Once again they come to me, moments of doubt and pain.
An all too familiar feeling,
creeping in my brain.
Old and ugly.
Never pass.
Alone forevermore.
These things I had accepted.
Embraced so long ago.
Yet in my heart, still stab at me.
This pain I so well know.
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Dae 2026
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