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Lindsay Ayn, MS

@zamdanga.substack.com
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(she/they) Writer/speaker/media producer focused on individual/collective trauma healing and neurodivergent self actualization. 🏳️‍🌈🎮🎲 Geeky and gay in PDX. 🔗 www.zamdanga.com

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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 30/03/2026
All the dudes who say they want a girl with a "touch a tism" of their dating profile may want to know I just cried because my Grubhub driver forgot my orange juice.
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Atlas Omnicorp (Commissions Open!) @atlasomnicorp.com · 04/11/2025
We'll be at the Goodsprings Vendor Village all weekend! Stop on by for the finest chems, weapons, Holotapes, and other wasteland essentials!
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Atlas Omnicorp (Commissions Open!) @atlasomnicorp.com · 09/11/2025
Five days and counting!
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 05/10/2025
🚨 New essay drop! “You Heal, They Leave” If you follow trauma healing online, you’ve heard this a million times, rephrased in a million ways: “You will lose people when you heal.” Let’s talk about it. 🔗 Read the full post: open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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You Heal, They Leave
But does that make them the bad guy?
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 24/09/2025
Hah. Nice. (Finally reading Neuroqueer Heresies.)
Quote from Neuroqueer Heresies. "I’d like to propose that instead of rating human beings as “high-functioning” or “low-functioning,” we apply the terms “high-functioning” and “low-functioning” to societies, rating the functioning of a society according to the degree to which it succeeds in supporting and furthering the well-being of all of its members"
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 19/09/2025
Isn't it crazy how despite knowing we would all benefit from living in a world full of educated people, we don't have the option to take a part time job getting paid to read?
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 16/09/2025
🚨 New essay drop! “Save Your Punches For Power” The internet doesn’t seem to grasp *power differentials.* By now, we ought to know the difference between fighting oppression and fighting each other, but I’m not seeing that. Let’s talk about it. 🔗 open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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Save Your Punches For Power
Can we tell the difference between fighting oppression and fighting each other?
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 15/09/2025
There's something weirdly empowering about crying while doing dishes. It's like, yes, I'm feeling all the feelings, but I'm still here, I'm still taking care of my life, and I am NOT giving up. 💪
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 14/09/2025
🚨 New essay drop! “Narcissism, Neurodivergence, and Self-Control” In July, I said the core of narcissism is entitlement to evade anything perceived as threat at all costs. In that case, what’s with the cruelty for sport? 🔗 open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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Narcissism, Neurodivergence, and Self-Control
If narcissism is about avoiding threats, what’s with the cruelty for sport?
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 11/09/2025
🚨 New essay drop! “The Fears Are Real, But Do We Need The Triggers?” Are we gaslighting ourselves if we challenge our triggers? I’m currently binge-reading Dr. Catherine M. Pittman’s work on the amygdala... 🔗 open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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The Fears Are Real, But Do We Need The Triggers?
Are we gaslighting ourselves if we challenge our triggers?
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 29/08/2025
Meet Baby Battle Buddy, my cartoon personification of my amygdala. He’s my body guard, but also a baby. I feel like if I picture this character every time I’m triggered, it’ll be easier to have compassion for myself. 😂 (Illustrated in Adobe Fresco, for whoever is curious.)
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 29/08/2025
Quitting smoking is easier than quitting rumination because I can't just decide to stop buying packs of imaginary arguments at the corner store because I'm out of money.
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aslynn is just a ghoul 👻 @aslynnromano.com · 29/08/2025
Hello podcasters and bloggers Does this book look cool to you? Would you like to talk to the author about it? Amelia seems like a super cool person on a similar mission as many of us. Check out their book & let me know if you'd like to get in touch & are having trouble ameliajmichael.com/book/
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Book - Amelia J. Michael
Show Up. Stand Up. Take Action. Inclusion is under attack, and compliance is not the only option. Gender Inclusion at Work is a hands-on guide for leaders, HR teams, and allies who refuse to let trans...
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Doc Blubbin @docblubbin.bsky.social · 29/08/2025
While rewatching the Fallout Amazon series for the wiki, I noticed this aspirant using a walker to get around. As someone who has had to use a walker just like that in the past due to medical issues, it was really nice to see included. Representation matters.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 29/08/2025
Thank you, NSP, for being a continuing source for joy in my life. 💖 youtu.be/yqVzsXxD_h4?...
