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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 2h

just made the sauce for the lentils, gonna start cooking the lentils in the rice cooker and clock in for a bit. crazy how we used to have 3 day weekends and now we rarely get even 2 days in a row 😓 we could, but since we don't get paid for Work Thoughts, we figure we may as well Do the work we dread

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 17h

ate almost a normal amount today so bout to hate ourselves for a week lmao fuck being short but it should be okay hopefully cos a lot of what we ate was whole foods which tend to not be as sluggish so a day or two of fasting should take care of it

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

mornin mooties! may your day be great (or at least okay!) sending love and strength 💕 we've been up almost 2 hrs but only woke up once which is unusual so that was Noice 😎

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

gnight peeps, sleep well, though looking at the time maybe for more of you it's good morning 😂 idk what time is

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

cw//n§fw . since this morning was hoping B would be up for some playtime. after a big chunk (maybe all?) of work (n after errands) he did indeed end up offering a little snack before dinner! 😂 it's been three days due to both of us not feeling the best but Body was *so*. sensitive. it was GREAT. and

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

work has been crazy which has been quite stressful (but not when we intentionally Logic the situation), and we've also had more time with B* which feels nice! so today has felt very strange 😂 *idk if it's actually been more time or that we went shopping together which we don't usually get to do 😇:'D

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

i'd love to see a graph of how different music affects my typing/work speed 😂 the OCD would definitely be a variable as well and it's very nerdy of me to be visualizing this 💀 (for context we used to test statisticaI process ctrl software though i can't be sure we wouldn't have thought this without)

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

in case we forgot to say - GOOD MORNING MOOTIES!! we're running on less than 3 hrs of sleep again so today gonna be fun 😅🤣(😭)

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

getting ready for grocery haul...we don't normally do this in the earlier morning so it will be strange 😅

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

sleep failing, B woke up in pain, gave him backrub and now bout to clock in cos why tf not

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

Switchy Switchy Switchy WHY it too much energy 😿 need to crash Why Can't We SLEEP. GAAHHH. okie. *deep breaths*...✨The Container✨ (we're Going to win, we Have to)

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

well fuck. ads started coming through again on this stream so now we're dealing with the Random Spanish trigger, and when we opened phone to type this, it was 0314, which is triggering for a completely different reason. we hurt. and miss e.m. even though we never met him. this sucks. need sleep tho.

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

okay gonna attempt more sleep. idk. i hope this works and we don't regret it.

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

finished the lentils for omad btw. need to make more but have to hit store first. might do that today cuz B mentioned needing to go too and im the only one authorized to drive my bro's car.

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

feeling as awake as we've been the past few days kinda just wanna clock in...but my hips are fuckin sore we need to keep laying down...we keep having to move around tho, to prove to selves that we Can...ugh it's annoying. fuck PTSD. and insomnia. and OCD. and bein broke. and AuDHD. I'M FUCKIN TIRED.

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

felt like justin was tryna surface earlier so maybe they can help us lay down tonight. i guess "not being able to lay down" and "needing to be held" are two separate reasons we employ the box, but anyway. fuck Memories man. fuck em. this shit is ridiculous. and we're 45.85 now which to *me*...SUCKS.

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

we're tired as hell. been kicking ass on less than 3 hrs sleep, attended work meeting and manager liked/implemented my ideas which was dope af, there are over 1000 invoices to process so we won't be bored tomorrow, and we'd be working more today except our ass hurts from being in the box last night.

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

don't wanna eat again but feel like we should 😐

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

strawberry lemonade sorbet for post-therapy treat 😅

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

the sawing and shouting/fighting continues 🙃

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

keep crying 😓😞 still kinda having aftershocks with the EMDR processing we did today...B is doing well enough he got me tea n crackers and he just brought me a cup o noodles 😭 (on the way home we had picked up the other med for B that we couldn't get last night and it seems to be helping, thankfully)

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

suddenly got hit with wave of hunger and remembered we only had that one cracker yesterday lol but if we eat now we'll prob eat til we're full so we're gonna wait til the hunger subsides again and then force eat a little something so we don't overdo it later

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

we surviveded therapy and other errands! very tired about it lol i hope we can nap or something my head feels like sharp TV static

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

okie therapy, drop off key, maybe store? idk how to do today. and we did doze off a tiny bit more and woke in a worse flashback so im mad we didn't just stay up cos now we're feeling even more gross and have to leave in like half an hour (which in ADHD time is both 5 minutes and 5 hours)

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

in one of the dreams last night we somehow burst one side of a binder so now im lowkey nervous to go out today 😳

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

got a few hrs sleep! think just gonna stay awake now tho one set of flashbacks is enough 😅😬

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

JUST REMEMBERED littlest sibling gave us a colouring book that's pocket size! which means we can conveniently colour while we're in box!! WE DON'T NEED A CLIPBOARD 🤩😎😼

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

today was so damn much...i fuckin hope tomorrow is simpler 😭 gnight peeps (but we'll prob still be on cos we gotta do some artsy shit before bed...Mind too fuckin noisy even if most of the noise feels like static we need to get colours out)

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

holey fuckin shit we took a wrong turn which made a 30 minute trip take an hour lmao but we're home now and when we smelled campfire smoke we almost had to pull over cos Ash was TRYna surface but that would've been No Good cos she is probably the worst behind the wheel lol ANYwayzies MEDS ACQUIRED 🤘

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

today is catching up...been up too long and done too many things...today was supposed to be over 6+ hrs ago...definitely feel a breakdown happening before bed but meds will be ready in 30 mins so we're gonna go...getting playlist ready...more night driving here we go but im kinda wired awake anyway.

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

i wish We had separate bodies so we could get the backrubs and hugs we need 😿😭😢

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

we're gonna get away with having only eaten 1 cracker today 😁🎉😇 granted it's for awful reasons but anyways if we're dizzy tomorrow we'll have something light before therapy (safety and all that) but im not even hungry anyway. think we have some yummy lentil leftovers in the fridge whenever we do eat

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

in the waiting room now...i rly fuckin hope they listen to him. he was right about so many things that docs dismissed and then they got so much worse and he's needed way too many surgeries the past few yrs i need him to be okay he needs to be okay 😭 and im driving in the dark tonight anxious as fuck

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

bro got the car...said he might be able to cut even more costs cos he knows idgaf if it looks like it did, just need the damn thing to function...maybe i need to think about my body more like my car...lmao jk that makes too much sense

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

on the bright side maybe we'll get away with skipping omad...well we had a cracker, but that's it...maybe we can keep it that way 😼

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

finally home safe, not 100% sure how things over there will go but when i walked in B looked so awful, apparently out of nowhere started switching between cold and sweat, said he might need me to take him to doc 😿 might be another episode of him being more correct than his dumbass gasIighting docs 😾

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

waiting at dealer for tow to bro's and can feel age slipping...now is not the time!! please not now, Brain 😭 we still have business to do before driving home and with how weirdly our loaner drives it'd be even worse for driving to feel like a videogame 😅

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

fuck we're exhausted. ran them out of work again though. maybe it is a good thing we can skip tomorrow for therapy.

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--•- •• -•-- @anamiacity1.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

i hate feeling food moving through me. also. my heartbeat is too fuckin' loud.

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