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Awkward Ashley

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Weird womxn who writes. What is a Maelstrom to a Mountain?

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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 26/08/2026
Please, for the love of any god, Take these simmering months from me. The sweltering sweat soaking my bones, In swamps of regret and supplication, To a deity neither made of me, Nor for me, Yet ever demanding. Offerings at the alter of the Equinox, I cannot sleep unless it is cold. #poetsky
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 26/08/2026
Oh, so. People's face's, and their voice's, suddenly morphing, into his is A flashback, A symptom, to add to the list. And here I thought, I was mad, and I am, but the angry kind. I thought I was crazy, but what, is the difference, when the reason, doesn't change, the... hallucinations? #PTSD
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 07/08/2026
My friend and colleague passed away suddenly yesterday. She was in her mid 20s. It took me a long time to learn to love people. I didnt know that meant losing them would be so much harder. And then we are supposed to just carry on with our day jobs. I can't. Now what.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 14/07/2026
How do you explain to someone, That yes, They're old enough, To fix their own supper, but I missed too many years, Of doing it for them. It is my honor and obligation. #grief #ptsd #cptsd #motherhood
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 07/07/2026
I'm unpacking, sorting, purging, selling my old life. I anticipated this work. Time to make room for the new. Found my yearbooks. I thought it would be fun to take a walk though the past, 2001, 2002. There are more crates I'd forgotten about, hidden behind a door I wasnt prepared to walk through.
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Good things. Amplified. @gammarayjilly.bsky.social · 24/06/2026
Current mood: Watching multiple YouTube reactions to Field of Dreams. I fast forward to the part where James Earl Jones walks into the corn, and go from there. Just having a good cry, over and over again. @awkwardashley.bsky.social is my favourite for this particular brand of emotional flagellation.
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Man Says 'I Just Want To Be Left Alone'
Alt: Man Says 'I Just Want To Be Left Alone'
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 02/05/2026
Oh. I haven't been writing. That's what's been wrong with me. #fullmoon #poetsky #cptsd #grief #lolitsmorethanthat
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 02/05/2026
If you see me crying, Be glad for me. I am pouring it all over myself, Without getting it on anyone else. #grief #cptsd #poetsky #writesky
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 01/05/2026
If you had told me a decade ago that it I would be regularly debilitated by grief over the loss of my father, I would have scoffed and explained how I hardly knew him. I did not know that not knowing would be what I mourned the most. That is a loss that can never be made whole and neither can I.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 01/05/2026
If you cannot take the call Why are you answering?
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 14/02/2026
"I felt so bad for you, your wedding was already such a tragedy." What do you mean? I dont remember at all? "You called me crying, he'd been screaming, there was a wrong turned involved." And I couldn't conjure it, but I pretended I did. Then I promptly ended the call. #CPTSD
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 03/02/2026
My ex also used his neurodivergence as an excuse for SA. ADHD did not make you lie about the condom you said you put on. I found out there were others, too. You know you are not a safe person, that's why you're banned from RVA groups. You are a rapist. You lie, you coerce women.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 02/02/2026
What a year, dad.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 05/01/2026
My revenge is thriving. That's what I was manifesting, When you asked me, How I was doing, And I proclaimed, Consistently. Out of spite, I am THRIVING.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 03/01/2026
Venezueler. 😐
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AmbientDread @ambientdread.bsky.social · 17/12/2025
Just remember this It's not that I don't #recall Just don't want to tell #vss365 #haiku #prompt
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 17/12/2025
Why isn't anyone doing anything?
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Alt National Park Service @altnps.bsky.social · 21/11/2025
A quick reminder about tomorrow! Thank you to everyone who’s shown up over the last two days to lobby Congress! Let’s keep it going!
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 02/10/2025
"You're not in the family group chat so I just never remember to think about you." Dang. Thanks, ma.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 29/09/2025
Just because I'm overstimulated, doesn't mean it's anyone's fault.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 29/09/2025
I remember when, "You can't be meaner to me than I am to myself," felt like such a superpower. I understand it now as a self-defense mechanism I never deserved to have to learn. A familiar voice that never goes away. #cptsd #grief #bpd #oc
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 17/09/2025
The sound of grief, Is a wailing in my bones, A bubbling beneath my skin. The sound of grief, Is clicking heels echoing, Down a long hospital hallway. The sound of grief, Is an honest thought, I'll go see him Sunday. The sound of grief, Is a 2am Sunday call, He's gone. #grief #cptsd #poetsky #oc
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 16/09/2025
Missing you, Dad, Feels like a betrayal, of myself. Missing you, Dad, Feels like a reminder, to myself. Missing you, Dad, Feels like we lost, our one chance. Missing you, Dad, Feels like I failed you, once again. Missing you, Dad, Feels like I am the, bad eldest daughter. I am so angry, Dad.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 11/09/2025
"I've not yet begun to fight," You often say, And sometimes I think, I've been fighting my whole life, So, Please don't look at me that way, When I cannot fathom, Having to, Pick up the sword again. #vssdaily #oc #writingcommunity #poetsky #vss365 #cptsd #bpd
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 31/08/2025
I want to reach out, To my mom, And tell her, My best friend from high school, Just messaged me. And not to be, Hey girlie, But genuinely, To check in on me, & say sorry, For whatever the reasons are, We found ourselves so drifted apart. But I know what she'd say, & I'd rather have friends anyway.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 31/08/2025
The adage comes from the Crimean War, when soldiers believed that lighting three cigarettes with one match would result in one soldier's death.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 31/08/2025
I'm not sure, Where the adage, "They come in 3s" Comes from, But if it is so, Then I am expecting One more ghost. #writingprompt #writingcommunity #writesky #poetsky #poetry #vss365 #vssdaily #oc #imgonnalookitup
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 30/08/2025
It's 2000, I'm 15. What am I doing. Where am I going. Who am I friends with. Who was I. My parents' problem. Gifted kid with a grudge. Trying to be liked, trying to avoid sin, trying to be born again. Trying. Hard. It's been 25 years. Everyone I knew then is a stranger to me now. Even me.
