure hope the powerful conclusions of my early masterwork aren't complicated by the unresolved difficulties of my later output

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 16/05/2024

Angela Woods suggests that the term "word salad" was invented by Jung.

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 23/02/2024

beth elliott realizing she is trans by getting really stoned

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 05/02/2024

dreamt a new slang term: 'slunty' (meaning 'lucky')

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 28/12/2023

unsure about new sweater

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 29/11/2023

i keep telling myself this

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 21/11/2023

transhistorical gay guy bleached hair

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 02/11/2023

dreamt the first line of a book i'd written: "bamboo had made her gay."

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 17/10/2023

also funny bit about terfs' "nostalgia for the Bad Old Days of women's music" when Stone is discussing her time as a recording engineer at Olivia Records

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 17/10/2023

interesting point in a 1995 interview where Sandy Stone suggests that the rise of transphobia might be understood less as a reaction to the public/legislative “success” of transsexuals than as a kind of economic opportunism born of the market established by the institutionalization of queer theory

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 24/09/2023

when i read a psychoanalytic case history i have the tendency to immediately identify with the patient regardless of the specifics of the case. feeling of ‘oh right, that’s me.’

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 13/08/2023

reading Schreber for the first time, liking it a lot, finding it a lot less tedious than i guess i had expected. i know Gherovici has a trans reading of the memoirs, and i think (?) @mckenziewark.bsky.social touches on this somewhere. any other strong recs for secondary literature on Schreber?

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 10/08/2023

does anyone know if this is true?

a page from Autobiography of an Androgyne with the following sentence underlined: "Inability to whistle is a general characteristic of passive inverts."

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 02/08/2023

i dream of an clingy dog named vomit who i affectionately call vom

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 13/07/2023

British Lord meets an intriguing woman at a party; as she leaves she drops a card with the name of a “Public School for Adults in need of Correction” and the instructions “Find Me” written on it.

cover of the zine, Sentenced Him to Be a Lady, by c.c. published by Empathy Press

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willa @gerridae.bsky.social · 09/07/2023

shot in the dark.. but does anyone have a digital copy of Angela Douglas' Hollywood Obsession (1992)?

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