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Not out of self pity, shame, or a lack of self confidence. But rather, when I’m overstimulated talking to people makes it worse, even when I WANT to talk still. Maybe partially, yes, I am ashamed to go more nonverbal in front of others when I’m overstimulated. I’m working on that in little ways.

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But for me, it’s sometimes comforting to listen to “sounds of people” without actually having to engage with them socially. The days where I open my window, I’m often lonely, yes, but also overstimulated as FUCK. I want to be around people, be less lonely. But I don’t want to talk to them

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I had heard the song, but hadn’t picked up on those lyrics until later. Yes! I do sometimes actually open a window to hear sounds of people. I do this when I’m lonely! Yes! I see myself in Mitski, just like every very emotional person does, because she’s Mitski.

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C3D@R @cedarleaves.bsky.social · 18/02/2026

These opening lyrics have always hit harder for me than most others in the song. “My god I’m so lonely So I open a window To hear sounds of people To hear sounds of people” At my first apartment, I did this often, and that was before I ever truly heard those lyrics in this song.

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Love the opening lyrics the most here

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Sara Century @saracentury.bsky.social · 19/01/2026

Our culture has such a reliance on art, mixed with so much disdain for artists' lives. Someone throws soup at a painting in a gallery or whatever and everyone acts like it's a literal murder, but that level of sympathy is for the object, almost never for the living conditions of artists.

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So not everything is so bleak for me, I hope the same for you. But it’s tough out here. I’m based in rural Missouri and I feel entirely helpless to do anything around me. But my MAGA coworker took the stickers off her car and started asking me about trans people in a thoughtful way.

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I’m sorry you went through it too. It’s horrible having to consider cutting them off, but I’ve known for a long time it’s the most likely outcome given our past. I have the strength to consider it now because I’ve found a new family via my partner that sees and supports me also.

Thank you. It is nice to be seen. That response made me cry in a good way, which is a nice change of pace. 🫶 I wish you well and really appreciate you saying something

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But even if humanity can’t heal, don’t we want to go out arm in arm? Wouldn’t you rather die leaning on your good friend’s shoulder? I don’t think we’re gonna die in an instant, but wouldn’t we rather go through hell together rather than alone? I’m fucking tired, but I’m alright. Thanks for reading

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Just because you don’t want to be a burden doesn’t mean you shouldn’t open up about how sad the news makes you currently. Just because “everyone is sad” doesn’t mean your friends won’t hold space for you to be sad around friendly faces. I think humanity could heal if we lean on each other.

You will be surprised how energizing it is to help someone else, and how we NEED to lean on each other in order to survive whatever hell we’re currently going through as a country, but also at an individual level. Imagine if your friends have family shit ON TOP of all of the other shit.

I fear a lot of people have become complacent in being loners because the demands of the world exhaust us. I beg you to video call with a friend for 20 minutes if that’s all the free time you guys can line up. I beg you to send “I love you” texts, but also “Is there anything I can do to help you?”

I lost a lot of people and I don’t want them back. No lie. Fuck you if you didn’t recognize how good of a friend I was until I was gone. But even if you’re one of those people, do me a favor and check on the ones you still have. I have someone to lean on, and if I didn’t I don’t know where I’d be.

Im fine. Right? We all are. Right? We’re fine and we’re working and we’re spending money we definitely have and we’re definitely eating three meals a day and we’re definitely still enjoying our hobbies and we’re fine. Right?? No. So please do yourself a favor and if you have friends, check on them.

I’m tired. 90 minutes of sleep sometime around 8pm and I meant to sleep again, but between my childhood memories flashing in my mind, my job falling apart at the seams, the constant construction on the highway, the state of our country, god I can’t even keep going. This thread would double in length

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Why is the world dead set on manipulating well intended people to be compliant in horrible things? Why am I as an autistic woman expected to push myself beyond my limits to go to work on top of my PTSD, while a n autistic woman in Minnesota gets detained and abused for going to the doctor?!!?!?!?!!?

At least let it be because we have a knack for imploding ourselves with family drama and dumbass decisions. But why does it have to be my parents falling victim to political propaganda? Why did I have to lose my child best friend to evangelism?

Yet, we’ve already had to cut off my own half-brother for non-political reasons, and I’ve fought so hard to get my parents on a better path. But there’s a fat chance they’re too far gone to reason with. Yet I hate that the administration is tearing my family apart more than it already was.