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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

My friend also said im doing a better job of handling grief then she is Me bleeding through my trousers:

George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Also I think my friend lied to me about booking a gp appointment for their mental health cause its usually same day or next day appointments unless its for test so what the fuck

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Back from my walk and it has helped me feel better but now i feel really hungry and i dont want to eat so im gonna grab alot of pepsi max when I go to the shops

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I think im going to have some yogurt with fruit and bran flakes and charge my phone and go on a short walk

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Not really sure what to do with myself now

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Im very impressed i managed to not bleed onto my bed sheets while I was asleep

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I was going to have a nap but i feel too distressed and gulity about how I've been feeling so im gonna have a little s/h and then go back to bed

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Just want everything and everyone to leave me alone (Apart from everyone on bsky love you all so much pls never stop interacting me i love u 💕💕💕)

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I feel super gulity for having time off work btw

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Going to reply to said friend cause I feel a little bit more emotionally regulated after eating something

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Mum did buy me a soya caramel latte and vegan ham and cheese sandwich from Costa (in total 510cal) Im probably just going to either have cereal or if i have the energy go to morrisons and get some instant noodles for dinner

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Yes it normal to feel sad and arrange of emotions whilst grieving so I GUESS its totally normal and fine if i cut chunks of flesh out of my thighs fuck you oh my god

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Booked an appointment at the GP to get a sick note from the doctor so I can time off work i did manage to get the sick note with a new anti depressants prescription but also telling me its normal to be fucked up after losing someone is not helpful

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

To be honest I don't think I'll be getting through this shift

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

The only person irl that I can stand to be around is my mum which my teenage self would think that was crazy

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Yesterday I did mention to my friend (the one I mentioned yesterday) about me possibly calling in sick cause *insert sick leave options* and she mentioned me this morning she's called in sick today and i absolutely hate so much that it irritated me like I know how irrational and fucked up that is

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I should at least try to sleep

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Ugh my friend asking me why didnt I leave work early i didnt want to make her feel bad but like you lost your dad to alcoholism and you're still able to go to work I should be able to do the same cause my pain isnt as bad as what shes going through im just pathetic and lazy and broken

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

The urge to shave my beard and all of my body hair off because I feel disgusting

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Also people keep telling me contradictory things like one minute its okay to be sad and feel your feelings and next its remember positive memories and your grandma wouldn't want you to be this upset ALL IN THE SAME CONVERSATION Like which is it?????

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I feel so pathetic and gulity about grieving my grandma like why has the grief consumed and taken over everything when other people are going through much more terrible stuff why can't i just get on with things

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I think the reason I dread and avoid going to bed is because It's so difficult to get out of bed once im there and I dont want to try to sleep cause im thinking too much and im dreading going through another day again

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I feel like ive been permanently exhausted I am so shattered even after a nap

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

If i get misgendered at the funeral Someone 👏 is 👏 getting 👏 glassed 👏

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I do want to vent more about today but im so exhausted i really need to have a nap for a long time

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I got through work but it was a shit show and contemplating calling in sick tomorrow cause i don't think i am ready to go back to work

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Being at work feels like a punishment

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I hate work and i hate people i hate my job i just want to stay in bed and be left alone

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Ugh I still the gardening g gloves my grandma gave me and they're just on my table in the hall way near my front door and I see them all the time and it makes me so fucking sad cause i remember her giving them to me

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I really REALLY dont want to go to work tomorrow

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Im dreading work tomorrow when ive visited my mum this week for a couple of hours it took out all of my energy let alone 7.5 hour shift and commuting im fucked

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I might watch some modern family to help cheer me up ?

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I feel so gulity for canceling on my friend after she told me she gotten ready to come to mine at any point and now i feel like I don't deserve to eat:)))

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I did a smart thing of putting my towels in the wash at 8pm and I need a shower tonight :))))

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I tried to tell her I wasn't in the mood for company but shes making it really difficult and now i feel gulity cause shes told me she's gotten ready like ??? I have not given the vibe at all that I wanted company today

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I also don't want my friend to come over cause im feeling agitated and I dont want to say something in a tone that would make them anxious just like please leave me alone

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

My friend was meant to come over but im really not in the mood to be a host and im already struggling to figure out what to do for dinner cause i really cannot be arsed to cook and the idea of ordering food makes me feel icky

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

My nephew also threw up on me which is JUST SO AMAZING IM HAVING AMAZING FAMILY TIME

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Ive gotten to my mums and my brother, SIL and niece and nephew are here as well as my mum's partner and it is so overstimulating i regret coming over cause I just want to leave as soon as possible

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Although if anyone says my hair looks bad I will kill myself

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Does my hair look okay? Feeling super self conscious

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Made the mistake of telling my friend i was going to a candle light classical music concert next month and they are asking to join me and like..........nooooooo cause that would be a date cause its very romantic setting and romance makes me throw up lil in my mouth

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Im feeling really stressed out and overwhelmed by everything right now

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I need to get up my phone is on 11% and I need to get ready

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Doesnt help i fell asleep at 3am but woke up at 9am

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George @edleechboy.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Im really struggling to get out of bed

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