iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 4h

people lost their minds and gave their money to a pedophile i can't stand it

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

im genuinely sorry to anyone who hasnt heard from me this past week like oh my god fuck i wanna talk to you guys

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

my chest really hurts :(

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

worst meltdown of the year and all i have to show for it is a torn shirt and a hole in the tile

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

-someone still had an issue w me abt the situation (one of the artists in that server has me blocked still) and holy fuck the WAY i immediately got paranoid abt it 👎

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

for context im in a decently sized artists discord server that shares art. my good friend sends the art i made recently and ppl thought it was nice. which was cool yes! but when i went to check back on the server like 2 days later search bar returned ZERO results looking my name up. i then thought-

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

genuinely i might be the dumbest mf bc for 2 hours i legit just thought ppl deleted ALL messages talking abt me on a server i was in and it soured my mood throughout the walk w my mom i was js sulking and panicked. turns out the search bar jst never checked one of the age restricted channels. fuck

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

u express ur genuine apologies to someone and then get treated like actual living trash for no reason haha On everything , Fuck you and eat shit i'm never humiliating myself for you ever again

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

ppl cant harass me anymore so they go after friends. ppl so confidently peddle legitimate misinformation as a method of embarrassing & harassing them and im tired. genuinely stop this shit. confront me if you have a personal gripe or something you want to talk to me about. i welcome it

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

brain PLEASE for the love of everything holy, STOP giving me dreams where i ruined others lives and broke their trust forever only to jolt me back into the real world

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

i think people are growing really sick of me and i don't know what to do about it

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

yall midterms kicking my ass in rn

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

i'm not saying what i did wasn't wrong and that everyone should forgive me from the get go just because i expressed my apologies and took time to step back but like. fuck man. what's a person to do in the aftermath. where everyone's moved on but after everything you find yourself back where you are

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

by this point i do understand that it shouldn't be this huge of a deal for me but holy christ i don't mean to demean or dismiss anyone else's experiences especially those dealing with more tangible, legitimately distressing matters. but fuck it really hasn't felt easy at any point i was just coping

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

this isn't like baby's first controversy even. i've been called out lots and justifiably so for being wrong but each time it's happened i was able to grow past it relatively quickly. why does this one feel so much heavier

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

comparison is in bad taste but holy fuck the more i spend my time on this platform the more this gloomy cloud, this weight of punishment, follows me everywhere, whatever i post, whoever i talk to. like mind you i'm MONTHS past this and yet it felt just like last week

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

this is without a doubt one of the lowest points i've dipped this month. like i've never felt such insane dread rain down on me before in such a short amount of time i'm breaking records as we speak

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

i feel like everyone who is even in remote proximity to me just straight up dies into a slow, painful death, because my aura is so abysmal, my energy is just so awful and poisonous it slowly eats at you

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

i only post less because i've started journaling more this month

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 02/08/2026

i rrally hate thinking about why my peers want to be around me so much bc every answer feels like some version of pity

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

i'm feeling unusually hostile and aggressive. i've never been more frustrated about anything in quite a while

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

no i can legit tank this trust

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RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

my god how exhausting it is to live this way on a day to day basis and i dont mean to say im constantly screwed over and over its actually far from that, my circumstances actually treat me really, really well its just that my mind cant just accept that and always has to pull off some bs ALL the time