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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 16/10/2026

Apologies for my stupid. Hashtag slut mode

Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 16/10/2026

Girl who wants to be soooo submissive and so good and, just. How do I nicely say I want them to use my mouth as their toy. I want to eat pussy all night if/when I can. So badly. Who needs a rose toy when you have my mouth. When you can grind on my face and I can know that means to do more.

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 16/10/2026

I just. Want them so badly. I am so. Augh.

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 16/10/2026

I am suuuuuch a good girl, I deserve to be choked while I touch myself and I deserve to have a tongue shoved down my throat and I deserve to be called such a good girl while I overstimulate myself and I

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

My MIL thinks her retirement fund does not go on her taxes. Her... Government retirement fund...

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

You know the insomnia episode is bad when you resign yourself to playing games in your head while you hope to fall asleep

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Int if read. I am okay just a little fuzzybrained.

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

She does not even remember the abuse and I know she is going to deny everything. I am never going to get closure or confirmation that I am not insane and misremembering. I dunno. I feel weird. I hate thinking about the logistics of my trauma but my brain has plans that do not align with my wants.

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

fine. I am far from the first or last person to experience this. What makes me so unique and special that I would develop such an insane disorder. What makes me so special that I would get a prophecy. Surely this is all just made up. I made it all up a long time ago and just ended up believing it.

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

I think the thing that keeps me going in circles about like,why I am convinced that my abuse was not that bad, is because it was primarily religious. And so many kids grow up religious. I cannot possibly be nearly as traumatized as I think when there are so many people who grew up like me and are

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Yeah I am talking about my trauma again

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

Chat I have kind of felt like a ghost in my own body all day. Is this a dissociative episode or have I contracted a rare and unknown disease

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

I am just saying I think you make an angel melt if you ran your finger along the halo.

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

I think halos are an erogenous zone

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Infinite Sexy Marriage @infinitesexy.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

I AM VACCINATED YEARLY AGAINST SEX SIN AND SMUT

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Hi. Why do I need an AI overview telling me what the graph tells me. I know how to read a forecast, I have been doing it since I was a little kid

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Sometimes I scroll through r/FDC just out of paranoia of being posted there (girl who got put on vent drama blogs in 2015 for DID stuff and never got over it) but there are so many people in that sub specifically that fundimentally do not believe in DID

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

"My apostate granddaughter ran away with her gay lover and now is claiming to have multiple personalities caused by me sharing the good word of the Lord, can we pray that the demons oppressing her cease in the name of Jesus?"

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

I just know when I send this letter I am going to be the talk of the prayer group

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

I want to talk about the weird memory I got. But I do not know what to tag it as. Part of me is saying it needs a CSA tag and that upsets me but it is not like. CSA. I suppose it is adjacent. But. Like. Ugh. It has to do with my Grandmother and it keeps coming up in my brain and bothering me.

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Sometimes I feel like I exaggerate it though, I think I get worried that I just convinced everyone including myself that I was abused and that really things were fine and I was just dramatic

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Doing a #promosky for fun My name is Zadkiel, I am an alter in a dissociative system. I use she/her, and I am an adult I post mostly bullshit. Memes, funny screenshots, oversharing personal anecdotes. I was raised in a cult and will sometimes talk about that. Sorry. I like Balatro a normal amount

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

.* ZADKIEL ༊ * ·˚ ⋆ ୨୧ ┄┈┄ she/her + ageless + bodily 26 ┄┈┄ ୨୧ ⋆ ABT ⇢ ˗ˏˋ Protector in a DID system ࿐ྂ DNF ⇢ ˗ˏˋ Christians, minors, homeschool parents, Proship, Zionist ࿐ྂ NOTE ⇢ ˗ˏˋ Engaged to @cherrycota.bsky.social 💛 ࿐ྂ

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Every time I see any post anywhere there is some chucklefuck in the comments either making a rapture joke or earnestly saying the Lord will come back soon and can I just say I am tired. I am so tired.

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Dom 🍧 #1 SPOB FAN @cherrycota.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

imagine hating me and im just in my room doing this

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Maybe my grandmother was not as abusive as I think

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

I do not know how to tag what I remembered the other day

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

I just feel like such a bad person, especially because a while ago I mentioned to my MIL that I was gonna go no contact with my family and she said it would make me as bad as them. Granted she does not know all the gorey details, but like. It haunts me a bit. I am still gonna send the letter but I

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

The letter is scathing though. I am such an asshole in it and I go into detail about my trauma and disorder

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Zadkiel 🪽 @eschatology.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

All of this on top of me having unlocked a strange and uncomfortable memory regarding my grandmother is making my head spin. I need to go lay down

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