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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 17h

why tf am i letting myself go so much... ive already had 1050 cals and its not even 4pm yet... this months cal calendar is gonna be so humiliating...

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

only lost 0.8 pounds since last week :/ tbh i should just be happy I didnt gain after the wedding and that binge on tuesday...

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

September! My average for the month was 972.7 cals per day. My goal for next month is to lower that to around 800.

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

I keep oversexualising myself i know im doing it and I hate that I do it and feel ugly when I dont feel "fuckable" enough :/ I dont let myself js be a person cuz I only feel valuable and worthy when im sexualised...

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

i know ill never be happy. I should be but i just cant idk what to do i hate being alive as a person

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

im so fucking beyond depressed. I can barely move i cant get out of bed i dont want to live anymore. Nobody this disgusting deserves life

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

Im really tired and want to go back to sleep but im so scared of having another bad dream...

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

TW bad dream ): I took a nap (something I NEVER do) and woke up unable to move. I heard and felt someone coming into my room and I thought we was going to do stuff to me and I didn't know who it was so I tried screaming or getting up or moving but I couldnt move, he said stuff to me and touched me-

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

TW NSFW perversion i was totally black out last night n I remember him doing stuff 2 me once but apparently we did it "at least 3 times"😵‍💫ik he has somnophilia so im happy he had fun with me :3 I have a rlly hard time going 2 sleep usually too, hes only been able to do it when im crossfaded lol

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

i keep using my tits as like a stress ball... like I'm stressed or angry or scared so i just grab em hard is this normal human behaviour

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

i am so embarassed abt last night 😭ik my perverted friends are ok with pda and it was our wedding night but like I somehow feel like a whore for all the stuff I let him do to me infront of them lol

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

i have no idea how many cals yesterday was and im freaking out abt it..... i cant even really estimate i wouldnt be shocked if it was between 1500-3000.... like did i just ruin everything in one day...

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

im so ashamed he has to marry an ugly bride... he deserves so much better

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

My fiance's boss just quit and he almost got hit by an SUV while on his way home from work... I'm really worried cuz hes getting so stressed and I dont have a work permit so I cant even help... I feel like im just a total burden to him I love him sm he doesnt deserve to have to deal with this shit

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Thinking abt i actually will not say anything online before I kill myself cuz I dont want transphobes to use me as ammo against other trans ppl. I'll probably just delete everything im able to on all my accounts and hope im obscure enough that nobody with gaf

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Corsets kinda make them look nice, im probably gonna wear ts under my dress on saturday

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✿evil angel✿ @babyangelkitten.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

i wanna look nonhuman

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Lost almost 3 pounds since last week (: It wasn't an amazing week either, maybe my maintenence is like 1300 and not 900? cuz I was at 900 most of last week and still lost some weight. idk. I still wanna aim for 700, I cant let this make me slack off

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

I feel so fucking beyond miserable about how fucking masive I am. I was already tall and broad shouldered and have "extremely masculine features" according to my mom but now im also fucking fat

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Im literally fucking larping ed atp I dont do 24+hour fasts I barely stay under 1k a day I eat unhealthy shit and im fat as fuck its not even an ed atp im just a normal fatass who just wants to lose weight

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

I feel like a horrible partner tbh. Hes spent so much money on me between visits when we were long distance and bringing me here and buying me diy and gifts and like I just have nothing to offer... Our wedding is coming up and i just feel like im ruining his life by being with him, im not worth it

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

i wanna feel proud for losing 8 pounds already but im still fucking 140 pounds and 22.7 bmi... A year ago when i was 120 this wouldve been my biggest fucking nightmare

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

the other night he choked me until i was seeing stars and ive been chasing that high ever since 😵‍💫

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

sometimes i wanna tell ppl off but then i remember yea ur a fat fucking tranny lol dont embarass yourself

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

im switching to diy hrt cuz of the move and hes gonna get me injectibles instead of pills qwq I'm rlly nervous but i kinda like the idea of him injecting me,...,,

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🎃George👻 @edleechboy.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I hate having a human body :)))

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

i feel so fucking monsterously fat... im genuinely so fucking disgusted by my body

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

Need to stay consistently below 1k this week. I cut it pretty close today at 990 but I need to be more careful...

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚𝓐𝓼𝓱𝓵𝓮𝓮˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆ @calendarkitten.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

He let me try on a shirt he made when he was a kid 🥹 He's cleaning his childhood home rn, eventually he's gonna sew it into quilt

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