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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 09/01/2025

Im back with 3 new addictions and single 🥳🥳🥳

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 09/01/2025

Guess who's backkkkkkk and I've already lost 5 lbs since the first 😋😋

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 15/11/2024

Bro last night I passed a clot about the size of my head and let me tell you it HURT

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 14/11/2024

pronouns: any but prefer they/them height: 5'6 shoe size: 9 or 9½ woman's us zodiac: gemini smoke: anything I can get my hands on 👍 tattoos: 3 actually bigger ones I done with my tattoo pen and 3 little stick an pokes piercings: ears and snake bites favorite Drink: Flavored sparkling water!

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 14/11/2024

I just felt something pop in my stomach area kinds lower and now I'm in a lot of pain 👍 but I'm omw to school so

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 12/11/2024

Feeling high without being high??? Idfk what's going on I'm so disoriented and idk what to do to fix it

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 12/11/2024

I'm so dissociated rn I don't feel real and everything is moving in slow motion and I think I'm having a panic attack bc of it but I'm on the fuckin schools bus and can't do anything about it

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 11/11/2024

I've ate around 1800 cals and I've burned 370 so far!

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 11/11/2024

Back on track was 191.6 yesterday and now I'm 190.7:)

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 11/11/2024

I just took 3 of my prescribed sleep meds and now I can't feel my legs 😭 like everything is staticy and jus feeels floaty idk

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 11/11/2024

I'm easy and that they have the right to touch my body. I've been groped so many times throughout elementary school and high school. People seem to think if your fat you like being touched because you apparently never get that kind of attention so you must want it. I hate this world.

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 11/11/2024

harassment and abuse I went through. The weird touches and comments as a child, the fat shaming at schools, being starved by adults because I was too big, etc etc. I try to lose weight and overcome m binging to make sure that never happens to me again. Being "chubby" seems to make people think-

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 11/11/2024

the sad part is I don't even wanna lose weight for me. On a good day, I don't see anything wrong with my body. Sometimes I'm happy with my weight. Sometimes I don't mind being fat, but once I finally decide to recover and get a heathly relationship with food I remember the years apon years of-

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 11/11/2024

Can we tell if I've gained or not?? :/ I swear I cant tell but I think I definitely did but it may just be shadows? Idk I'm delusional

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 11/11/2024

Pretty please with a cherry on top😔😔

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Nny🔪 @homicidalkgs.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

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𝘴𝘢𝘷˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @isavedya.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

i hate humans. i should of been a tree or sum

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

dude one of my scales is broken and idk which one is reading 191.6 and the other is reading 183.4 but both read the same no matter how many times I step on it wtf😭

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

Why does being bodily exhaustion make it difficult to breathe 😭😭 it's so weird breathing feels heavy

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lucky!!! @coldskins.bsky.social · 09/11/2024

eds are weird wtf do you mean im upset because my HANDS look fat

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.*•.¸♡ ¸.•*. @dovesp05.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

ALL THIS MONTH HAS BROUGHT ME IS A B/R CYCLE I WANNA KMS. Starting new tmmr I SWEAR

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

There's only been one situation where I made my osdd known and I was so high and it somehow made me tuned into front room again and I started sobbing saying the voices are angry at me (they were bc I had been sober for 3 years ) and my bf ignored me for 2 hours saying I was crazy

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

Fear or be able to regress and have a safe person but I can't do either. I wish I could just break up with him but part of me just won't let me. I'm fading out of reality day by day and I'm scared one day I'll completely disappear.

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

And thinking both is fake I no longer "show it" I repress everything about myself from being transgender to my mental disorders and it's killing me. I no longer have a safe place to be open about myself and it's making me fall apart. I want to be able to switch out again without-

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

Prob gonna delete this later but I hate who I've became for this boy. Before I was making progress with my mental health and self love but now I'm falling apart. I am a medically recognized osdd system and I age regress but due to him not knowing anything about either -

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

Today's cals I'mma work out later to work some of it off. I binged and it's embarrassing so I'm posting everything I ate

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 09/11/2024

Gonna start over today following this diet plan

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 09/11/2024

Okay! #caterpillarsky I've made a telegram group for Ed folks to get together and talk and share struff:) it's 16+! Feel free to join and I'll approve everyone as soon as I can as it's late at night for me rn! t.me/+4saAecKSXZpiM2Nh

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v⋆ @natile.bsky.social · 09/11/2024

im at war!!!! (my tummy hurts :c)

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 09/11/2024

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 09/11/2024

Okay new game plan I'm on thes earch for a new app bc revolts fallen down hill and guilded is restricted to only roblox players 😭

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 08/11/2024

Would anyone join if I made an ed server on revolt??? It would be there bc discord deletes everything so fast- I used to have one but then I got broken up with and deleted it😭 revolt is available on Android and iOS but iOS is only website I believe!

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𝕊𝕒𝕟𝕕 ᝰ𝒜𝓁𝒾𝑒𝓃𝑒𝒹𝓈𝓀𝓎༉ @sandsbox.bsky.social · 08/11/2024

The blue is only for aesthetics the flavor is pineapple kiwi guava because those are my favorite fruits :)

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 08/11/2024

Binging bc my grandpa is in the hospital dying rn. Why can't I express my emotions normally? It isn't my fault I'm such a fat ass food and substances were shoved in my face as a kid with the words "this'll help". They don't help they don't

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Shay 𖤐 int w/ ⛔ @4nglofde4th.bsky.social · 08/11/2024

Yes omg spice hiccups are terrible 😭😭

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kyn @kynspo.bsky.social · 08/11/2024

omg everyone's getting sus'd yall be careful out here

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