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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

oh on a positive note i fully brushed through my matted depression hair!! my scalp hurts but it is sparkling clean and i am going to try so so so so so hard to plait my hair bedfore bed going forward, it prevents so much hassle but i forgettt

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

dating a Fellow Queer™️ has done some much for coming to terms with my own identity still struggle with internalised....neo-label-phobia? not sure what youd call it, with my myself, but....its getting (a little) better

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 12/05/2026

my wildest fantasy is being on an antidepressant that works for more than 3 months

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 12/05/2026

my gf is actually the sweetest prettiest most wonderful person on the entire planet and she DOESNT SEE IT!!!! SHE DOESNT SEE HOW WONDERFUL SHE IS!!!! AND IT DRIVES ME S I L L Y !!!!

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 12/05/2026

end of the month meals really are something. wow i love Bowl Of Noodle and Bowl Of Sprouts

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 11/05/2026

love love love drawing my characters in emotional distress. yessss baby show me those furrowed brows and eyebags youre so fun to draw queen

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 10/05/2026

i am slightly worried about the seagull though it was acting weird and didnt fly away even when shooed so heres to hoping when i wake up from my GODDAMN NAP!!! there is a distinct lack of seagull in my communal garden

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 10/05/2026

a moment of unapprecation for the massive fucking seagull stood doing nothing outside my window at 6am and the rook that woke me up by deciding the only reasonable reaction to their existance is to stand next to them, screaming,

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 09/05/2026

anyway. check out this char design wip. shes a manamaid no i will not elaborate

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 09/05/2026

my mum always tells me i have my fridge whacked up too high and i could save money if i turn it down and like. yes. shes not wrong. but also if my cherry coke isnt so cold it hurts my tongue every time i take a sip ITS NOT COLD ENOUGH!!!

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 09/05/2026

relapsing to a level of depression that practically disables you is such a specific feeling of heartbreak after 10+ years of therapy, medication, internal work, etc at some point, it's hard to believe you will ever recover. Is this who I am destined to be for my whole existance?

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

you know that thing where you snap the end off an ice cream cone and make a mini one by scooping up a bit of leftover icecream typically destined for the stomach of the nearest canine? they should sell cones in that size. i would eat them by the handful

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

i also think. itd be like, SO sick, if my depression wasnt persistant. ngl it makes me laugh reading PDD classification as "two years or more" uh hey queen whats it called after almost 2 decades

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

i think maybe they should invent antidepressants that 1. actually work 2. dont ruin your entire reproductive system if you start taking them too young/for too long a time. i just think thatd be cool

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

sadly crunching on a singular bare wafer ice cream cone

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

ah another good night of gruesome true crime podcasts and hating myself

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

profile redesign did, we're so back lads

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

guess who's back with a fresh new relapse bitches (hope you're all doing okay)

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 26/10/2025

angsty youtube playlist makers can get it

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 25/10/2025

anyways i got a new meowmeow purr she is baby

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 25/10/2025

i binge ate half a cake because i was sad and am disgusting so im not eating anything ever again ever i think thats a rational response

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 25/10/2025

hey guess who's backkkkkk can't avoid the broken brain syndrome for too long

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

Sooooooooo.....what are you guys being for halloween? 🎃👻 :3

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

undercooking a bowl of wild rice so i can feel like a horse in a faraway meadow chewing stalks of grass

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Noah is tired|non-ed DNI @scaredangel.bsky.social · 08/10/2025

Reminder to all my lovely ed moots: You all deserve better than this life, this disorder, this bingeing and purging and restricting and negative self talk, better than the people and situations that put you here and keep you here. You deserve so much fucking better. You are worth so much more.

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 07/10/2025

cw period talk so :) now i know why i suddenly relapsed out of fucking nowhere this is my second period in a reasonable timespan after 6-ish years of none whatsoever so god fucking knows whats going on with my organs honestly i rather i didnt get it back

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 06/10/2025

any of you guys have tips to deal with blood sugar while fasting? i wanna get into it bc fr feels like i have no safe foods anymore but my body is fucking miserable with blood sugar lows🥴

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 06/10/2025

i feel like ive been stuck in an anhedonia/panic cycle the past few days either too stressed to respond to messages or so emotionally dead im just stuck staring at them

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 04/10/2025

everyones doing face reveals lately and how are you all so pretty ahsdhsfbgehrgj blessed timeline fr....

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

a wooof woof wooofie woof art block is hell and i wish i had chosen another hobby to dedicate my life to sometimes anyways. revamping the profile at some point, saluki spoilers!!

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

fuck capitalism i say while buying bat shaped chicken nuggets

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

GOD I MISS MY GF LONG DISTANCE SUCKS SOMEONE WIRE ME 2K SO I CAN GO AND SEE HER AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA BANGS HEAD AGAINST WALL

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

you know that thing where you snap the end off an ice cream cone and scoop some of the ice cream up with it so it makes a mini cone you can give to dogs that very very specific memory just popped into my head and i have no clue why i miss my pupper :<

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

i love my cat so much. so so much. until he is gnawing at the underneath of my mattress at 6am waking me up thREE DAYS IN A roW. LET ME SLEEP!!!!! HEATHEN FELINE

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

i don't know how to say this without being a massive bitch but i am begging you guys. if you don't have access to therapy, set aside 10 min twice a week or something for youtube videos, reading or a google deep dive and start learning the very basics of therapy and the mechanics of the brain

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 01/10/2025

i reaaaaaaaaaally wanna set up a bioactive vivarium again get a bunch of different isopods....springtails!!!!.......snails? hrmnmmrm...

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Choco 💜 @choco-mini.bsky.social · 01/10/2025

👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃 Good morning! 💜🌞💜 Happy October! 🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 01/10/2025

i brought soooo much plain and flavoured water because my tap water is icky and the goal this month is to hydrate like a mfer!! i also?? brought cereal? for the first time in, and im being serious, like, 8 years????? wanted an alternative to snacking on yoghurts for brekkie and its easy to ration

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 01/10/2025

also happy halloween month its spooky seasonnnnnn 🎃

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 01/10/2025

i hope i get to have prominent collarbones someday orz

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

if i buy nothing except various drinks and a handful of low cal stuff then i have to restrict otherwise ill starve by the 22nd ive cracked the code

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

if someone could invent popcorn but like. without the corn bit. just the popped bit?? id inhale it like an addict

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✩˖°. Sol .꙳✩ @bloodredmaws.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

wasting 400 cal early on a jacket spud and beans but ive been craving it like no other so i know im just gonna binge if i dont so yummy yummy yummers comfort foooood

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