iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 23m

love Cynthia Erivo so much every time I hear her voice I start crying

kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 1h

like net negative because of rent but like my daily/monthly expenses are actually fully covered by work right now if I keep at my current rate and pick up a few extra here and there

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 1h

waittttt I just did some math and I’m actually not burning through my savings like crazy like I had initially thought

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 2h

okay it only took 28 hours and spilling bleach on my favorite dark blue top and creating a vent account and the return of my passive suicidal ideation but I finally cleaned my bathroom 🥳

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 3h

feeling a little nervous rn but it’s better than the depressed I was yesterday so at least there’s improvement on that front

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 22h

made a rlly cunt layout for my vent account. not showing because I’m trying to figure out how much exposure I actually want to give that account but just trust me the layout is soooooo cunt

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 23h

it’s getting to a point again where I just kinda wish * *** ****

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

I’m so upset like genuinely I have been so upset all day and I’m so full of fucking anger i hate when my basic staples of everyday life get fucking ripped away from me

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

I went from having 4 versions of my favorite outfit to 1 version in the span of 1 month because for some reason my favorite garments either got bleach on them, ripped, or went missing

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

bleach dripped onto my favorite blue shirt now I’m trying to dye everything blue I feel like Phil Lester

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 15/10/2026

how to be happy despite everything

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

my notes app Me - water and with Roommate elec

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

as a woman who neglected her health for years because of social anxiety and only recently started going to the gym to overcome all of that I hope Shane Gillis experiences grievous bodily harm from a gym accident

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 14/10/2026

saving bcoz I don’t have a tumblr acc to see it so I need to go make one LMAO

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

didn’t read the article just reposting for the caption and the image and the name of the article

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

I always have to be like “does it link properly across the site” “did the header update” “did the header update on all pages” “mobile compatibility” “fix all mobile compatibility issues” “oh I found another issue let me go look at that” “okay back to my thing actually it’s all ugly restart” like UGH

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

this website project is also rlly rough bcoz I think to myself like “oh it should be easy to create like 3 pages and fill each of them in with content” but then it just turns into like a stream of things to check

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

mid afternoon slump omg 😴 I did my 5 hour shift and then worked on website for 3 hours so I’ve technically worked 8 hours and I can clock out for the day

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

their socks r kinda bedsheet coded too

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

seriously considering putting the “Hi my name is [Kiel]” on my official business portfolio’s about page as a danisnotonfire reference

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

crisis over everything was fine anyways

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

they’re not even staged or nothing hooooooly fuck 😭😭😭😭 that was THE biggest change I’ve made to the project since i literally created the project fuck fuck fuckkkkkkkk

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

MY LAPTOP BATTERY DIED AND I WASNT ABLE TO COMMIT MY CHANGES TO MY BRANCH FAWWKKKKKKKK

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

them touching feet is basically the same as them kissing on camera

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

wish I could do silly projects and joy maxx and do creative pursuits but alas I don’t think I could live with myself if I procrastinated this work for a single extra day

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

I have like 30 gajillion secrets I need to put somewhere

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

like even if I got a clean slate of new friends (which like, I don’t want at all, I love my friends) but if I did I know I would put up all these walls and barriers and I would get uncomfortable by my own limitations and then just be exactly where I am rn

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

like the issue is obviously that I’m the problem bcoz I should feel comfortable around all of my friends bcoz they’ve never provided me with reason to be uncomfortable around them but like idk I just am perpetually Uncomfortable™ these days

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

I wish I had like any friend I was comfortable with lmfao

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

happy phan day congratulations to all gay people today

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

also thank god I didn’t actually leave the Big Boss entered the building in that time and she would’ve seen that I left early if I had left ❤️‍🩹

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

tried to leave at 10:15 and realized I had another 15 minutes to my shift 😭😭😭😭😭 I was heartbrokennnnn

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

update I survived but I woke up with a NASTY headache 😓 it was okay tho I got to blast my music using the building’s sound system which was rlly cool

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

stomach hurts rlly bad on my shift and it’s so cold

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

okay I have the 5:45am shift tmrw 🫪hope I wake up properly wish me luck

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

I just don’t think I’m an attention seeking person lmfao if I’m miserable I stay pretty moderately quiet about it

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

had to call my dad for an hour and convince him to take care of his health yk what im just gonna work rlly hard on Tuesday

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

need to put things into my website and work on it esp given that I only work on it once a week on Mondays but also my room is disastrously messy and I had such a horrible high-stress day yesterday when that was supposed to be my relaxation day so I’m kinda tempted to just call today my vacation

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

feeling very blegh and feeling like it’s hard to get anything done and stressed and icky and ugh

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

it kinda got me interested in dating again bcoz like 1. highkey haven’t thought about it 2. felt too traumatized when I did think about it 3. didn’t know that the trauma element isn’t normal

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

main takeaways: 1. what I have gone through is NOT normal 2. you kinda just do it and then it either produces a result or it doesn’t and it’s actually not a big deal any which way 3. based on my relationship history i basically just need to be tricked into already being in a relationship

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

just had a veryyyy interesting and cool conversation with my roommate about dating and trying to figure out if ur ready for a relationship and how to actually achieve the relationship that u want. hmmm much to think about

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

wait yea vouch like idk exactly what ur bringing but I looked it up and the venue allows u to bring medication if u need to bring it with you!! there might be other stuff around. I’m also trying to figure out a way I could help store ur stuff w/o doxxing myself lmfao

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

SAN JOSE SAN JOSE SAN JOSE SAN JOSE GET HARD ON SAN JOSE GET HARD IN SAN JOSEEEEEE

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

ESH but it’s about my parents fighting and involving me like every single time

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

littol baby in my family now I’m auntieeeeee

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kiel | phan jose @zxidycks.bsky.social · 11/10/2026

21 and 26 on Celsius for my international oomfs

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