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The Power Of Love - NSP
YouTube video by Ninja Sex Party
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 26/08/2025
I’m really proud of straight women. Y’all have come a long way. How do I know? Pedro Pascal. You picked a good one. Good job.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 24/08/2025
No one gets to judge me for my response to their lies. If the trigger wasn’t relevant to reality, neither was my response. Don’t call me a bad actor when you’re a bad director.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 24/08/2025
When I hurt a person, the person hates me. When my keeper hurts a person, the person hates themself. Never forget that anyone you blame for a conflict failed to convince you to blame someone else. The creepiest among us never fail. 🔗 open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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Is Your Best Friend The Devil? 🚩 A List of Red Flags
Not sure if your friendship is toxic? Or if you’re the toxic one? This list might help.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 22/08/2025
🚨 Update from Zamdanga Impact on Substack 🚨 Zamdanga Impact on break—returning December 2025. Focusing on Zamdanga Healing and introspection while I gather strength and wisdom. 🔗 open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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Update: Zamdanga Impact Will Resume in December
Focusing on Zamdanga Healing and introspection while I gather strength and wisdom.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 22/08/2025
Trying to control your life from inside an abusive relationship is like trying to steer a train from inside the passenger car. You can't even explore your options until you get off.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 21/08/2025
Well, just smoked my last cigarette. Not for my health—for my wallet. Replacing the habit with meditation. If you need me, I’ll likely be climbing the walls and clawing at my own face.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 21/08/2025
On my Substack I talk about someone I call "my keeper." This. This. THIS is how she treated me. For 25 goddamn years. Only she actually DID put me in a psych ward. www.threads.com/@adamconover...
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Adam Conover (@adamconover) on Threads
Vivian Wilson gave me a masterclass in bullying
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 20/08/2025
🚨 New essay drop! “Demand Avoidant? This Might Change Your Life” 🚨 Living with demand avoidance is hard. But I recently realized that my go-to strategies have stolen years of my life away. Luckily, I finally found the answer. Let me break it down for you. 🔗 open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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Demand Avoidant? This Might Change Your Life
As it turns out—avoiding demands is demanding.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 20/08/2025
Refusing to waste time wastes time. ⏱️ Refusing to waste time wastes time. ⏱️ Refusing to waste time wastes time.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 18/08/2025
I just watched Drive-Away Dolls. This lesbian didn't know how much she wanted to see Margaret Qualley cosplaying Shane McCutcheon. 😂 👩‍❤️‍👩
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 16/08/2025
🚨 New essay drop! “My Silliest ADHD Life Hacks” 🚨 Neurodivergent trauma healing is hard—we need some levity up in here. So today, I’d like to dazzle you with the silliest ways I manage my ADHD. 🔗 open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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My Silliest ADHD Life Hacks
Managing ADHD can be hard. Let’s have fun with it.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 15/08/2025
Lessons I've learned the hard way #100,824: if you don't let people ask things of you to your face, people will take things from you behind your back. You're a human being in an energy exchange ecosystem, and there's no opting out until you die.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 14/08/2025
At a street fair here in Portland I saw an adorable local business selling these hand-decorated pill cases. I reach a lot of ND folks who take meds so I thought y'all would enjoy seeing pill cases treated creativity as much as I did. Check out their shop. pilljoy.shop
Arrangement of Pilljoy pill cases.Arrangement of Pilljoy pill cases.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 09/08/2025
🚨 New essay drop! 🚨 “Behind the Scenes: My Novel Is Gonna Suck”  Allow me to dazzle you—from behind the security of a paywall—with all the reasons my novel is dragging me into a full-on psychological tailspin. (Free Preview 💸 Full Access for Paid Subs) 🔗 open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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Behind the Scenes: My Novel Is Gonna Suck
Oh well. Finished is better than perfect.
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Thrive, Culture Shift Consulting @thrive-csc.bsky.social · 02/08/2025
Toxic workplaces leave employees sick, scared, and looking for an exit. Here's how to combat unhealthy conditions Organizations should build a culture of respect and safety and evaluate leaders on their conformity with those values. www.apa.org/topics/healt...
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Toxic workplaces leave employees sick, scared, and looking for an exit. How to combat unhealthy conditions
Organizations should build a culture of respect and safety and should evaluate leaders on their conformity with those values.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 03/08/2025
🚨 New essay drop! “Eternal Economic Growth? You’re Too Smart For That” 🚨 Capitalism isn't rewarding the fittest—it's selecting for those who can exploit others best. Let’s talk about why cooperation is better than culling. 🔗 open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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Eternal Economic Growth? You’re Too Smart For That
Let’s stop eating ourselves alive—and start actually evolving.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 01/08/2025
Just added a reel of older YouTube videos where I discuss autism and neurodivergence to my website. 😁 youtu.be/vi6spc7mk-s?...