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Tomás @303tom.bsky.social · 28/08/2025
new friends like flowers on the grape vine #dailyhaikuprompt #haiku #micropoetry #poetry
Tiny grape vine flowers
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 25/08/2025
I remember the palm trees against a twilight sky, the orange glow of the streetlights... Was that the last time I lived in a place with streetlights?
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 23/08/2025
Gosh, How fortunate am I, To witness this spider, Capture the stars, In the sky? #poetry #vss365 #vssdaily #writingcommunity #oc #poetsky #writingprompt
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 22/08/2025
My parents hit me & threatened me with violence, so did my grandparents. These are my earliest memories. Teachers in elementary who knew my grandma and taught my mother, threatened me with the same violence. I was in 1st grade when 1 washed my mouth out w/ soap. #cptsd #writingcommunity #oc #vss365
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 17/08/2025
Would you believe, I still cook the recipes, You taught me? Za'tar and tzatziki, Kafta and kibbeh, Like you taught me. #vssdaily #vss365 #writingprompt #writingcommunity #poetsky #poetry #oc #LB
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 09/08/2025
I think in Staccato When I Need to think Real Slow. #poetry #poetsky #author #writesky #vss365 #vssdaily #writingprompt #writingcommunity
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 09/08/2025
Get your Spoon, Out of My pot. #vss365 #vssdaily #poetry #poetsky #writingprompt #writingcommunity #boundaries #nosoupforyou
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 08/08/2025
"Your obsession with the "why" is an avoidance of what is." Yes, alright. I'll keep that.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 07/08/2025
Oh, that smile! That wickedly enchanting thing That crawls across your face The moment all my poised Rules and eccentricities Fall to my ankles in disgrace. #oc #poetry #poetsky #writingcommunity
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 06/08/2025
Me and my intuition (every single past version of myself) after a suspect interaction with someone who doesn't have good intentions. #art #writingcommunity #intuition #witchsky
Cynthia Sheppard's "Burn Out"
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 06/08/2025
I removed the teeth that anger gave me, The gnashing ivory of hate. I removed them one by one, Staving a hunger that will not abate. Give me bleeding gums, Harmless and tender. Over the violent consumption, In all its gore and splendor. #oc #poetsky #writingcommunity #vssdaily #vss365 #art
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SupaAfroGyrl @supaafrogyrl.bsky.social · 05/08/2025
someone’s lips & jaw refused to pucker & drop— instead, their lips spread wide & sauce became #sass then slipped from the plate into the spirit of a child or lower caste— when they’d dare the world turned— hunty yass! we all strut and attitude now, all spice of life & free some journey #vss365
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 06/08/2025
Don't mistake me. I know why she was, The way that she was. I get it. I forgive it, But I certainly didn't deserve it. #oc #writingcommunity #writingprompt #writesky #vss365 #vssdaily #poetry #poetsky #author #cptsd
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 06/08/2025
The symbol of this #cymbal is crashing into an unwelcoming shoreline. It is lined with buildings and smells like the taint of humanity. I used to know every coastline, every grain of sand. And now its all crashing down cymbalically, in a symbolic way.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 05/08/2025
Don't #sass me you *smack* stupid *smack* fucking *smack* slut! I bite my tongue until it bleeds, but my matron will not get acquiescence from me. #art #writingcommunity #poetsky #vssdaily #vss365 #writingprompt #cptsd #motherhunger
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dom of the dead @domjordan.bsky.social · 05/08/2025
babies ate my dingo #postapocalyptic #scifiart #art
in a scorched wasteland beneath an orange sky, on a motorbike with a ramskull strapped to the handlebars, a road warrior sits, her head concealed by a spiked helmet and gas mask. over one shoulder she holds a large bazooka. she is twisted in the saddle to look behind her through a scope she holds in her other hand. she wears jeans and a cutoff t shirt with the phrase "BABIES ATE MY DINGO" on the front.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 05/08/2025
I have about 1/3 of the final book of The Wheel of Time left and I am savoring every syllable.
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 05/08/2025
Heaven is Melting into you In the pre-dawn dark. This must be The cure for my ails You reaching for me. #poetry #poetsky #vss365 #vssdaily #writingprompt #author
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 01/08/2025
Gosh, I'm feeling restless. This ache in my bones is monstrous. My veins are bursting out of my skin. It must be August again. #heatwaves #cptsd #vssdaily #vss365 #vssdaily #poetsky #poetry #author #writingprompt #writesky
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 01/08/2025
I am A ball of rage that sits in my throat. I can't Breathe I can only choke. My chest Burns with a white hot iron weight. I breathe In the scalding acrid air of hate. It drives Me forward against the tundra of time. My heart Stays committing war crimes. #vss365 #vssdaily #poetsky #author #oc
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Awkward Ashley @awkwardashley.bsky.social · 30/07/2025
He pulled me to the bedroom window & pointed to the treetops in front of our 2nd-story view. The nautical twilight darkened the hues of the leaves— deep, haunting, viridescent. "That's the color for our bedroom." "Yes," I smiled, "my favorite." "Gilded with gold?" "Absolutely." #vss365 #write
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William Shakespeare @shakespeare.lol · 29/07/2025
What, wouldst thou have a serpent sting thee twice?
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