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[2022–2024] Exploring Autism and Trauma
YouTube video by Zamdanga: Creative Hub of Lindsay Ayn, MS
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 30/07/2025
I'm watching the new War of the Worlds movie on Prime. It's good fun with some intriguing, timely concepts and some good lines, but also very stupid. I would be interested in a 25-30% stupidity reduction edit. I think it could be done.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 30/07/2025
AI armchair sleuths are a new terror autistic people simply do not need.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 30/07/2025
The older I get, the more I find the idea of losing libraries depressing. I hope we learn to cherish them.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 29/07/2025
🚨 New essay drop! "For The Extroverted AuDHDer—A Social Survival Guide" 🚨 How to stop being used, invite rewarding friendships, and finally silence your “Social Urgency Gremlin.” 🔗 open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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For The Extroverted AuDHDer—A Social Survival Guide
Watch out for the Social Urgency Gremlin!
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 27/07/2025
New life goal: Have a crew to play this game with.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 26/07/2025
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The Most Dangerous Philosophy in History Is Unfolding Right in Front of Us
YouTube video by Pursuit of Wonder
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 25/07/2025
This is the most important thing you’ll read on the internet today. You won’t hear me say that often, I promise. open.substack.com/pub/positive...
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Disintegration as a Path to Meaning
Living with Integrity While the World Falls Apart. As systems break down, we need tools for inner growth. This post reframes collapse as a moment for choosing who we’re becoming.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 24/07/2025
This looks fun! As a neurodivergent person with ARFID, Vite Ramen has greatly positively impacted my life. Support! www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAir...
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Dokibird x Vite Ramen Teaser Trailer
YouTube video by Vite Ramen
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Dr. Daniel Wendler (Neurodiversity & Making Friends) @danielwendler.com · 18/07/2025
If you've ever wanted to connect better with the people close to you, this video is for you 🙂 Learn how to use your curiosity to connect deeper with your closest friends and loved ones. youtube.com/shorts/Jblfb... #friendship #autism #relationships
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How to connect better with others through curiosity #friendship #socialskills #relationships
YouTube video by Dr. Dan | Neurodivergent Psychologist
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Beyond 6 Seconds: Neurodiversity Stories @beyond6seconds.bsky.social · 21/07/2025
On my latest episode, I talked with Lisa Hurley about her experience as a late-diagnosed autistic Black woman, what inspired her new book "Space To Exhale" and the importance of community and self-care: www.beyond6seconds.net/239
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 23/07/2025
Crazy how having the world's knowledge at your fingertips somehow makes possibility feel more narrow.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 22/07/2025
🚨 New essay drop! Narcissism—You Haven’t Heard This Take Yet 🚨 Narcissism has shaped my entire life. The fact that my heart hasn’t dissolved into a pile of ash is a wonder of the natural world. Now that I'm safe, I'm clear-headed enough to talk about it. 🔗 open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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Narcissism—You Haven’t Heard This Take Yet
Wisdom from a lifetime of narcissistic abuse—backed by research.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 22/07/2025
🚩Is Your Best Friend The Devil? A List of Red Flags🚩 Not sure if your friendship is toxic? Or if you’re the toxic one? This list might help. 🔗 zamdanga.substack.com/p/is-your-be...
"If you believe in someone who says they are capable of holding themselves accountable, but they never seem to hold themselves accountable to you, your brain concludes that you are the problem. They are taking the pain they are unable to process and passing it to you instead. That makes it abusive behavior, and unless you’re entrenched in a survival situation, you don’t need to tolerate it."
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 21/07/2025
I don't think I've ever been this thrown by an Emmy snub. It exceeds irritating and hits political and suspicious. The show is glorious. collider.com/interview-wi...
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One of the Emmys' Most-Snubbed Fantasy Dramas Is Still a Masterpiece of Television
Interview with the Vampire continues to be largely snubbed by the Emmys, but this masterpiece of television will ultimately stand the test of time.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 20/07/2025
Wow. 39 years of overthinking and I finally figured out something so simple. If you have to take 100% of the blame to recover a relationship? The other person doesn't want it recovered. 😑
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 19/07/2025
🚨 New essay drop from Zamdanga Impact!🚨 A lot of companies need fresh talent, but may not admit they’re hesitant to hire autistic employees. Let’s talk about what they’re missing. 🔗 open.substack.com/pub/zamdanga...
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Hire Autistic People—Thank Me Later
The return on accommodating autistic workers is higher than you think.
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 18/07/2025
I wish everyone who has ever betrayed someone understood that they punished a person for trusting them. How is that a wise way to live? 💔
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Lindsay Ayn, MS @zamdanga.substack.com · 18/07/2025
Just saw a post that basically said if I don't purposely rough up and skewer my authentic autistic perfectionist style of writing, I'm going to be dismissed as AI. I wanted to throw my phone against the wall.
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